If nothing ends up happening with me and Adam... like he doesn't move back, or he doesn't like me anymore or something... might try dating girls instead of guys. D: I've figured for a long time now that I don't care about somebody's gender if I like them, although I've never been with a girl, but eh. I wouldn't even really be like "Oh I don't like guys anymore" because that's just silly, I don't think people can help who they like, but I dunno, he hasn't talked to me in a while and I hate that I feel like I can so easily think "Forget about him then!" about somebody if they lose interest. I think it on the outside but it takes me a while to actually get over it. I like Adam, of course, but I wouldn't want somebody who doesn't want me. Dx But I'm so... almost old-fashioned about that kind of thing, I think. I don't like the idea of dating just anybody if I don't know them that well, I tried it a few times and it doesn't work out for me. I'd much rather go out with somebody I've known for a while and am friends with, somebody I can trust and who knows me and we get along and hang out before actually getting into anything. But hell, the longest anything has ever really lasted for me is like, three weeks, and I've never been super serious with anybody for a long time or even at all really. Either I get uncomfortable and back out (only in the cases where I didn't know the person that well before) or it just... doesn't happen, for whatever reason (rebound, they like somebody else, don't want a relationship, long distance, etc.) But I don't want to rush into anything just because I like the idea of being in a relationship, or being in love, or one day being married and having a family. Dx I don't think going too fast (whether with little things or big things) or just hopping into relationships would ever end well, at least not for me, even if some people can do it. I don't even really know what I'm getting at. I'm just worried because Adam hasn't talked to me so I jump to the conclusion that he doesn't like me anymore and nobody ever will and it will be too late and I'll be old and alone. D:
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