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Ciaran had walked quitely towards the Labs as it had taken Sokan to prod him out of bed as he truly didn't want to go back to the Labs and talk with Vampy as Ciaran found that he didn't want to go near or be alone with Vampy from the things he heard from his friends. Sokan did remind him that he did have to go no matter what and he didn't like it very much, just to many bad memories.

Once inside the building and once he got the directions to Vampy's office and then hid in the shadows to not let any of the techs know that he was here. Once at the office door he let the shadows fall from him. Taking a few minutes to calm himself down and to keep certain thoughts from surfacing and knocked on the office door.

Ciaran had freaked out that the door had opened on its own as the feathers on his tail were all fluffed out. In more attempts to calm down didn't help when he heard Vampy talking to him before he even walked into the room, he just so didn't want to be here as all he wanted to do was to hid. But knowing that he couldn't get out of it he walked into the room a little jumpy and his tail twitching behind him.

Ciaran sorta smiled at Vampy to be nice as he walked over to the chair that he was indicated to sit, but only got half way there as he heard the door shut and as he started to panic as his only way out of the room was cut off. After a few seconds he stomped the panic down and sat down in the chair still very nervous.

"Yes that is right, but they are just scars now...Hopefully I don't take up too much of your time with this meeting..." he said as he sorta staring at the floor with his tail still twitching behind him.

Ciaran feathers fluffed out in his fear when he heard Vampy talking to him trying to at least try and calm his fears, as his thoughts were going a mile a minute to lots of stuff and some of his past as well as he tried once more to calm himself. It took him a little to calm down and let the words that Vampy said to him sink in as if he truely wanted to do those things, Vampy would have done them the minute he had walked in he convinsed himself as he calmed down futher as he was a little curious to know what they could possable talk about.

He looked at Vampy with a little fear still there and his tail still very muchly twitching wildly behind him. "Ok, and yes we can talk," he finally musterd to say and now hopeing that this wouldn't take too long as he now wanted to go see his friend now.

Ciaran only sat down as he was asked to or he would have just like to be standing up as it was better to be standing to get away if he need or could. Getting slightly more nervous to see that Vampy had any information on him as he didn't know to what Vampy knew about him as his tail still twitched behind him as he sat.

Thinking a little on what he was asked as he brefly looked at Vampy then back to the floor as he played with his toes. "For the fact I don't think I'm entirely happy like some that I know or truly unhappy, but something in the middle. There are things that turned out differently and there are things that I would never want to take back or think on how it could have been different," he answered.

Ciaran cocked his head to the side for a second as he was thinking on to what Vampy has said and to what he has said too. "Well maybe not a true neutral as I can sorta be happy or sad from time to time," he replied as he tail wagged but sorta a macanical type of way, wondering slightly to how long this was going to take as there were something that he didn't want to talk about or things he didn't want to talk about as it would admit to himself that he did those things and to those he cared about.

Ciaran cocked his head to the side as he thought on some of what Vampy had said. He really wouldn't want to change anything but then he would never wish his life on anyone as he tried to at least stay some what sane as he was still very nervous. "No it wasn't good and no I rather not," he answered but was going to say more but with the mention of his guardian, Ciaran got all stiff in his body and his tail stopped its motion and was very ridged. Even is pupils contrated in his seething anger. "I so very much loath that woman," he replied with lots of hate and anger has he sorta hissed those words even at the end of his tail some of his magic was arcing between the feathers. "I would never want to relive my life if I had to go back to that woman never ever!" he said slightly blind in his rage that he was in the same room with Vampy. "She left me here when I needed her the most and it did make a big impact or I might not have been as broken as I can be," Ciaran said in rage as it was quite appartent he was very bitter about that guardian. "Flinging me into broken and shaddered worlds wandering around lost and so very alone not knowing who was real or fake to torment me in shaddered places, wondering to how to excape from the torements of what was never going to be," Ciaran ranted on as more magic danced on is tail the stronger his feelings went.

As he truly never had talked about that guardian to anyone except for someone that did live with him in that time but that was never a true outlet for how he felt about what happened and how very bitter he felt about it, maybe this wasn't the type of trigger that Vampy was looking for but got a trigger none the less.

Calming down a little but his tail still swished behind him agatated as Ciaran thought on what Vampy has just asked of him. But of what Vampy had asked sorta wasn't new to him as he had once thought along these lines. "That I do, sir." he said trying to make himself more calm as right now he had forgotten his fears. "If asked that when I was younger I would have taken up the possablitiy as I have thought about it myself. But haveing things be different still wouldn't change what I am as I would still envy what I don't have as its a falt of my own charater and I would still fall to insanity by others means and the out come could be better or it could be worse, I'm ok with how I am even if there are times when I don't like it when I'm not all there, but I will live as I have others that care about me," Ciaran said as he wouldn't change anything as he like how things were going if there had been a very bumpy road to get there even if there were more bumps in the future as he didn't want to forget his two special friends especally one of them.