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So, I've liked this guy for more then two years now, and every summer for the past three summers, I try and work up the nerve to tell him. But the first year I barely knew him, and last year we hardly talked. This year I made a lot of progress, I think. He's the type of guy that teases and messes with the girls he's friends with, and lately I've been on the receiving end of a lot of pushing and general immaturity from him. So, on one hand it's like, well done, self.

On the other hand... On the other hand, while I've grown closer to him (let's call him 'Nate'.), I've gotten way closer to his twin brother ('Cody'.).

I can actually talk to Cody online for long periods of time without having to force the conversation to flow, and he can keep a conversation going longer in person as well. He's pretty nice to me, he's easy to talk to, and generally, he's a good guy.

But Nate's the one that I actually like. He's quieter, and a bit meaner, but maybe less arrogant. I see him as a little bit uncertain and insecure, and I really wish I could get inside his head. I want to know him better, but he's hard to talk to, especially online.

The thing is, when I talked to one of my best friends about this, she was all, "Well, I don't see why you don't just like Cody instead." And in a sense, I can see her point... But... There have been other girls who liked Cody, and when they found out I liked Nate they would say to me, "Yeah, I liked him for a while but then I switched to Cody." or "I considered him too."

I don't want to be like that! It seems so shallow, like, it doesn't really matter which one of them I pick because they're so similar, or like I should compare and pick the better one. That just seems too calculating, too heartless. But it's so easy to talk to Cody... Maybe I have more of a chance with him. Sometimes I wonder if I really am not interested in him, or if I'm just trying to convince myself of that to avoid being disappointed in myself. I just... I don't know how to get closer to Nate without kinda 'using' Cody, and that's shallow, too.

Furthermore, when someone finds out I like one of them - diffusion of rumors, ohhh high school - they tend to think its Cody. At this point, I'm a little worried even HE thinks so. I can't imagine what I'd do if it came to some point where I had to tell Cody, 'Uhhh no actually, I like your brother. Not you.' Maybe that's an irrational fear, but it would be the worst, really. No, the worst would be if I told Nate I liked him and he said, "But I thought you had a crush on Cody?" |: Aggghhhh.

Anyone who has ever dated or had a crush on a twin, or even just close brothers - whats the etiquette for this situation? What should I do? :

Maybe they all went for the other twin, because the first guy just wasn't worth it. Perhaps, the second twin is mating material and the first one is destined to be single (as per his choice). Maybe it's not that both guys are equal, but that the first gives off a great first impression, but it goes no further, while the second, being slow to warm up to is made of the stuff that makes relationships work. Just some rambleing post concussive thoughts, which may actually make no sense as my head is throbbing, but hey, I tried.

Twins, Basil! TWINS!