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 Posted: Sun Feb 12, 2006 10:38 pm
Okay... I'll just list them all.
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I was recently told that I am the scum of the earth. surprised
See, the reason was is that one of the girls who molested me... i used to be her best friend. One of the friends I know now... well, she's her best friend.
So I TOLD HER.
Ohmygod. I'm stupid.
She told me not to make up lies and ignored me for a week.
I asked her on the last day of the week if she hated me.
She said yes.
Sooo I basically cried my eyes out but whatever.
So some of my friends are telling me that she is just torn between what to believe, and she thinks I am jealous of her best friend.
Oh my God.
Ugh! This really makes me mad!
She says "N (( aka the friend in question )) is innocent, she'd never do that."
Why can't people realize that people aren't always what they seem? My GRANDPA is a pastor and he raped me and my sisters!
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I finally got the guts to tell my mom about N.
She told me it was my fault.
"If YOU hadn't been talking to P (( My cousin who molested me, too )) and N at the same time about that, NOTHING WOULD HAVE HAPPENED! It's your fault!"
Jeeze, thanks for making me feel better about it, mom. rolleyes
i mean, I love my mom dearly... but she likes to minimize my problems... I think it's because they were all my age. People tend to do that. They read about my best friend, a stranger, and my cousin doing things to me and don't care, then they hear about my granpa and freak out.
Why? My therapist says it's because he's older and "more responsible".
But the other things hurt me more...
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My therapist is mad at me for telling the girl about N.
She says I don't need to tell people.
"That you have to accept it yourself first"
I DO accept it! I KNOW I was raped and molested! WHAT ELSE CAN I SAY!?
YEAH, it brings me down sometimes, but just admitting what happened isn't going to make that stop!
Things like this make me want to tell everyone in the entire world.
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On top of all of this, I haven't been eating lately cause I'm so depressed about how my friend hates me.
And, everytime I eat I throw up.
I just get sick. I'm not doing it on purpose.
Any advice? sweatdrop
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Posted: Mon Feb 13, 2006 6:27 pm
1) If the girl chooses not to believe you, that's her problem. If she wants to be friends with a molestor, that's her problem. Maybe when she's older and more mature, she'll be more willing to listen and understand. Until then, it might just be that this girl is in denial about her new friend. I would advise just to ignore her as best you can, and get the principal involved at your school if she's bothering you.
2) I don't know what to tell you on this one. Perhaps you could ask your mom to go to some sort of family counselling with you? It sounds like she might be in denial too, because she's putting all of the blame on you, when it's obviously not your fault.
3) I don't know what to tell you, sorry. whee
4) I'd advise going to see your family doctor, and tell him/her that you can't keep food right now because you're upset about some situations in your life/you're depressed. Maybe she can give you something to help settle your stomach. Worse come to work, you could take an anti-nausea pill right before you have something to eat.
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Posted: Tue Feb 14, 2006 4:49 pm
If she wants to be friends with a molestor thats her problem. I too advise you to ignore her. If she starts becoming more of a problem, I suggest you tell the princepal or someone whom you truly trust. I also suggest you to go to counseling with your mother. its NOT your fault, you shouldn't be blamed for doing something that you did not do. I also say to go to the doctor, if you can't then try some few pills or try to relax yourself. I think it could be because of stressed and about your problem. Try having a warm bath or something you like to do.
If you need to talk to someone I'm always here.
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