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So I was really mad, and I told him I wanted to break up. He said he thinks we should too. He said he doesn't have anywhere to go yet, so I told him he could stay a few days. He pulled this last time. I don't like it. I understand I broke up with him this time but I'm still upset. I still cried about it. I'd rather stay together, I would rather he just went back to even part of who he used to be, but it's not gonna happen. If we have to break up I wish he would just leave. It's dumb cause he doesn't have enough money to live on his own, I know he's just gonna go live with his mom or dad again. Ugh. I don't know why I can't just meet the right person. I thought this time I had a keeper, and I was wrong. I know I'm young but I just want to get married and stay with someone forever. I'm tired of all the heartbreak. I want to meet someone that understands me, someone that I can understand.

well... this is going to sound corny but it helped me.

If you love something, set it free. If it comes back to you then it's yours, but if it doesn't then it was never yours in the first place.

If you already broke up and you want things to go back to normal the best thing you can do is wait it out and be as understanding and as possible and try to give him his space. (Letting him go) if it's meant to be then things will go back.

But you also have to be honest with yourself. did you want this relationship to work for the right reasons? Was it because of your love for him and you two needing each other or because you became comfortable in the relationship or with the idea of being in a relationship forever with someone (not necessarily him) ? Idealistic perspectives tend to blind us sometimes to who's right for us as opposed to settling for someone solely because they fills our desires.

You are still young and you have time. I know it may seem like the clock is ticking to find someone and it can put a lot of pressure on you but it should never stop you from being with someone that makes you truly happy, or someone that you can not only see being with forever, but someone you can't wait to spend forever with.

It may seem hard right now because he's still in your house and tensions are probably high, especially with the pressure of where he will live after he moves out, but this is the chance to decide where you really stand on your relationship with him, and to see where he stands with you. If it's meant to be he'll stay (come back to you) and he was meant to be yours. If the breakup follows through, then look at it as a chance to meet the new man/woman of your dreams.

I wish you luck,
cheiz