Dear Skylarx16,

I was an idiot, I should have never said the stuff I did last night. No doubt your very angry at me, and quite frankly, I don't blame you. Hell, I'm so pissed off at myself I can't help but say to myself: You ******** up, your an idiot, you s...hould never belong in this world. I'm writing this because, well for several reasons...

One is to say I'm sorry, I'm sorry that I was so selfish and cowardly that I couldn't take it in, I'm a complete and total failure, yet again. I asked God to give me a man that could see past my hideous figure. He gave me you, a tall handsome man, with a bright future ahead of him, and no doubt will find someone better then some selfish little p***k like me. I don't deserve a man like you, I hate myself for giving you grief, and giving you pain. I can't even utter your name out of my mouth because it feels like I'm not worthy enough.

I'm writing this to let you know that, I don't blame you for hating my every fiber of being. You, you are the most amazing person in the world. You will be great, you will be rich and famous. I will be living in the streets barely scavenging for food and money to live. I want to be with you, but, you no doubt don't want to be with me...

I'm probably jumping to conclusions again, all I know is that I failed, I ******** up, I had the chance to be with the most perfect man in the world. And I turned tail and ran like the no good rat that I am. I don't deserve you, and you don't need someone like me, someone who's only going to make things worse for you.

I love you, I hate me, I had my chance, I blew it. But, I'm writing this to ask you, can I have a second chance? I'm pretty sure that I'm not going to get it. I don't give a s**t about that boy at the meeting, he's nobody compared to you. I love you, not him. I don't want to date him, I want to date you! Your a blessing that I should not have taken lightly, I hate myself every second since last night, and I hope to god you can give me another chance.

Loving you and hating himself,
Samuel Aran