Drown in words just let yourself sink
Why live in this world forcing us to think

I would write to you endlessly
Only three words work that closely
~For BXXXX


Okay so this is my first blog yada yada yada...
Lately I have been so off. and just very blah... in a very unhealthy way... I need to go see my doctors again... the shaking has been getting worse and even if I do eat I still get my dizzy spells and nearly faint...

Music is somehow failing me a bit, I dont know if it is cause its to repeditive or Maddona is broken or I need new music. I dont have my own laptop so I must wait to find out

then there is him... my boyfriend on gaia, he has not been on in forever and I miss him. which is why I feel really shitty... I went out on a bit of a date with this other guy... he had brought his friend along and we saw a movie... I feel so guilty....

for now this is it