I don't believe in love. Not romantic love, that is.

At the moment I'm involved in a relationship-shape.

I've been involved with, never actually dating, my first boyfriend [and I use the term loosely] since the summer of '07. We've been an 'on again, off again' couple ever since. We've no anniversary. And it may just be me but... according to his semi-public Facebook, he has a girlfriend and it's definitely not me. Now, they may only be friends but either way - I'm done with him. Hopefully for good this time.

My next boyfriend, I met online in a chatroom. We went out for about a month and a half, in a long distance relationship in the summer of '09. Then one day, he simply disappeared. This year, an entire year later, he pops up again like nothing ever happened. He claims not to remember why he did and has apologized so I'm not really concerned. Currently, he's my self-proclaimed best friend.

My current boyfriend I met 3 months ago. He asked me to be his girlfriend on Dec 16. It's still a very new relationship so, I don't really have anything to say about it just yet. We're still very awkward with each other but neither of us has had a 'real' relationship before. Maybe we'll ease into it.

So by this I have 1 bf, 1 ex and 1 ex turned bff, right? No. Not at all.

As me and my first bf aren't actually going out and he only shows up whenever the hell he pleases, [every month to 6 months], we haven't actually broken up. Or he hasn't acknowledged that we are.

My bff asked me the day after I tell him about new bf, if I would consider going back out with him but then took it back.

And my current bf, well, he doesn't know about this just yet but we are supposed to have a date next week. Maybe I'll tell him. Maybe not.a