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I am gay, and recently I made friends with this cool kid whose a guy-well boy really. I don't know he's 14 and I'm 16 next month. We were really good friends. A lot of times I remember telling him about my 'girl' problems, and sometimes he would get real upset. And oneday he just started talking about this girl he really liked, but didn't think there was a chance. Now he at the time was my good friend, so I said okay, if you want to tell me you can. If not-I am going to go see if I can contact this girl, cause me and her were arguing 'again' (now we don't talk, amazing when you think you love someone sad lol and they backstab you...anyhoo off topic)

So oneday I found out that the girl didn't exist, and he was really talking about how much he loved me. And I remember panicking in my head. Going oh no, oh no. If I say no he won't ever talk to me again, and he's my friend, and I really like him...but as a friend !!!! I don't want to lose his friendship over this....

so I said yes sad , and all he died was talk about our love and so fourth, and I could never tell him I love you, I could type it, but even that was trouble. I just didn't love him sad . He would talk about our future, a nd what it would be like married, and I was falling in love with someone else, and I couldn't take it !!!!!!!!!

So I also deal with crap in my own life, and I get angry and sad a lot. And he sees that a lot, and the other day he said I haven't been talking much to him lately, and I was like I've been upset and bleh. So I told him to find someone else, and I haven't talked to him since.

i don't know if he will talk to me again, and I don't care. I just want to be his friend nothing more, and I don't know how to tell him that without him getting upset sad . Bleh I should have done that a long time ago before it got into all this. Maybe this was a good thing. 'sighs' sad

Arg that sucks..... i'm not sure whatyou should tell him. If you trust him a lot you could just go witht the full truth. But honestly it already seems that you were honest and kind with him and if he just can't accept the facts then he really is far more immature than you. I dunno. Good luck.

I know how hard it is.

Though it might help him more than you think. I remember my first big crush when I was alot younger. Though, I got over it and thought: 'Well that was dumb. I didn't love them.'

Though, if I didn't put myself out there I would have never known that my friend Alli feels for me just as much as I feel for her. That didn't happen untill I put myself falt out there.

Sometimes we need some kind of slap of reality to relise something that we don't want to, or need to.