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 Posted: Fri Jan 06, 2006 7:43 pm
I've never had that many friends growing up, and I've just recently required some. One is in a serious relationship with someone I know, and his younger brother was single. So, I started dating him, because I wanted to be closer to her, and he was kinda cute. Most of the time we had was spent either in group dates with his brother, or in his room.
He had this best friend of his, and they shared everything. Well, New Years, I stayed at his house and stayed the night. We drank...a lot. He ended up sharing me with his best friend. I was too drunk to care. The next morning, all my friends just laughed it off. They thought it was funny, because they loved to make fun of that kid.
I was terrified, so I broke up with my boyfriend. I gave some faulty reason to the extent of him not being what I was looking for. A few days later, when everything settled, I realized what a mistake I made. I told him exactly what happened, and that I was sorry. I'd made a mistake, and I wanted him back. I wanted to start over and build an actual relationship.
He said no.
It's driving me insane. I've lost five pounds because I can't eat and I can't sleep. This is not healthy. I need counseling, or at least advice on where to go from here. I can't fathom the thought of being with anyone else. I want him back, but I don't know what to say to him. I already told him the truth.
Update from LI: I had some friends over today, because they wanted to help me. They had planned on spending the night and everything, but then one of them's boyfriend called, so she decided to leave. The other one left with her.
I'm not even sad anymore, I'm just emotionless. I've had severe depression growing up (I'm on meds), and this is a low I've never faced before. It's scary...I'm so depressed, that I'm almost content with it. I feel like I've crossed the line of sanity. I can't even cry anymore, I'm so upset.
I have no one to talk to.
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Posted: Fri Jan 06, 2006 11:51 pm
*huggles*
I know it can be hard, but what you need to do is talk to your parents first about it. If you can't trust them, then try and confide in a "safe" adult figure.
I've been molested before by someone my own age, and I didn't say anything about it for years.
Please don't let the creeps get away with it.
At least let people know, because getting it out will really help them never be able to do the same thing again.
Getting a girl drunk and then having sex with her when she is almost passed out is RAPE. It's also malicious that your "friends" are being so flippiant about it.
Please know that if you have any need to speak to anyone and I'm online, feel free to PM me or drop me a line on AIM. I've had some experience with bad crowds, and while I highly suggest professional counciling, if you need to vent, feel free to vent to me.
I seriously hope that you feel better.
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Posted: Sat Jan 07, 2006 2:19 pm
i understand to extent that alot of people probably won't about being at a stage of depression where you are almost content with it. i agree... it is kinda scary, but if you wanna talk, PM me... i am very depressed and have bever taken meds for it, but my story is different, i guess i will tell my story as well, aye? keep an eye out for my thread...
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Posted: Sun Jan 08, 2006 12:41 am
Getting yourself help would probably be a good thing. You can talk to your school counsellor, or you can ask your parents to take you to a counsellor/therapist/psychologist. You don't even have to tell them why - you could tell them it was related to your depression, if you really had to give them a reason.
No one can help you until youd ecide to help yourself. This was NOT your fault, just know that. I am not online all the time, but you are welcome to PM me on Gaia or message me on MSN if you feel like talking or venting.
Also check out the stickies and announcements in this subforum, because there's hotlines and places you can call if you need immediate assistance. Worse come to worse, if you're suicidal or just really depressed, you can call your doctor or a local hospital and request that they send an ambulance.
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