i wrote this earlier i was bored so i started writing randomly so tell me what you think
Why do you tell me its ok when nothing is ok????
Why do you say “I forgive you” when you you shouldn’t????
Why do you tell me you love me when you don’t know me????
Why do you kill me with your sweetness and beauty????
Why do you poison me with memories of my lies????
Why do you tell me about this special girl when you know I still love you too???? Even know I can't.
Why do you not know that you are staving my heart with every word you say????
…I try not to cry when you’re on my dark mind. You were everything to me why did I let you go? Why did I kill myself and be born into someone else. I ask myself “why did I have to lie? Why did I have to ruin us so badly? I caused so much misery that hundreds of apologizing can never fix anything and suicide will show you I loved you. I didn’t want to lose you but I have to.” My life is on the edge. Should I see if I’m strong enough to fly taking the risk of dieing? Theres always going to be a risk I tell myself. I jump off leaving behind my heart. As I fall I open my eyes looking at everything as if it was your beautiful heart.
A tear falls down my cheek as i wake up on the bathroom floor with a knife next to me. Was this a dream or a sign? Am I strong enough to fly? ...I whisper “ I m strong enough to do anything when I’m with you”
Why do you tell me its ok when nothing is ok????
Why do you say “I forgive you” when you you shouldn’t????
Why do you tell me you love me when you don’t know me????
Why do you kill me with your sweetness and beauty????
Why do you poison me with memories of my lies????
Why do you tell me about this special girl when you know I still love you too???? Even know I can't.
Why do you not know that you are staving my heart with every word you say????
…I try not to cry when you’re on my dark mind. You were everything to me why did I let you go? Why did I kill myself and be born into someone else. I ask myself “why did I have to lie? Why did I have to ruin us so badly? I caused so much misery that hundreds of apologizing can never fix anything and suicide will show you I loved you. I didn’t want to lose you but I have to.” My life is on the edge. Should I see if I’m strong enough to fly taking the risk of dieing? Theres always going to be a risk I tell myself. I jump off leaving behind my heart. As I fall I open my eyes looking at everything as if it was your beautiful heart.
A tear falls down my cheek as i wake up on the bathroom floor with a knife next to me. Was this a dream or a sign? Am I strong enough to fly? ...I whisper “ I m strong enough to do anything when I’m with you”
