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 Posted: Sun Jul 24, 2011 11:14 pm
I am running out of room in my journal so I decided to make a little blog on Gaia while I wait to get a new journal.
Comments are welcome but please understand that this is my life the way I see it.
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Posted: Sun Jul 24, 2011 11:44 pm
July 24th 2O11 - Your sin is showing! Yesterday I met a Christian girl and something about her struck a chord in my heart.
I met her in another online Christian guild.
She brought to light things that have been bothering me about other Christians.
I also saw a lot of her in myself, I felt connected with this young woman.
She is in my prayers and she has given me something else to pray to God about.
I am going to start praying for the Christians of the world, it seems we all need prayers just as much as the unsaved do.
I am slowly realizing that Christians are merely saved, not perfect.
Yes, I am slow on the up take!
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It seems to me that the places I have been attending in the Christian world have been at odds with one another.
I know as a Christian it is so easy to point out the sins of others and try and preach to save them.
Maybe though what we need to do is not point out their sins Christians or not and simply pray for them and help them and in time God will do his work in their hearts.
Personally I know how easy it is to poke someone in the eye with their flaws.
It`s as easy as breathing air.
It is harder to see the person for who they can become.
It is so easy to condemn someone for what they are doing wrong in the here and now, what we should do is lift that person up and help them become the person they are meant to be.
However we will not help that person if all we do is tell them what they are doing is wrong.
Especially when it comes to their faith in the Lord.
Our relationship with God is a personal one and differs from each other person in this world.
Christian or not.
Sometimes forgiveness does not come as easily to other Christians as it does to others.
Sometimes we are still stuck in our pasts even once we come to Christ.
That doesn`t make us any less in Christ then anyone else.
It just means God has to work a little harder with those of us who struggle!
The last thing we need is another Christian telling us we are not right with God because we need a little more work done in our faith then someone else.
Sometimes a flower will take a little longer to bloom then the rest but when it does it will be one of the most beautiful flowers in the bunch.
I know we start out with good intentions as Christians trying to save the world and everyone in it.
It just seems to me that we get over zealous and end up causing more harm than good by telling people they are wrong.
We all know we are sinners and we will make mistakes, we know already!
So stop pointing out our weak spots and focus on the good, inflate the good you see in people`s hearts, see that person for who they can become...
Not who they are now.
When God is ready for them to make changes he will do so, when God puts his hands in something it has no power against him, they will obey him. They will desire to obey him.
Like I said though, it just might take longer then others.
We seem to forget that when we are telling other Christians they are wrong for one reason or another that we forget the most important thing...
They are already saved!
God has a plan for everyone and though we still sin as Christians don`t let it worry you so much.
Trust in God and his ways, God has control.
So though they may be less then pure, if they have one foot in the fire don`t worry, keep pushing them to be the person they are meant to be.
Even if they are going against the bible now as Christians don`t threat, just breathe and keep inflating the good that is in their hearts.
You will get more bees with honey!
Telling people what they are doing is sinful and wrong only turns people away from God and the last thing we should do as Christians is try and turn people away from God.
When God is ready for them to change he will send help, he is a big boy, he can handle anyone.
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I am not saying that we should ignore others wrong doings or sinful ways.
Sometimes the best approach to someone is to stand your ground and fight.
But pray to know the difference, pray that God gives you the wisdom to know when to fight for someone`s soul and when to simply guide.
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Posted: Thu Aug 04, 2011 10:17 pm
August 4th, 2O11 - Stop fighting the fighter within. Ever come to a realization about yourself that slapped you in the face after it already staring at you for a long time?
That happened to me today....
Well, actually I finally decided to acknowledge what God has already shown me.
I like to believe that God talks to me through music, shows and dreams.
This may be different for you but to me I think this is how he gets my attention.
Once he has my attention him and I engage in late night prayer sessions.
Sometimes even for days to months, until he finally breaks through my strong will.
All of my life I have wanted to be a sweet, feminine, delicate, quiet, graceful young lady.
Not because society dictates it or anything outside forcing me to think this way.
It has always been something personal for me.
I wanted to be able to hold my tongue, listen, not judge so much etc.
However, all of my life (purposefully re-wrote that!) I have been a fighter, dominate, strong willed, opinionated.
I always felt more manly that way and for at least 4 years I have been trying to hide that part of me.
I felt ashamed to be a fighter. I just wanted to be well liked and soft spoken.
Because of me trying to hide my fighter within I have become really unbalanced in how I treat others around me.
Sometimes I am polite, kind hearted and quiet.
Other times I bite some poor soul`s head off for merely stating a different opinion then me.
For months now I have felt awful about the person I have become.
My anger, hatred and anxiety at an all time high.
I was beside myself and cried to God for many nights within July and now August asking for help.
Pleading is more like it. I even wrote a letter, which is what I think got his attention. My Realization I now see my problem.
There are my expectations and there are God`s expectations.
In trying to deny God`s design for me I have become unbalanced.
I did not purposefully do this, it was an honest mistake.
I thought by being something I clearly was not meant to be that I was going to break my strong will and be more God-like.
...I thought it would make me a better Christian.
Though I should be more humble and graceful in how I talk to people, I can no longer pretend I am not a fighter.
I will always have an opinion, I will always stand up for what I believe in even if that makes me unpopular.
I will not be pushed around by people and I cannot be easily changed.
I may not know who I am completely yet, but I am not going to let someone try to tell me who I SHOULD become.
So now that I have come to this realization that I have an opinion and will most likely share it even if it makes me lose favor with friends and by-standers
I need to learn how to say it gracefully and stand firm but also politely.
Unless of course I must really assert my dominance but that will be only for special occasions.
Thank you God for helping me to see more into myself.
I hope to have stepped on step further in my path for self discovery which is shown through you.
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