i know this is gonna sound totally weird, but i think i'm growing more and more social. the odd thing about that, though, is that i don't really like it. i mean, i feel like i should stay in the darkness of my room listening to the same old music and doing nothing all day. but now, for the first time in forevers, i feel sick from the darkness and that i need to go out and be with my friends and enjoy life.

haha, ok, wait, i should rephrase that. it's just weird to get online and not know what to do. i think i'm changing, and maybe for once, it's for the better. i feel like getting out of my house and being surrounded by people just getting into shenanigans. but not my ninth grade stuff; like doing legal stuff and just having fun and embracing this whole, "still a kid" thing. you know, during the day time.

now here's the real problem: christmas. i dunno if you guys have the same problem, but a lot of people are stuck with their family for the next couple days and passed few. so my lack of human interaction (other than my own family) has kinda started depressing me. maybe, with luck, it'll get better, though smile

i guess i'm off to enjoy life *cringe* in the real world. just felt like getting this off my chest and try to sort out my complete confusion with this at the moment. who knows, maybe i'll become nice and social again.