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 Posted: Wed Mar 23, 2011 11:26 am
I'm not a good poet, I just write what I feel. Sometimes I never even remember picking up a pen but all these words erupt from my soul and cover the pages of my journal.
*Disclaimer
I tend to be more than a bit morbid, so do not read if you wish for poetry about rainbows and unicorns. My life is far from happily ever after, and this is how I deal with it.
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Posted: Wed Mar 23, 2011 12:50 pm
My Mother-
Icy glares and evil stares,
That's all she ever gave me,
When coming home bruised and accused
She never came to aid me.
Throwing angry words like jealous birds,
We went our separate ways,
Then like a smack upon my back,
The news put me in a daze.
She's now not found but in the ground,
Our feud has finally ended.
I've forgiven and forgotten,
But my heart will never be mended.
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Posted: Thu Mar 24, 2011 1:28 pm
Untitled-
These people, they come and fade,
leaving me to yearn for the blade.
Each reason is different yet always the same,
because on them I have no real claim.
A few unrequited loves, and a few loves lost
at my heart's expense and painful cost.
I thought writing things down on paper would help,
like putting things up on a shelf
so I can examine what I really want,
but the memories still haunt-
my fear of rejection,
my misguided affection,
the daggers of two-timing pain,
the fake "I love You"'s that make my eyes rain.
So why? What's wrong with me?
Am I seeing seeing something they don't see?
When I look in he mirror, I see myself staring back.
Sure I'm a little crazy, but I can't change that.
And I really don't know what to do.
What am I here for? I ain't go a clue.
Sometimes I wanna go and hide-
dig a hole and crawl inside/
Then I get wrapped up in my own delusion,
I think I'm winnin' when I'm really losin'.
But I'd rather play dumb, rather be dense,
then to find out my feelings are still on the fence.
I wish I could stop- seems like I'm hurting myself,
It's really just me- not any body else.
Now life is full of choices,
and my head is full of voices
screaming out to do it,
get a gun and shoot it.
So now what- what do I do next?
Is there any cure for an emotional hex?
So much stress, so much pain,
it's making me go insane.
But if you walk with me, be with me,
For just a while I'll be in ecstasy...
- Please help me with a title for this one, it's my favorite so far. I always welcome criticism and compliments but on this one especially.
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Posted: Fri Mar 25, 2011 7:04 pm
Memories- A Haiku
So very bitter
Yet so very sweet, just like
A last good bye kiss
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Posted: Sat Mar 26, 2011 9:35 am
What Keeps Me Going
It's the prospect of possibilities,
Knowing that i have choices,
Imagining a brighter tomorrow,
And so many comforting voices.
It's the idea of being wanted,
My dream of being needed,
The thought of being loved,
And the fantasy of loving with out being mistreated.
This is what keeps my on my feet,
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Posted: Sun Mar 27, 2011 7:01 pm
L.O.S.S.
L is for Love, which is why it hurts so bad
O is for On my knees, begging you to stay
S is for screaming how much I need you
S is for surviving, which seems impossible with out you..
-This is dedicated to Patrick, AKA I The Eternal Warlock I .
May he be safe and sound <3
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Posted: Mon Apr 25, 2011 4:19 pm
Giving In-
A deluge of emotion,
And more than a bit of mania,
That's what I'll always say it was.
I was scared, confused,
It was unintentional,
I refuse to believe anything else.
But it felt so right,
I can't deny,
It made me smile.
I'll never admit it,
But your charms overwhelmed me,
And maybe i was drunk on delusion.
And when all else fails,
I'll just blush and say,
"I tripped."
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Posted: Mon Apr 25, 2011 4:39 pm
How much is the heart worth?-
Love is like money,
you have it or you don't.
When You don't have it you want it,
You yearn and strive for it.
When you do have it,
You are happy,
then distraught because you don't want to lose it.
In the end,
You have it and hoard it and treasure it,
or your remorseful because you took it for granted and you want it back.
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Posted: Mon Apr 25, 2011 9:47 pm
On a Whim-
I could be anything,
Or everything,
Yet I feel like nothing.
I could love,
I could kill,
But would it be the same?
If I took another chance,
If I let go of my restraining thoughts,
Would you still feel the same about me?
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Posted: Tue Apr 26, 2011 1:29 pm
Who Am I?-
I am a woman,
Strong and proud,
I can be a fighter,
And I can be loud.
I am a lady,
Loving and kind,
With the touch of silk,
And a gentle mind.
I am a girl,
Foolish and dumb,
I'm as sweet as a cherry,
And as sour as a plum.
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Posted: Tue Apr 26, 2011 5:54 pm
The Pain You Cause Me-
It is so strange how
easily you can hurt me
making my heart bleed
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Posted: Tue Apr 26, 2011 9:22 pm
How is it that...
With mere words,
You set my heart aflame.
With mere words,
I can feel your touch.
With mere words,
I feel safe in your arms.
With mere words,
You make me want you so much.
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Posted: Tue Apr 26, 2011 9:27 pm
Until Forever-
I'll deny my feelings,
Cry over you,
Slap my self for being foolish,
Get insanely jealous,
Walk out of your life,
And run back in to your arms when I'm tired of being away from you.
Repeat until the end of time,
And you'll have the recipe for our relationship.
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Posted: Tue Apr 26, 2011 10:00 pm
Left alone-
when I was young,
I was terrified,
of being alone.
and so now,
I get that same old feeling,
when your gone.
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Posted: Tue Apr 26, 2011 10:11 pm
L is for learning to cope with the fact that I can't really have you
O us for obedient, which to you I'll always be
V is for virtually irresistible, which you are
E is for everything I will do to make you happy
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