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Felyn


Eloquent Lunatic

PostPosted: Tue Jun 14, 2011 9:48 pm


Kaia and Khal had both done a good job of forgetting about the night-they-didn't-speak-of, at least on the surface. Time passed and they fell back into their same routine. Kaia spent her restless hours with Chase, making up something to him that he didn't even know, and Khal was, well, she had no idea who he was with. She could try and guess but the ideas she came up with were rarely comforting.

Chase had begun to get increasingly busy though as time passed and she was able to spend less and less time with him. It was work, he said, and she believed him. She knew his father was overbearing and he was keeping some kind of promise that she didn't understand entirely. Even if she understood though, it didn't make her time alone anymore pleasant. She had to keep busy or she'd dwell on things that she didn't want to think about.

Thus, with Chase at an important meeting that he'd cancelled their date for and Khal out doing who only knew what with friends, Kaia was stuck back at her apartment, alone. In an attempt to give herself something to do, she'd rounded up a grocery list ten miles long and was busy practicing dessert recipes. The kitchen was already covered with cookies cooling on baking racks and cupcakes she'd iced and set aside. From the smell and heat wafting out of it, more was on the way.

She'd just distribute it all to GUARD, or send some to Dem.

In the moments in between, while she was waiting for one thing to come out so another could go in, she still felt the emptiness of the apartment weighing down on her. There was a deep frown on her lips even as she flipped through a stack of cookbooks she had checked out from the library, but she was determined not to call Khal, or Ashley, or anyone. What was so impossible about being alone these days?

Then she heard a soft pitter patter of rain begin outside, softly at first but growing louder. She listened to the soft beat for a few moments and then simply frowned deeper and slumped her forehead over onto the stack of books, groaning softly to herself.
PostPosted: Tue Jun 14, 2011 10:31 pm


The key turned in lock of the front door and it pushed open, flooding the entryway with the sound of laughter. One voice very familiar to Kaia, and one unfamiliar - and female, on top of that.

"We just made it!" He sounded pretty excited not to be rained on. The door creaked and slid across the floor until it shut, and his sneakers made telltale squeaks as he navigated his way through the apartment.

"I hate when it rains." There was another quiet laugh. "Thanks for letting me borrow your sweatshirt."

"No problem." Khal's shoes were approaching the doorway that led to the kitchen. The other pair clicked in the opposite direction. "You can crash on the couch, I'll get the drinks."

Khal rounded the corner with his momentum aiming him toward the fridge. He was already halfway across the linoleum by the time he realized he wasn't alone in the kitchen. He looked over, surprised. Kaia was surrounded by mountains of books and baked goods all over the place. He assumed she had a good reason, he just expected he had the apartment to himself for a few hours.

"Kaia! I thought you were going out tonight?" He leaned down and pulled a couple of sodas out of the fridge. Faint glossy imprints of lipstick on his face were pretty easy to see in the fluorescent light. He pointed at some of the cooling cookies closest to him. "All this for Chase, huh?"

Molten Tigrex

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Felyn


Eloquent Lunatic

PostPosted: Tue Jun 14, 2011 10:42 pm


Kaia heard the key in the lock and almost smiled. She swiveled on the bar stool so she could face the kitchen entrance, expecting Khal to find his way towards the smell of baked goods instantly.

Then she heard the second voice, and it was like the pit of her stomach bottomed out.

She tensed as every word passed the mystery girl's lips and slid herself back around slowly, trying to pretend that she didn't care. Of course, she was trying to bore holes through the eyes of some random chef in one of the books just by glaring at her.

When his squeaky feet reached the kitchen she stiffened and forced herself to turn the page she hadn't even read, glancing over the pictures and ignoring most of it just so she could look busy and uninterested. Just as she glanced up to answer him though, the smudge of transparent lipgloss on his cheek caught her eye and it was all she could do not to throw the book into the floor. Instead she just shut it with a loud 'thump' and slid off her stool, uselessly checking the not-even-close-to-done treats in the oven.

"Chase cancelled, his dad called another meeting." She glanced around at the piles of treats she had accumulated over the last few hours, as if she were just seeing them for the first time. "I was just bored." Even if her tone wasn't a dead giveaway, she was refusing to meet his eyes - or maybe just refusing to look at the evidence of the good time he was having plastered all over his face.

"Take off your shoes, would you?" She asked, turning away from him and holding a paper towel under the faucet for a second before ringing it out. Then she just tossed it towards him with little warning. "And wipe your face." Then she crossed around the counter again and sat on her stool, opening the book she had just closed and flipping to a random page that still didn't matter to her.

If he could bring a girl home, she could at least pretend she didn't care. Much.
PostPosted: Tue Jun 14, 2011 11:41 pm


It was a little weird to offer for her to watch a movie with them. Especially after what happened a week ago. He was quite resilient about it, and in accepting defeat he returned to internalizing his frustration. It was like it had never happened, and that seemed to be what Kaia wanted. Now, though, things were a little different. He was somewhat better adjusted now than he'd been for a long time, and the more time Kaia spent with her boyfriend, the more alone time Khal had to fill. He was a teenage guy, though. With his chances confirmed to be shot, he could distract himself with other girls. And distract himself he did. It helped that Kam had explained a few tricks to him the last time they hung out.

"That sucks," he offered, not doing very well at emoting at all. He couldn't honestly say he wasn't happy to hear her boyfriend was turning out to be the girlfriend-dumping a*****e he easily imagined him to be. He could have told her this was going to happen. But that was just his bias talking and that was something he was again very sure Kaia didn't want to hear right now. "You should have called me earlier, we could have hung out. Next time give me a call."

"Oh, sorry. I guess I forgot." He just barely caught the wet paper towel with an already filled hand. It sagged around his fingers and soda can like some kind of aggressive white octopus. He slid the cans onto the counter so that he could grapple with the paper towel and casually wiped it in an ellipse around his face, grimacing about the whole ordeal. The paper towel came away blotted with pinkish-red smudges before he trashed it. As he watched her close up over the cookbook he just stared in helpless confusion. He'd never seen Kaia like this before in all the months they'd been living together. Maybe this was just a thing between her and Chase. She probably needed more alone time to bake stuff. He gathered his sodas again and made a hasty exit, giving Kaia one last pitying sort of glance in passing.

"Who was that?" There was a slightly territorial tone in the girl's voice, as silly as she tried to sound about her question. This was a Girl Thing and not something Khal could pick up on.

"Oh, that's Kaia. She's my roommate." One thump near the front door, then another, and Khal's footsteps were suddenly silenced. Soda cans clinked on the coffee table and the couch creaked. As if to reassure his date of their completely platonic status, he added in a quieter voice (not quiet enough for Kaia), "She's having a bad day, her boyfriend cancelled on her."

The girl made what sounded like a fake-sympathetic "aww" and there was another creak from the couch that indicated she was moving around a bit.

The TV suddenly buzzed to life, and a laugh track bubbled quietly behind the other ambient sounds. "You like action movies, right?"

Molten Tigrex

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Felyn


Eloquent Lunatic

PostPosted: Wed Jun 15, 2011 12:01 am


Kaia watched him from the corner of her eye as he went through the motions of wiping his face, and pretended to feel bad that Chase had bailed on her. She couldn't even answer his suggestion to call him. Besides the fact that it felt like a slap in the face, she knew she had sat there with the phone in hand more than once. She had almost pressed his number on the speed dial and asked him to come home again and again.

She just couldn't. Not because she cared about interrupting whatever he was doing (she really wished she had) but because she felt guilty if she made him wait on her. A week ago and it would have felt like nothing, just calling her friend to keep her company. Now it felt like asking him to do something Chase should have, like she was prolonging whatever healing process they were going through. It was a bad one, and it wasn't helping. She'd begun to spend more time away from home and he'd.. started to spend more time with other girls.

She listened to his footsteps as they left, then followed every creak and word he spoke to the girl whose face she still hadn't seen. She was so distracted by the words that she barely noticed her hand had curled around a page and begun to rip it right from the seams. When she glanced down she frowned and let go, trying to smooth it the best she could. Sadly, the second she came back to her senses, she was aware of the deep pit of ache in her chest. It honestly felt like the crack in her chest was going to split her in two. She brought one hand up to cover it, putting pressure on it like she could stop it from feeling.

That's when she decided she wasn't going to sit there and torture herself anymore, not if he was going to get his thrill in the room next to her.

She slid off of the stool and dug under the counter until she could find a blender, whipped it out and plugged it in, then rounded up a few ingredients that were mostly just for show. She plunged it all into the tall, glass pitcher and hit the highest frequency button it had. When it roared to life she almost smiled, just because it drowned out every sound she could hear from the living room.

Unfortunately, she could still see the blinking flashes of light from the TV. Her simple distraction wouldn't be enough, not when she inevitably had to turn it off. What she really needed was someone to hold her and make this better. She needed Chase. In her head everything was slowly clicking into place and making sense. She missed Chase, he was gone more than he was with her, and in his absence she was trying to fill his role with Khal. Khal, who she'd let go but didn't want to see being free. It made sense to her, in that moment where she felt so lost. It didn't help it hurt less, though.

Completely ignoring the blender that was still grinding away, she slipped out of the kitchen, just past the couch and into the bedroom beyond. She slammed the door behind her and reached for the on button of the stereo next to the bed, turning it on so she didn't have to hear Khal laughing at that awful girl's jokes.

Then she was packing things away in her shoulder bag - shirts, pants, socks. As many changes of clothes as she could fit, so she could be away as long as she needed to, as long as she could convince Chase to take her somewhere. Then she was pulling her nice shirt off and replacing it with a tank, followed by a hoodie whose hood she knew wouldn't fit over the top of her head. So she just flopped down on the edge of the bed, staring into a sidestand mirror, and began the tedious process of unwinding the updo she normally kept her hair in.

She'd be gone, in minutes, and he could just have the apartment.
PostPosted: Wed Jun 15, 2011 12:59 am


"Kaia?"

Khal was knocking on the bedroom door. The blender was no longer whirring behind the late night music station serenading her from the radio. He must have turned it off when it was left running too long unsupervised. And now he was following her into the only sanctuary she had left in the apartment. He tried calling her name over the radio noise again. "Kaia, are you in there?"

He said something quieter that got lost in the sad chords of the song. It was hard to tell if he was talking to her or replying to some unknown question from the girl in the other room.

"Kaia!"

Ignoring him didn't make him go away though. The lock on the door turned out to be a cheap piece of s**t and the doorknob gave way pretty easily to enough harassment. He didn't have a clear idea of what he was going to find anyway. None of this followed any sort of pattern he could trace and assure himself of. It was worrying enough for someone like him, who had nothing else to go on but those little accumulated details. But after he saw Kaia, his eyes immediately fell on the half-open bag and he froze.

Anything but this.

Molten Tigrex

Shameless Hunter



Felyn


Eloquent Lunatic

PostPosted: Wed Jun 15, 2011 1:20 am


She heard him, like a distant whisper beneath the blaring music from the stereo. Something loud and chaotic, with guitars and drums enough to make her ears bleed. Clearly Khal had been the last one to use it, which wasn't comforting even as she picked out the haunting lyrics. She could focus on those and ignore her name from the other side of the door. If she could just get it all done, grab everything, she could slip out of the window and he'd never -

She jumped when the door was all but ripped open. Her head whipped around, hands half poised to remove the pins she was using to keep her dreads in place. She withdrew her hands and the very last of the pins, letting the remaining few dreads tumble down onto her shoulders. She stayed there, frozen like that, watching where he was frozen by the door.

Guilt and shame swelled up in her so fierce that she dropped her eyes, busying herself with kicking off her flats and dragging a pair of chucks from the corner to put them on. She still felt him though, as she tied the laces, like a fire blazing behind her back. She was all too aware he was there, there was no ignoring him.

"Don't look at me that way," it was just audible over the noise from the stereo. Even as she was preparing herself to chastise him for his choices, she was hearing her own voice in her head, repeating a promise she was about to break. "I'm not staying to listen to your one night stand. We can pretend it didn't happen, but I won't pretend this is okay."

She dropped her feet to the floor and stood, reaching out for her bag and dragging it closer to her on the bed. She was trying to snap it closed, but between how full it was and how unsteady her hands were, she was fumbling with the latches.
PostPosted: Wed Jun 15, 2011 1:55 am


No one 'prepared' to be walked out on like this. It wasn't any necessity that he had to be with Kaia. If that had been the case, then he would have moved out weeks ago. They stayed like this together for friendship. Or what had been so easy to peg as friendship up until recently. He felt like someone had him by the throat but no one was there. Words were not happening. Anger wasn't even happening. He still hadn't let go of the door handle and now he held onto it like a life preserver.

Maybe if he understood what she was saying, he would in turn have been able to reason with her to stay. He couldn't make sense of any of it and it was playing out in front of him like a nightmare come to life. She had rejected him - he accepted that. So why did it matter to her whether he fooled around with some girl for a couple of hours and pretend he still had a civilian persona? How had she become so damn moody in the course of an evening, when he'd gone out of his way not to bother her any more? She had no reasons. She made no sense at all to him.

"Don't." Pitiful. Childish. It was the only word he could get past the lump in his throat before it constricted him back into silence.

Molten Tigrex

Shameless Hunter



Felyn


Eloquent Lunatic

PostPosted: Wed Jun 15, 2011 2:10 am


That one word shocked her, sending daggers right into what she felt was a growing crevice in her chest. She knew if she henshined up she wouldn't see a thing different, it would still be the same scar, the same hollow wound. It felt like it was caving in though and ached so fiercely she could hardly breathe. His pleading did nothing to make it stop, just made the guilt and pain eat at her more and more.

"I can't," she put the emphasis on the word as her hand snaked up to press against her chest again, trying to kill the feeling with pressure. Useless. She dropped her hand back to the bag and finally snapped the latches closed. She kept her eyes down as she swung it over her shoulder, settling the bulging pack against her hip.

Then she had to round the end of the bed and stand in front of him, too scared to look him in the face. She wanted to say a thousand things to make him feel better, to make it all okay, but she couldn't. The only things that came to mind were childish and spiteful. She had to leave, but she didn't want to leave him hurting any worse than she was already.

"I'm just going to stay with Chase for the night, maybe a couple, so you can have.. room." The words tasted like a lie even as they passed her lips. It was what she wanted to do, but she could feel what was shifting between them. Stepping out into that rain would break her promise, even if she meant to come back. He needed her to stay and she was leaving, she was letting him be afraid when she had said she wouldn't. But she just couldn't stand to stay and hear, to pretend that she wasn't anything but okay with this. Some lies were easier to live than others.

She brought her eyes up to his slowly, meeting his dark, frozen gaze with her bright one. It hurt to look as much as it hurt to hear him, but she couldn't walk out with her head down. She was doing this and she needed to have confidence in it, or show him that she did even if she didn't feel it.

"Let me through," her mouth went to form his name at the end but died. A lump was rising and she could feel tears prickling at the edge of her vision. She needed to leave before it got worse, before she couldn't.
PostPosted: Wed Jun 15, 2011 2:38 am


He'd made a promise of sorts too, even if he didn't remember it. Unlike Kaia, however, he was unable to overcome it even for his own sake, not on the spot like this. He stood aside at her request, pressed close to the open door wordlessly. A soldier following orders, backwards of the hierarchy they'd fought over in the first place. There was nothing to say that he didn't think would just push her farther away. He'd stopped staring at her now. The wall was the new target of his laser focus.

The last thing he wanted to do was hurt her.

He knew deep down he couldn't have stopped her anyway. Teleportation was a bit of a gamebreaker.

Molten Tigrex

Shameless Hunter



Felyn


Eloquent Lunatic

PostPosted: Wed Jun 15, 2011 2:43 am


Part of her wished he hadn't, that something about him would have just manned up and kept her there. Told her why she couldn't leave, or why this hurt so much. He wouldn't though, she knew that even as she wished for it. He would do what she asked, what he thought she wanted most.

Her eyes dropped away from his and she walked past him, out into the livingroom and further beyond that to the door. She ignored the girl, she didn't even hear her if she said anything, and finally just closed her hands on the cold doorknob.

She swung it open and stepped out into the rain, grateful even as the cold droplets all but drowned her immediately. She shut the door though, shut it and kept on walking without looking back.

At least in the rain, no one could tell if she was crying.
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