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 Posted: Fri Sep 03, 2010 9:33 am
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Posted: Fri Sep 03, 2010 10:50 am
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Posted: Fri Sep 03, 2010 11:05 am
I was close once but nope.
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Posted: Fri Sep 03, 2010 11:54 am
Indeed. It is a weird feeling.
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Posted: Fri Sep 03, 2010 3:38 pm
5 years, and still strong ;=;;;
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Posted: Fri Sep 03, 2010 4:10 pm
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Posted: Fri Sep 03, 2010 4:23 pm
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Posted: Fri Sep 03, 2010 5:18 pm
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Posted: Fri Sep 03, 2010 5:38 pm
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Posted: Fri Sep 03, 2010 7:02 pm
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Posted: Fri Sep 03, 2010 8:32 pm
what is love? baby don't hurt me.
but seriously, no.
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Posted: Sat Sep 04, 2010 10:52 am
Twice. This time is going strong though. 4laugh
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Posted: Sat Sep 04, 2010 4:07 pm
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Posted: Sat Sep 04, 2010 5:21 pm
Alexandrasaurus what is love? baby don't hurt me. but seriously, no. xD heart
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Posted: Sun Sep 05, 2010 5:08 am
I feel like a lot of results of really loving another person have been pretty negative for me, because people fall out of love just as easily as they fall into it, and I've been on the receiving end of the 'people falling out of love with you' in two circumstances now. It's a risky business and, oddly, even though I feel like I'm in a state of grieving similar to the loss of a family member or close friend, I don't regret any choice I made, or anything I said or did. You fall in love young and you realize everyone's got room to improve themselves before investing even deeper -- even though it feels like you have put your all in. The sense of loss doesn't feel like it'll stop, the sense of failure and not being good enough is overwhelming, but I've adhered to the idea that I'm meant to feel that way. It's really strange that I'm so accepting of it. And that my chest seizes up when I think about it. A good description of the feeling would be this:
"The chances are I'd fall apart and suffer seizures of the heart as my chest begins to smart the very second have to part. I want to go back to the start, but then again, maybe I'd just feel new. Maybe I'd get my life on track and start to focus my attack on all the things my life just lacks and start to claw my passion back, instead of living like a hack, half committed half relaxed; I'd have nothing to lose." Look For The Woman, Dan Le Sac vs. Scroobius Pip
I don't feel like I have anything left to lose. I feel like my future's in shambles, I've failed at something I really felt strongly about, and that everything I have done, do and will do will be a waste of time. There are definitely days I lack the willpower to do anything. But, I know that feelings are temporary -- love is temporary, or at least that is my experience. Grief is very temporary. At some point, everyone who isn't obligated to keep holding on to me will leave my life and forget that, at one time, we loved one another in some way. That probably seems really, really bleak, but I'm unusually zen about how it all feels. I imagine a lot of you have very, very different perspectives, but this is mine and I figured I should share it before the wording runs out of my head.
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