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(4:32am) I close my eyes and I see her lying at my feet. Everytime. Red on white on red.

(5:16am) I'm not strong enough for what's to come. But I will be.

(5:00am) Arrived at wilderness training location. Alone. Trainer Mickey was hospitalized when I came by to pick him up. He kept crying each time he looked at me, so he must have felt very bad about not being able to come.
When I get back: visit Mickey in hospital to encourage his recovery with as much force as needed.

(6:14am) I hope Miss Mindy eats something healthy this morning.

(6:20am) Called Mr. Monty and reminded him not to let her die of malnutrition.

(7:00am) Camp has been set up. The chainsaw was indeed a wise purchase.

(10:05am) Hitting trees hurts a great deal more than hitting frozen meat. Also, there is more bleeding involved.
"Pain is the feeling of weakness leaving your body!" - The Way of Don Diablos

(12:30pm) Called Mr. Monty to ask about the state of Miss Mindy's health.

(1:04pm) Going in search of bears to wrestle.
"You're only as strong as your weakest opponent!" - The Way of Don Diablos

(2:00pm) No bears yet. Will bring out the honey pot and go deeper into forest.

(5:10pm) Still no bears. Honey pot is less tempting to bears than advertised. Would settle for mountain lion.

(6:01pm) Squirrel is giving me an impudent look. Is it challenging me?

(6:21pm) Finished up with squirrel situation. Chainsaw was an excellent purchase.

(6:30pm) Called Mr. Monty and reminded him about the benefits of good personal hygiene. Asked him if he could see if there was a cat version of http://loyalkng.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/08/pootrap.jpg
When I get back: seek out qualified cat therapist.

(7:12pm) No bears found. Quite dark out. Will go back to camp and try again later.

(9:13pm) Camp seems to have moved.

(10:00pm) Called Mr. Monty to ask about Miss Mindy's day.

(2:34am) Still no camp. Could it be a Negaverse plot?

(2:50am) That squirrel had definitely been unnatural. A youma sent to spy on me?

(3:03am) Miss Algol just appeared on secret cell's tracker. Maybe she found out that the Negaverse has stolen my campsite? Thank you for your concern Miss! But please be careful!!!

(5:40am) Found cave. Will rest.

(2:21am) Pristine white. Dripping red.

(11:13am) Still no camp. The Nega Squirrel's are ever vigilant adversaries.

(3:05pm) Succeeded in catching a fish with my hands. Tonight I shall feast.

(10:00pm) Called Mr. Monty to ask about Miss Mindy's day. Reminded him that fear is an excellent motivator when it comes to sub-par cleaning staff.

(5:12am) Always red, I can't stop it.

(6:00am) I can't go back, not as I am.

(12:03pm) The horrible taste of tree bark just means that eating it is that much better for you.

(9:00pm) I refuse to use Hestia in order to find my camp. It's what THEY want. With their beady little eyes. Always watching me. Staring at me.

(10:02pm) Called Mr. Monty to ask about Miss Mindy's day. Warned him about the escalation in the Negaverse Squirrel Plot.

(3:02am) White mermaids drown slowly when the tide runs red.

(3:05am) I hate this.

(6:00am) I do not need a campsite that has been tainted by my enemies. They can keep the camp, whereasI shall keep my pride.
"If the enemy holds your hand, cut it off." - The Way of Don Diablos

(8:02am) Found camp.

(8:20am) It appears to have been torn apart by a wild beast of sorts. Another piece of the negaplot? Or possibly a declaration of challenge from the bear I was seeking? If so, I gladly accept, Sir Bear.

(2:00pm) Sat under waterfall for several hours to contemplate the meaning of my existance. Feel oddly warm now.

(8:10pm) Am so....sdfihl/kjm.vf., ,sd.....

(10:00pm) Call Mr. ask okday Mindy, ok bath nicesmells

(8:03am) Woke up thirsty. It seems I have lost several days. Feel well rested, though.

(8:20am) It was likely an alien abduction. Will have to check for implants later.

(8:43am) Called Mr. Monty to check up on Miss Mindy's last few days. Warned him to be on the look out for strange life forms that are possibly not of this world.
When I get back: take Mr. Monty to the vet. Those choking sounds were very alarming.

(5:25pm) Finished setting traps around camp. The Nega Squirrels and aliens will regret toying with me.

(10:00pm) Called Mr. Monty and asked about Miss Mindy's day.

(5:00am) These nightmares are becoming obnoxious. It's hard to rest at all anymore. It should have gotten better out here, with all this training, but I see her every time I close my eyes now. I must not be strong enough. Not yet.

(8:12am) Speared a boar and found one of my ribbons around it's head. Is this a message from above?

(3:56pm) The meat cooked up well with some mushrooms and roots found nearby. I've saved a portion for Miss Mindy and some nice dried fish for Mr. Monty. The helicopter should arrive to pick it up within the hour.

(4:32pm) PURPLE DINOSAURS ARE PURPLE. AND THEY LOVE YOU.

(5:10pm) Don Diablos just came to me in a vision, riding upon a giant, bloody boar. He bestowed upon me a wrestling mask, but when I put it on, it turned me into a nega-squirrel. What could this mean? Oh Don Diablos! Was this a blessing or a curse?!

(10:00pm) Called Mr. Monty to ask about Miss Mindy's day. Apparently, some mushrooms should be avoided.

(11:20pm) Miss Algol is out in the city again. I wish I was with her. I'll train twice as hard tomorrow!

(4:21am) They always end in red, but I still can't hate the color.

(1:20pm) Running low on bandages. Beating up logs is highly unsatisfying. Though stripping their kin and eating the bark in front of them makes me feel better.

(2:00pm) It's time to go find that bear.

(2:23pm) Called Mr. Monty to see what grade Miss Mindy received on her physics test. Reminded him to update the academy via email with my grades as an exchange student in Russia.

(10:00pm) No bear yet. Called Mr. Monty to ask about the rest of Miss Mindy's day.

(11:51pm) Camp is lost again.

(2:05am) White, red, black. Even then, she shines.

(8:07am) Still no camp. But I have found signs of what may be a bear.

(2:00pm) Taking shelter from a storm inside a cave. No bears within.

(10:02pm) Called Mr. Monty to ask about Miss Mindy's day.

(4:56am) Princess dreams tonight. Sometimes I prefer the nightmares.

(12:34pm) The bear continues to elude me. As does the camp. But the camp doesn't matter. The camp is my human weakness. To find the bear I must become the bear.

(6:12pm) Found a comfortable log to nap on.

(9:01pm) Woke up covered in ants.

(10:00pm) Called Mr. Monty to ask about Miss Mindy's day. Warned him to check her rooms thoroughly for ant invasion.

(5:21am) Red on white dreams. What am I doing here?

(7:04am) I woke up in my cave to find my bear staring down at me. It wore a red ribbon around it's head. When I woke up again and found myself alone, there was no trace of my bear, only myself. Was this a sign?

(11:00am) I saw my reflection in a pond today. My appearance is...beyond unacceptable. To have let my condition go to this extent...if I went home, would Miss Mindy even want me back? Do I even deserve to be taken back?

(12:40pm) I could stay here in the woods. She doesn't need me. As I am, I would just hold her back.

(1: 41pm) To go back now would mean I failed. Failed myself and most importantly, Miss Mindy.

(2:30pm) What would Don Diablos do? I am afraid to go back home. Don Diablos rejects fear. Therefore I must go back home.
"Fear is the Mindkiller." - The Way of Don Diablos

(6:20pm) I'm on the helicopter ride back, and I've never been more afraid. But still, I can't help but feel so happy to be going back to them.

(10:13pm) I'm not allowed to enter the city. I can't reach them. I can't help them. I can't protect them. This is completely unacceptable.

(10:40pm) Called Mr. Lee, he said to wait another day before taking any "drastic measures."

(10:53pm) Called Mr. Monty to ask about Miss Mindy's day.

(11:12am) The quarantine has been lifted.

(11:15am) I'm never leaving them again. No matter our adversaries, it's better to be weak and there rather than strong and absent.

(11:17am) I think Don Diablos would understand.