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 Posted: Mon May 31, 2010 9:19 pm
Smaller rants first
1. wtf, you guys. Of the last 8 of the topics that I've made in the forum, zero of them have gotten ANY POSTS. It's really starting to piss me off, truly.
2. My dad doesn't have the AC on, so it's 90 god-damned degrees in this house, and there's no way I can sleep like this. I'm going to tell him that I love him, but I can't stay with him unless I am comfortable enough to FALL ASLEEP (I've been trying to for the last 2 HOURS)
3. I fall too easily. No, not physically, speaking, emotionally speaking. OVer the course of the last 2 months, I've lost my interest in the girl that I had been talking about, and over the last 2 weeks, I've gained a different infatuation for another girl. Neither of them are really alike. This new one is sort of... spunky... attitude-wise. That's the best way I can think of describing her, and she has much more flaws than the other girl did. But the flaws only bring out what's great in her, y'know? And the biggest flaw she's brought to me, which I won't share, but it's not HUGE but big enough to stand a case, I felt uneasy about for 2 minutes, and then I was over it. Ugh, I hate it, because these stupid infatuations only add to my insomnia. And not that, but I REALLY want to tell her. It feels much easier now that I've done it in person before. I want to go over to her house and just belt. Ugh. And she has familial issues, mostly with her father (who is removing service from her phone on her birthday--next Sunday). Ugh... I won't be expecting much sleep for the next 5 nights... I thought last Sunday took long to get here, because I wanted to see her, this next one is going to take FOREVER AND A HALF AND ANOTHER HALF OF THAT! And you know what would kill everything? If she either couldn't make it to youth group, or she decided to take someone else up for a ride home. Oh my gosh. Teen drama. I haven't witnessed it quite like this before.
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Posted: Mon May 31, 2010 9:36 pm
When Darkness comes...To answer the first one...My apologies.
On the second one....Well, good luck, hope you get comfy soon.
Now, to the big one.
First off-Well, this is gonna really suck to hear..but...this isn't going to stop. For a long time. you're going to have to find something to ease your mind to sleep. Try reading, doing math, meditating, something like that. It's how I used to fall asleep. It sucks, this I know very well, and I'm sorry man, really. And with the girls...Well, infatuation is a b***h at young ages. It happens to the best of us.Just gotta think to yourself: Why are you attracted to this person? If you think you seriously have some good, solid answers, jump in man, and get ready for a ride. otherwise...Stop yourself before it's too late. I can sympathize...
there's not too much more advice I can give you besides, well, stay tough, good luck, and I love ya man. ...I'll Light The Night With Stars!
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Posted: Tue Jun 01, 2010 7:08 am
Lulz I heart you, Roland.
Yeah, she's gone through that stage with me where she's asked what I thought of her when I first met her, and why I think she's a good person, and I didn't lie--I had a lot of things to say, a lot of good things, and very few negative things.
I think there may have been a sign in this whole thing, too.
The day I drove her home, after I dropped her off and started heading home, I had the radio on. It was playing "Patience" by Guns 'N Roses, which is a song all about the stresses of relationships, and whatnot. So when I got home that night, I told her to listen to it when she had the chance. I listened to it again that night before I fell asleep. The following day, I head to my memorial day parade, the ceremony after the parade gets rained out, and I head home early. What song is playing on the radio? "Patience" by Guns 'N Roses. Last night, while I was lying in bed, trying to sleep, I was listening to 95.1 WIIL, who are known for their "Non-stop blocks of rock". One of them comes on. All Guns 'N Roses songs in it. That time, "Patience" didn't play, but I still thought of it... and her...
That's 3 of the same song, then another that I couldn't set my mind straight.
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Posted: Tue Jun 01, 2010 3:25 pm
I've been anti-social to the guild lately. D: I keep saying "I'll reply later...." and never do.
Do you have any fans in your bedroom? Fans help a lot.
For the lady infatuation, if you think of it in third person and it's incredibly creepy-stalker or debilitating, you should really do something- be it read reddit or complimenting her boobs hair. Oh yeah, and religious girls are brainless suckers for guys that love Jesus, it's like saying you're their Apollo rocket of love.
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Posted: Tue Jun 01, 2010 3:38 pm
When Darkness comes...Hey man, I just hate knowing that somewhere out there, you're hurtin. And yes, for the love of God, that sounds like a sign, but yeah, kinda what Toon said- think of it in third-person for sec and see how it looks ^_^
Stay sexy man~~ heart ...I'll Light The Night With Stars!
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Posted: Tue Jun 01, 2010 3:54 pm
lulz. It's not that bad from a different perspective that knows what's going on in my mind. I wish I had ESP, that would be awesome. Ha, speaking of, I was kind of concerned that I was texting her to much (being if she didn't respond, I'd wait, y'know 5+ hours, because I'm paranoid like that.
@toon; Ha, she's not super Jesus freaky. But I already told her that I am not yet christian, but I am pursuing God, and I told her that I'm just not going to dive into a belief that I am not 100% with, y'know? She seemed to be taken aback at first but then "got it".
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Posted: Tue Jun 01, 2010 4:34 pm
No. #1 is normal for me. I just ignore it.
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Posted: Tue Jun 01, 2010 5:18 pm
Yeah, Bijou, but you make like, 80x more topics than I do, and you post each topic in at least 3 guilds.
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