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Posted: Fri Mar 12, 2010 2:50 pm
Okay, so in my English class there is this crazy smart guy named Max (Marcio/Mark) and he was number two in the class ranks. My friend Mia wanted to know who number one was but couldn't figure it out so she created "One-chan" A flamboyant Canadian who is super competitive and wants to open up bubble tea shops around the world. She wanted to write a story about them but couldn't think of how to do it so she asked me to. And I've gotten off to a good start, in my opinion. Everyone in this story is based off somebody in my school and their actual personalites (except for Elliot). It's still ongoing and I'll be adding more. Warnings: Cursing and kissing is about it.
Nobody would get close to me. I wouldn’t let anyone touch me, that’s what I had foolishly told myself. I had promised that I’d keep myself distanced from everyone. But it was curiosity. That damn curiosity, which only goes to prove the point that curiosity did kill that cat. No, I didn’t die, nor am I completely unhappy but the thought that someone was able to get to my heart bugs me. I suppose you want to hear the story from the beginning, well it started in my English class. I was talking to my… friends, I guess would be the closest term, I had told them, “So I’m number two, in class ranks, you know.”
Before they even had the chance to answer we were interrupted by some eavesdroppers, “Number two?” the female asked me, “Really? I thought you’d be number one, do you know who it is?” The girls friend turned in her desk to look at me, obviously curious as well. Rather than wasting my breath on them I simply shrugged my shoulders. Seemingly forgetting about me, the girl turned back to her friend and said, “Wow, I’m really curious now… who do you suppose it is?”
Rather than listen to their pointless drabbling I turned back to the paper on my desk and began to finish up the assignment that I was supposed to be doing before I had gotten on to the topic of number one and number two. Just as I finished the assignment the announcements rang throughout the class room. I removed myself from the desk and placed the lined paper into the basket labeled “Creative Writing.”
As I exited the class, my friends on either side of me chatting it up questions came to me. Who exactly was number one? Who could have possibly beaten me? I thought of the smartest students in my grade, though the only one that came to mind was my friend. He was smart, though didn’t have the drive. Too lazy and I doubt he really cared much in the end. Besides, if he was number one he was sure to have said something.
Why something as insignificant as a number bothered me, I couldn’t say… I kept trying to figure it out, there weren’t that many smart people in my year, it shouldn’t have been so hard to figure out. I was only brought back to reality by the touch of someone’s hands on my shoulders. I turned my head to see it was my senior friend, “You ought to watch where you’re going, Macario,” the red-head told me. Confused at what he meant I shrugged off his hands and attempted to keep going, only to realize I was nearly face to face with a wall. “Something wrong? You seem kind of… odd.” He asked me.
“No, I was just thinking,” I told him boredly, even if there was something wrong I wouldn’t tell him. It’d be an opening for him to wiggle his way in. I spent the remainder of the day going through nearly every student in my grade that I could think of, not one of them seemed to have enough brain to surpass me. Maybe I was being too conceited… Well it was logical to assume that when I got home that night I paged through last year’s yearbook and tried to determine who it was that had beaten me. Had it simply been a fluke? A mess up of calculations? No matter how many times I paged through that yearbook I couldn’t think of anyone who could have beaten me and wasn’t too lazy to do so.
Maybe it was a new student this year? That’d have to be it, there’s no other option, is there? Feeling defeated and threw the book across the room, pulled off my shirt, and laid in bed. Damn you Mia, why did you bring up number one? It didn’t bug me until you mentioned it… With a sigh and rolled over and pulled the blanket over my head.
I awoke the next morning at my usual time of 6:03, an odd time but that is why I liked it. After going through my boring morning routine I was off to school. I got there a bit early and I decided to go to the cafeteria, that’s where Mia usually hung out in the morning. I had to ask her who the new students were this year. I didn’t bother to care since I wouldn’t be talking to them but she was sure to know. When I arrived Mia was angrily talking with that one kid in our grade. His name escaped me, all I knew about him was that he was quite annoying and openly gay. “You’re so mean!” I heard him whine in an annoyingly high voice. Doing my best to ignore him I quickly crossed over to the usually cheerful female.
“Who are the new students this year?” I got straight to the point; she was sitting on the table so we were about eye level.
“There is that Amber Rich girl…” she replied, holding out one finger as she listed her off. “We have that foreign exchange student from Taiwan, Zoey…” Mia brought out another finger to symbolize two. She closed her eyes in thought before saying, “Oh yeah! There is that kid in our creative writing class, Elliot… why do you ask, Mark?” she concluded.
I knew Zoey wasn’t in our grade, since they mentioned her at the beginning of the school year but Amber? Whoever she was, I had no idea. “No reason,” I told her lamely before leaving. As I exited the cafeteria I nearly bumped into a female coming around the corner from the opposite direction. She put out her hand, as if she meant to pat my shoulder, and apologized before heading over to where Mia was sitting. After a quick stop at my locker I would head off to my first class of the day, Western Civilization. After about forty-five minutes of listening to his robotic lecture about the test tomorrow I headed off to my second class. I was too busy thinking about how smart that Elliot kid might be, so I don’t really recall much of that class. Either way I knew everything the teacher was ranting about so I didn’t really need to pay attention. Creative Writing, my third class, I thought it would never come. I had to find out more about this Elliot boy. As I approached the classroom my heart started racing, the thought of knowing who it was must have caused it. Though that still didn’t explain why I felt so nervous.
Today Mr. DeKemper decided we’d watch a movie in his class, though since it really didn’t have anything to do with anything we were currently doing in class he gave us the option of going into the back room to study. Naturally I went back there, along with my friends Ian and Thomas. Not to mention Mia and her friend Brin, along with an unfamiliar boy… Elliot?
Once the door was closed behind us Mia instantly started talking, “Hey Mark! This is Elliot, the new student this year! I thought you might want to meet him, since you were asking about him this morning.”
I noticed a slightly smug smile come across the boy’s face as he asked, “Oh, so you were asking about me?” The way he said it, it was as if he was teasing me. I felt my blood boil at the thought of this guy beating me out for number one. Though there would be only one way to truly find out. Ask him straight out.
“Elliot, what is your class rank?” I questioned him simply, straddling the chair in the back left corner of the room, resting my arms over the back of it.
The male followed in suit and took a seat on a small metal chair. “Oh? I’m number one~” he said, crossing his feminine left leg over his right, holding up a finger for one. Why did people insist on doing that? Did they think the person was so stupid they didn’t understand what “one” meant without a visual? Then it hit me.
He did say one, right? I lost out to number one to the girly guy sitting across from me, a stupid smirk on his pale face. “You’re number one? Is that a joke?” my tall friend Thomas asked him, apparently not believing it either.
Elliot shrugged and replied confidently, “What reason would I have to joke about this?” he brought his hands to the top of his knee, resting them there. I had to give it to him, he had a point? Why would he joke about it? No reason came to mind.
“So, Mr. One, what do you plan on doing?” my red-head friend asked the very question that had come to my mind.
“I want to open up bubble tea shops around the world~” he replied happily, smiling over at me. Never before in my life had I wanted to hit a guy so hard. What the hell even is bubble tea? Why would he want to do something so… meaningless with his intelligence?
“Bubble tea shops!!” Once again, before I could say what I had wanted to someone interjected. This time it was Mia, “I love bubble tea!! That is so cool!” After a short pause she added, “I wish there was a bubble tea shop in Whitewater…”
If all he wanted to do is open bubble tea shops, why did he try so hard? He didn’t deserve the number one spot, I plan on doing something with my intelligence, what that is I’m not sure, but nevertheless. Though I was sick of looking at that guy’s stupid smile so I turned around the chair and began to pretend to help Thomas with his math. Before I knew it class was over and my belongings were still scattered across the counter thing. Getting up from my chair I began to gather everything, my friends seemingly forgot that I was there for they didn’t wait up. Brin and Mia left almost the moment the bell rang and I was left in the room with Elliot. He seemed to be waiting for something, turning around I asked, “Did you want something?” His eyes seemed to bore into me, I couldn’t keep quiet as he stared so intently at me.
He stood and crossed over to me, “Nothing really,” he told me, his smile getting smugger as he came closer. Feeling a bit awkward I quickly finished gathering my stuff and tried to leave. But before I had the chance he had grabbed the front of my shirt and pulled me into a kiss. Correction, now there has never been a time I wanted to hit a guy so hard. Shoving him off I quickly left and to my dismay Ian was standing outside, he had waited for me. He must have seen the little scene that just took place in the back of DeKemper’s back room. Before I even had the chance to explain what just happened to Ian I heard Mia’s damn yelling from the hallway.
“Holy s**t Brin! Did you see that!!” she pointed at us, to which Brin just shrugged. She must have missed it, unfortunately for now Mia yelled, louder if possible, “Number one and number two just kissed!”
Trying to keep my composure I swiftly exited the backroom, dragging Ian with me. “What was that about?” the taller male asked me, his voice sounded a bit odd. A sort of emotion in it that I didn’t normally hear, I couldn’t place what emotion it was exactly.
“I dunno…” I replied lamely with a shrug, trying to walk away but Ian wouldn’t just allow that.
“Why did you kiss Elliot?” he questioned me, for some reason he sounded angry. Was something wrong? It was then I realized… I lost my first kiss to another male.
“Because I thought that if I could get enough of his saliva I’d get smarter,” I replied sarcastically, rolling my eyes at him. Did he honestly think I’d just go around kissing random people? Ian looked a bit taken aback at my answer, did he actually believe me. “I didn’t kiss him, he kissed me,” I concluded, why did I need to explain myself to him?
“It takes two people to kiss…” he replied slowly, I’ve never seen him so… like this before. What was on his mind? Did I want to know? He almost seemed… jealous?
Deciding to play the part of a good friend-like-person I asked him, “Is something wrong? Don’t tell me you had your eyes on Elliot,” I attempted to tease him. Though why I was the one trying to make him feel better when I was the one who was just assaulted, I couldn’t figure out.
“Shut up…” he told me coldly. Now it was my turn to be taken aback. “I need to get to class, see you.” With that he was gone. Did he seriously want Elliot? Thoughts buzzed around in my mind as I quickly walked to my next class, which I only had a minute to get to. Did he really like guys? Maybe his whole homophobic thing was just a cover, an act. Either way, for the moment I had completely forgotten about the whole Elliot thing for the time being.
I was sitting at the table at lunch with Thomas and Sung, we were talking about something, obviously it wasn’t important since I couldn’t remember it. Though my lunch was interrupted by the second to last person I wanted to see at the moment. Mia, and her friend Courtney. “What was that kiss like, Mark!” she instantly asked, quite loudly mind you, as she took a seat across from Sung.
“Kiss?” Thomas instantly lifted his head from in between his knees and looked over at me. I shot Mia a look, warning her not to say any more. Though she didn’t get it… well even if she did I doubt she’d stop talking about it now. I wondered just how many people knew by now.
“Yeah! Elliot and Mark shared a hot, passion-filled kiss in Barry’s back room,” she replied, distorting what had happened greatly. I wanted to bury my head in the tray of food in front of me. Why?
“Elliot? That number one guy?” Thomas filled in anyone who was listening and wasn’t sure who Elliot was, just great. I took a side-glance at Sung, fearing what he was going to say.
“Holy ******** Mark you’re gaaaaay for Elliot! Mark, you player!!” Why did people insist on discussing my private matters so loudly? It seemed as if all the tables in the lunch room had instantly turned to face us.
“First off, it was not a “hot passion-filled” kiss. Second, he forced himself on me. And third, you will not spread this to anyone else… Mia.” I concluded, standing. Words couldn’t describe how much I hated people right now. I grabbed my tray and after I dumped it I exited the cafeteria.
I spent the rest of the day in my own little world, ignoring my so-called friends as they questioned me about my orientation. I need to some time to think. What scared me most is that I didn’t completely hate the kiss… Not that I’d ever ever admit to that out loud.
Everything between then and the next day in English class seemed a blur. I wasn’t even supposed to be in class today, there was a field trip for “The Voice” but I didn’t feel like going. Though Ian, Thomas, and Mia, the main reasons for my not wanting to go on the trip. We were watching the movie again today in class and I went to the back room once again, alone though. Well I wasn’t alone for too long for, to my dismay, Elliot came back into the room. What did he want?
“Here,” he told me, handing me an odd drink. I took it, eyeing him suspiciously. “It’s bubble tea, try it. It’s good…” he told me, and he almost seemed… normal. For some reason my heart started to beat faster as I took a sip of the drink. The brown drink had a nice taste, it was really good. Until a tapioca pearl came up through the straw. I didn’t expect something like that coming through the straw; I coughed as it entered my mouth and nearly sputtered the drink all over the male standing across from me. It was then he started laughing, not with me but at me. Once I finished choking on the drink I shot a glare at him. “Try another drink,” he said once he finished laughing at me, “This time try not to choke.”
It was a good drink until I choked so I complied and took another drink, stopping before the tapioca pearl had entered my mouth. I handed him back the cup and he instantly took a drink from the very straw I had just choked on. “You know… the look on your face when you first sipped the bubble tea…” he started and I looked back over at him, bracing myself for another smart-a** comment, “It was really cute, makes me want to kiss you again~” Luckily I wasn’t drinking the tea at that time, for I would have done a spit-take. Did he come from someplace where it was acceptable to say this kind of stuff to another male? Did a kiss not mean the same the same thing?
Either way I took a step back and changed the topic and since I wanted a question answered what better way to do that than to ask, “Where did you transfer from?” I asked, taking the spot in the corner, where I had sat yesterday.
“Canada… why?” he replied simply, taking the spot next to me, where Ian had sat yesterday. As he sat down I pushed my chair back a bit, more into the corner.
“Just curious…” I stated. Canada… not all that different from here. So why did he insist on being so… so… flirty with me? What is going through his mind… why is he so hard to read?
“Curiosity?” he questioned, that same smug smile on his face, as he pushed his chair a bit closer to mine, cornering me. I simply nodded in response and leaned away. “Hey Marico,” he said in a soft voice, leaning closer to me. I tried to look away but my eyes were drawn to his, I couldn’t break the gaze. He brought his hand up and used his thumb to wipe something away from the corner of my lip, butterflies in my stomach started fluttering about as I gazed into his lilac eyes. “You have some tea here,” he then licked his thumb. After about a moment of staring at him he spoke again, “Something interesting you’re looking at?”
For some reason I felt my face grow warm at the realization I had been gazing into his eyes. What was wrong with me? Luckily I didn’t have to answer for the bell rang and I jumped up, eager to leave. I didn’t want to give him to abuse my lips again.
And I was out of the room like that. The classes were boring, nothing worth noting. I skipped lunch that day because I wasn’t in the mood to be pestered by anyone. The moment I got home I collapsed on my bed, I was so glad it was Friday. I pulled off my shirt and before I knew it I was asleep. Though I didn’t get to sleep long since there was pounding on my door. I awoke with a start and rolled off my bed, “Come in…” I growled tiredly as I stood back up.
Ian opened the door and entered my room, why was he here? Then I remembered, he had invited himself over, he had said we’d play risk or a game of some sort… “Were you sleeping?” he asked me, and I noticed that he shifted his gaze away from me. I thought for sure he wouldn’t have shown up due to our spat the previous day.
I shrugged and replied, “I shouldn’t have been sleeping so early anyways…” We stood their awkwardly for what seemed like hours, though in actuality it was probably only two minutes… which is still pretty long to just be standing there. Deciding that once again I’d assume the role of the good friend I asked him, in a completely serious voice, since teasing him just turned out bad last time, “Is something wrong?”
Ian just shrugged before saying, “I’ve just been doing some thinking…” Something seemed off about him. He seemed sort of… defenseless. Maybe the fact he thought I was gay made him feel bit odd. After a shot pause of more awkwardness he continued. “What, exactly, do you think of Elliot?”
What kind of question was that? I wondered, giving him a confused look. Though it made me wonder… what did I think of Elliot? “I don’t like him, if that’s what you’re implying…” I concluded, scratching the back of my head. For some reason I just couldn’t say that I hated him... “Why do you ask?” Once again in response he shrugged. He was beginning to piss me off, why wasn’t he talking? I decided to drop the friend act and said, “Hey, there’s nothing between me and Elliot. If you want him… I won’t judge you,” I teased him; at least this might evoke a reaction out of him and then maybe he’d leave.
It was the wrong choice, a stupid idea on my part. If looks could kill, Ian would have killed me right there and then. “Idiot, are you sure you’re number two?” he asked me coldly, once again his reaction left me a bit taken aback. “You’re so oblivious. What would make you think I liked Elliot?” Once he said it out loud, I realized how stupid it probably seemed… though that only left one other option for him. He was jealous not of me but of Elliot. Damn, how did I get myself roped into this? Why is everyone suddenly gay? I asked myself mentally, looking away. Before I even had the chance to suggest we do something else I felt warmth under my chin… a hand. I looked up at my taller friend, and tried to move away but he kept his held firm. He lowered his head and crashed his lips against mine. Another thing I couldn’t figure out. Why did people insist on kissing me? I couldn’t have been that attractive. I forced myself away from him as he attempted to slide his tongue into my mouth, sloppily mind you.
“I don’t know what this is about, nor do I care to know but I suggest you leave…” I told him in the calmest tone I could muster; I pointed a shaking hand at the door and kept my gaze firmly on my feet. He was about to protest but I just pointed at the door again and said in a firm voice, “Out.” He listened and briskly walked out; I closed the door behind him and collapsed onto my bed. I grabbed my pillow and hugged it close to my chest, burying my face in it. Why was it I suddenly felt as if my life was falling apart? I never thought I’d feel this way. I acted as if nothing bothered me for so long I guess I actually believed it was true. It was that night I finally remembered that it’s okay to feel sad when something sad happens. I remembered that sometimes the only thing that can help you is a good cry. I honestly can’t tell you the last time I really cried before then but it felt good. Like a huge weight was lifted away. Once I finished crying I called myself and an idiot for crying over something as stupid as a person or a kiss or two.
I pulled the blanket over my head, rolled over, and fell asleep. It was a dreamless night, and a long one. I awoke the next morning at two in the afternoon. After a took a long and relaxing shower I spent the better part of my day playing online games, because those didn’t require much thinking. I’m not sure how long I sat there and played but the next I glanced at the clock the digital numbers flashed “8:09.” Rubbing my sore eyes I stood up and stretched. As I opened the door I grabbed a paper from my bedside table and traveled downstairs in a search for some food for my protesting stomach. In the kitchen I raided the cabinets and found a can of alphabet soup, which I was strangely in the mood for. I removed a bowl from the dishwasher and poured the contents into it, filled the can halfway with water, and poured that into the bowl as well. Putting it into the microwave I hit the quick cook button three times. I then grabbed the paper that I had brought down and crossed into the dim living room. The walls brown with paneling and only one window, not to mention the lamp wasn’t very large or bright. “Hey mom,” I said loudly, announcing my presence as I dangled the paper in front of her face. “Could you sign this?” Before she had the chance to asked what it was I continued, “For our creative writing assignment we have to observe an animal and write in its point of view. We’re going on a trip to a zoo, and then we’ll be staying in some hotel over night. We leave tomorrow around three,” I concluded with my short description.
My mother muttered a sure as she sloppily signed my paper. I heard the microwave go off as she handed me back my paper. I returned to the kitchen, grabbed a spoon from the drawer, and took the bowl from the microwave. After stirring it I took a bite only to find it was still cold. Though I didn’t feel like putting it back so I just retreated back into my room, sipping my cool soup. I then turned off my game and watched whatever was on while I finished the soup.
Once I finished I set the bowl on my bedside table, on top of my paper, and crawled into bed. I was oddly tired despite my lack of activity that day. I probably should have studied for the exams coming up in two weeks… but I wasn’t in the mood.
It was 10:46 when I woke up the following day; I awoke to the doorbell ringing. Who the hell was here so early? I thought, rolling out of bed. My parents were gone and I was home alone, meaning I had to be the one to get the door. I looked around for a shirt but when the bell rang again I gave up on that and hurried down the stairs. “Yeah?” I asked emotionlessly, opening the door. My heard skipped a beat, for some currently unknown reason, when I saw who it was at the door.
“I came up with a new bubble tea recipe!” Elliot claimed excitedly, and loudly, holding up a cup with a large straw in it. His normally pale face was red from the cold, he must have walked here. Why would a bubble tea recipe so important to bring over? I thought, giving him an odd look. “You gonna let me in or let me freeze out here some more?” he asked me in a teasing tone. I felt I didn’t really have a choice; I pushed the door open a bit further and made a gesture telling him to come in. I closed the door behind him and turned around to have a drink thrusted into my hands, “Try it! I want to know your opinion~”
I hesitantly brought the straw to my lips, this time the liquid was a cream-like color. I sucked the liquid slowly up the straw, still not too fond of the tapioca pearls. “It has a nice taste,” I told him blandly, actually it was probably one of the best drinks I had tasted. “What flavor is it?” I asked, as I handed him the back the drink.
“Its coconut bubble tea…” he replied, taking a drink of the delicious beverage, taking up the black pearl. He handed it back to me and I took another drink almost immediately. It seemed like a pretty good system… I’d drink it until I came close to swallowing one of those black beads and then he’d take another drink to remove it. We continued like that, standing in front of my front door, sharing the drink until it was empty. “Glad you liked it~” he said slyly, giving me a slightly creepy wink in the process. He set the empty cup down and took a step closer to me. “So, you sleep with your shirt off?” he asked me, placing his hand on my chest. I took an awkward step back, removing his hand from my body. “You know, you have a good build, do you work out?” He took another step forward and cupped my chin in his hand. I tried to break away but couldn’t… or maybe I just didn’t want to. But for the second time I lost as to what I should do. His eyes, I just couldn’t seem to remove my eyes from his. Before I knew it his lips crashed against mine gently. It was a soft kiss; his tongue remained inside his own mouth. His lips felt smooth against mine. Not chapped or rough like Ian’s were… It was then I realized not only was I letting him kiss me but I was comparing his lips to those of my… friend?
I pulled away as he started to allow his fingers travel along my chest, I was really regretting not just putting on a shirt. I was desperate for a change of topic; to break the awkward silence… not mention the fact my exposed chest has beginning to feel horribly cold. “I need to pack for the English trip,” I stated loudly, “Shouldn’t you be going.” It wasn’t a question, more like a discrete order. Though whether he didn’t get it or just decided to ignore it I would never really know.
“No, it’s okay… I have my stuff here,” he patted the shoulder strap on his shoulder, showing off his plain backpack, “I figured we could just go together~ I don’t mind helping you get your stuff together.” For some reason I just couldn’t bring myself to tell him to scram and not come back. Instead I just shrugged and ascended the stairs, Elliot on my heels. “Whoa, your room is really clean,” he commented as I opened my door. The first thing I did when I got into my room was grab the shirt I had worn yesterday and thrown it out over my torso. He took an uninvited seat on my bed while I rummaged through my dresser draws, grabbing the first pair of pants and shirt I found. I shoved them into a duffel bag, feeling Elliot’s eyes focused on me. I’d get things like toothbrush and such later.
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Posted: Fri Mar 12, 2010 2:52 pm
For some reason the silence in the room was… almost unbearable. You see, it wasn’t one of those comfortable silences… not even one of those silences you don’t even notice. It was a thick, awkward silence. Luckily though I didn’t have to be the one to attempt to break said silence, for just a few moments after I thought about how to break it Elliot asked me another question, “Did you get something nice? We’re apparently eating out at some fancy restaurant,” he kindly reminded me, as he brought his legs up so he sat cross-legged on my messy bed.
“No, I’ll get that then…” I said in the same tone of voice I used every other time. I had no idea why this silence seemed so awkward… maybe it was the fact he was just kissing me only a few minutes ago? Either way I went into my closet and grabbed a plain white shirt, tossing it on top of my duffle bag, and then did the same with my pants. I turned around to see Elliot digging through my dresser, “What are you doing?” I asked him, raising an eyebrow at him.
He held up a tie and said, “I think this one would look good on you!” I don’t know what freaked me out more. The fact he was able to find the correct drawer so quickly and silently or the fact he was so okay with and acted as if it were normal to raid through peoples dressers. Then he continued to dig through my drawer, I was about to stop him when he pulled out another tie. “Can I borrow this? I don’t like mine,” he explained, already putting the tie in his bag and tossing me the other one.
Even if I had said no it wouldn’t have changed your mind, would it? I thought, shoving the new clothes into my duffel bag and I went to sit on my bed. Soon after Elliot sat next to me again. Just what was he playing at? What did he want? There had to be something, right? There couldn’t be any other reason he’d get so close to someone he just met. “You think we should leave?" Elliot asked me, gesturing over my clock. It read 2:30, when did it get so late? Time really just seemed to fly. I nodded and got up off the comfort of my bed, slinging the duffle bag over my shoulder. I was really debating just staying home; I didn’t really feel like going on a trip of any sort. Though I somehow doubted that Elliot would just leave me here.
With that we both exited my house and the cold winter wind nipped at my neck as I drew the excuse for a coat closer around my body. Luckily our destination wasn’t all that far so it wouldn’t take too long. After a few minutes of walking in that unusually awkward silence Elliot attached himself to my arm, letting his head rest on my shoulder. The way a girl would attach herself to her boyfriend… “What are you doing?” I asked him, trying to remove my arm for his death hold.
Even though he was such a little feminine thing (taller than me, though) his grip was strong… it almost seemed unnatural. How was it I couldn’t remove my arm from him? “I just want to share body heat~ It’d be bad if you caught something, you know,” was his excuse. I muttered a whatever and just let him do as he wished. Once again we walked in silence, though it wasn’t all the awkward this time… for some reason it was more of a… comfortable one. Before I knew it I saw the bus we’d be boarding and pulled away from Elliot. I could almost picture Ian if he were to see me walk in the bus with Elliot holding on to me. He gave me a slightly disappointed look, though I assumed he understood for he didn’t question me… Nor did he say anything at all…
After adjusting the duffle bag on my shoulder, so it could fit into the bus easier, I ascended the stairs into the bus. After muttering a good afternoon to Mr. DeKemper and handing him my permission slip I moved to an empty seat in the back of the bus. Elliot and I were a bit early, we seemed to walk faster than I had thought we would. At the very least, I got a good seat. I took the aisle seat, Elliot took the window seat… uninvited might I add. Before long the rest of the class was arriving, eventually it was three and DeKemper was doing a head count. Everyone who was coming seemed to arrive and we were off. The bus ride was to be about three to four hours, an incredibly long time to sit on a bus in my opinion. Not to mention in the seat across from me was Thomas… and Ian. Since the incident in my room I haven’t talked to him, I wasn’t sure how to face him. Apparently he wasn’t sure how to talk to me as well for he remained silent as well. I could tell Thomas thought something was up, though I think he was afraid to ask. I leaned my head back and closed my eyes, trying to ignore the sickening movement of the bus. The next thing I knew I was waking up due to the slowing down of the bus. I lifted my head and felt something fuzzy on the side of my neck. Elliot had fallen asleep… on my shoulder. I awkwardly shrugged him off, trying to be discreet about it, and the lights in the bus came on and instantly chattering resounded throughout the bus as the students stood and grabbed their bags. It was now about 6:00 and DeKemper started talking, more like shouting, “Okay, I’ll check everyone in and once I’ve finished with that you should go up to your room. Meet back in the lobby at seven dressed for dinner.”
With that I exited the bus, lugging the duffle bag behind me, and went quickly went into the lobby, not wanting to be in the cold winter air much longer. Once inside the lobby I sat down on one of the couches they had placed there. Soon after I sat down Elliot sat on my right side, a few moments later Ian sat on my left. I kept my gaze straight ahead, despite that I could nearly sense the glares Ian was sending Elliot. It made me extremely uncomfortable, though I tried to keep that feeling away from my face. Elliot then scooted a bit closer to me, quite obviously as he rubbed his foot against mine. Sighing mentally I stood up, just as Ian attempted to do the same, though probably sloppier and not as… natural as Elliot. What the hell? It’s like a silent fight… over me, none-the-less. It’s infuriating! I thought, leaving Ian and Elliot silently on the couch. As I walked over to the front desk DeKemper handed me a card, “You’re staying in room 238, you can head up there now.”
“Thank you,” I said, quite grateful to get out of there. I quickly pressed the “up” button on the elevator and once it arrived, with a ding, I entered the currently empty elevator. After pressing the button that should take me to my room’s floor the doors closed and began to move. Once again the elevator went off with a beep and I started down the hall to my room. “230... 232... 234... 236... And 238,” I mumbled to myself, sliding the card into the door. After the light flashed green I removed the card and entered my room. Tossing my duffle bag careless at the foot of a very comfortable looking twin sized bed I entered the bathroom. It had just occurred to me that I haven’t showered yet today and I really wanted one. Locking the door behind me, I discarded my clothing and took a very nice, warm, and long shower. Once the warm water started to turn cold I got out and wrapped a towel around my waist. I unlocked the door and exited into my room, I didn’t want to put back on the clothing I was just wearing and besides, that fancy dinner was coming up so might as well get dressed into the nice clothing I had brought. “That was a long shower… did you enjoy yourself~” It was Elliot… why was he in my room? Don’t tell me he’s my roommate… and here I am in a towel… I thought as I crossed to the bed and grabbed my duffle bag.
“Yes I did, until the water grew cold,” I replied simply, turning to go back into the bathroom. Had it been anyone else, besides Ian now, I probably would have just changed in the room. But I felt awkward enough with just a towel on. I didn’t hear what he said next, if he even said anything more, for I closed the door and locked it again. I towel dried my hair and pulled on my clothing. I pulled out the tie Elliot had so kindly grabbed for me and debated just putting it back. Though for some reason I just couldn’t bring myself to do so. Annoyed with myself, I put on the tie and exited the bathroom, once again.
In the room I noticed Elliot was having some troubles with his tie… or at least that’s what it looked like. He turned to me and asked me, his tone sounded somewhat embarrassed, surprisingly enough, “Could you… help me with this?” Despite my better judgment I nodded and crossed over to the male and took the tie from his hands. It was slightly infuriating that I had to reach up to help him with his tie. Once I finished he flashed his white teeth at me, “Thanks. By the way, I was right. That tie /does/ look good on you~” He told me, that smug expression of his returning. Damn, how I hated that expression. Before I knew what he was doing he grabbed my tie and pulled me against his lips. That was the second time today. He then pulled me down onto the bed, keeping my tie grasped in his hand and his lips against mine. I placed my hands on either side of the male, on the bed, to keep myself balanced. I tried to pull away, why did he keep doing this? Though once I got my lips away he just raised himself up and closed distance. When I felt something push through my lips and entwine with my tongue I tried to get away again. Though whether or not I actually wanted to get away was unsure… I knew I shouldn’t have been okay with it but somehow… it just felt… okay? The word to describe how it was I felt… well it doesn’t exist… for lack of better term I suppose “confused” would just have to do. Though that’s only scratching the surface of what was going through my head. Despite my better judgment not only did I let his tongue roam freely, I allowed mine to meet his. Before I could even think about it my tongue was clumsily following Elliot’s lead. I wish I could say I hated it… I wish I could have said it was disgusting, kissing another guy like that. But if I had said any of that it would have been a lie.
It was the loud knocking at my door that made me realize what it was I was actually doing. Making out with a male I just met not too long ago on a hotel bed. “Ready to head down, Mark? I figured we’d all just head down together…” It was Thomas’s voice calling through the door… and by “we’d all” I assumed he included Ian in that as well…
I was beyond glad the door was locked. Knowing my friends they would have just barged in if the door wasn’t. This was not a position I’d like to be caught in. They probably already suspected something to be going on and to be seen on top of Elliot, his hand grasping my tie and me nearly straddling him would just confirm their suspicions. “Yeah, let me get my shoes…” I called back, I surprised myself at how calm I sounded. After a short, few second pause I got off the bed and gave an awkward cough. Elliot certainly looked pleased with himself, which, quite honestly, pissed me off. I looked into the mirror and fixed my tie, which had came loose when a certain somebody pulled so fiercely on it. After I looked… “normal” again I swiftly slipped on my black dress shoes and exited the room, my roommate close behind.
“Are you feeling alright, Mark?” Thomas asked me almost immediately. I looked over… more like up since he was probably a good foot, maybe more, taller than me… at him and gave him a slightly confused look. I was about to ask him what he meant when he continued, “You look kind of flushed… maybe you should lie down?” Aha! An escape from awkward dinner conversation with Ian and Elliot.
“Yeah, I’m feeling a bit… queasy I think I might go lay down. Would you mind telling DeKemper for me?” I asked, going on with the sick act. Thomas nodded and Ian looked like he was about to object. Elliot as well. But I didn’t care, I just quickly closed the door to my room and kicked off the horrors on my feet. I discarded my clothing and pulled on a pair of pajamas, with a shirt. I’d learned my lesson last time, and now that I was sharing a room with the very person who made me want to wear shirts to bed it would only be natural. Once clothed I plopped down on the bed and closed my eyes. Trying to come up with a reason from my recent odd behavior. At the time I really couldn’t come up with much for a logical excuse. Instead I decided it was just because I was a teenage boy and Elliot acted, and maybe looked, enough like a girl… Of course, I knew that was just ridiculous in the back of my mind. I think part of me knew I was… slightly… attracted to him. I laid there in silence for a good while until sleep claimed me… although I wasn’t even all that tired.
I awoke to the sound of the door opening with a loud squeak. I bolted up and looked around. It was just Elliot coming back. “You feeling better?” he asked me, carrying a small box of food, no doubt. I rubbed my tired eyes and nodded. He sat down on the edge of my bed and I moved away slightly, discreetly. He put the box on my lap and said, “I brought you some food, incase you were… you know, hungry.” He crossed his legs in that odd feminine way he did quite often.
I was hungry, very much in fact. That bubble tea was the only thing I had today. “Thank you…” I told him calmly, opening the box, glad to find it filled with a chicken-fried steak. I took the fork and cut away part of the food and happily stuck it into my mouth. To my delight it was still warm and the taste was wonderful. It almost made me regret playing sick… almost. In about two minutes I was nearly done, Elliot just sat there and watched me. Though he just brought me food so I didn’t really mind all that much.
“You weren’t really sick, were you.” It wasn’t a question, just a sly statement. I ignored him for the moment and finished the food. I removed myself from my bed and discarded the empty box in the small garbage bag. His eyes were on me the whole time.
Finally I decided to answer, “I feel better now, though I’d like to go back to sleep,” I stated plainly, standing at the side of my bed. I stared at Elliot until he stood and nodded. I was surprised at how… well he listened to me. Maybe I really looked sick? I crawled into my bed instantly and pulled the blankets to my waist. “You got the lights?” I questioned him. To which he just nodded again… why was he being so quiet? Perhaps I had angered him… or maybe he was just not feeling unwell as well… I watched him out of the corner of my eye as he removed his shirt. He was so skinny and pale, his waist looked abnormally feminine for a guy. If it weren’t for the lack of breasts I might have doubted his gender.
“You like my body?” Elliot teased me, looking over his shoulder. I was wrong, I liked it better when he didn’t talk… I thought, feeling my face grow slightly warm with the realization I was staring. I muttered a shut up, rolled over and closed my eyes. Soon the lights were out though this time sleep didn’t claim me. I laid in bed with my eyes wide open, I heard Elliot’s gentle breathing… thankful he didn’t snore. After lying down for a good amount of time I finally fell asleep. Though it felt as if I had just gotten to sleep when I being waken up. “You should get up, we leave in fifteen minutes~” His voice rang throughout my head and it took me a minute to understand what he meant.
I jolted straight up, “Fifteen minutes! Why didn’t you wake me up sooner?” I grumbled and opened my duffle bag. He didn’t answer me, though I didn’t really care. Mornings sucked… I let out a sigh and removed my clothing. I didn’t really care if Elliot watched at the moment… I was too lazy to go to bathroom anyways. I put on a pair of blue jeans and a plain shirt, it didn’t really matter what shirt I put on since I would just be wearing a sweatshirt, and possibly a jacket, over it. It wasn’t going to be exactly… warm at the zoo. Once dressed I pulled open the door and nearly ran into Ian, his hand was raised so I assumed I he was about to knock on the door. I nodded at him and walked briskly past him. Though I was stopped by his hand on my shoulder.
“I think we need to talk Macario…” he told me, sounding slightly depressed. After I shrugged his hand away I muttered an “Okay, later,” and walked towards the elevator that would take me to the lobby. After a head count we boarded the bus, I took a seat near the front and was soon joined by Elliot. I was glad our Creative Writing class was small… if we had a bigger class we’d probably be sitting three to seat and I’d be stuck in between Elliot and Ian. Before I knew it we were at the zoo, I assume I was half asleep for the ride.
Before we were allowed to leave the bus DeKemper gave us some rules, “Go observe the animal you want… at noon meet in front and well go from there. I want everybody to have a partner--” whatever he said next I missed for at the word “partner” someone grabbed my arm… Elliot being that someone, obviously. I tried to pull my arm away but once again he surprised me with his strength. With a sigh and gave up, I heard Mia from behind me, “Brin, oh my god look! They‘re in love~” then some whispering that I couldn’t quite pick up. Ian looked like he was about to burst but Thomas quickly brought his attention elsewhere, sometimes I wondered if he knew more than he let on. “--and remember, have fun!” he concluded, getting off the bus. I managed to get my arm free when Elliot wasn’t paying attention. I jumped out of the bus and went straight to the large board that was the map of the zoo.
Whether I liked it or not, Elliot was my partner for this trip now, and truth be told I wasn’t sure whether I did or didn’t… “Where do you want to go first, Elliot?” I asked him after feeling his tall, skinny, presence next to mine.
After a short pause he finally answered, “I’d like to see the aquarium, first.” I gave him a small nod and turned towards the direction where the map had directed me. Even though the aquarium wasn’t my first choice, I didn’t really have any ideas or opinions on where to go first, so I figured might as well, right? In silence, Elliot and I headed down towards the aquarium. While walking I had the strangest feeling I was being watched. I shook it off and just passed it off as my over-tired imagination. Before long we were under the zoo, the big takes off water looming in front of us.
I took a glance over at Elliot and his large eyes seemed like they were sparkling, like a child who got his first look at his newly built tree house. I wasn’t expecting it when he started speaking again, and what he said was even less expected, “Do you suppose the ocean looks like this?”
It surprised me, that he had never seen the ocean before. “It doesn’t…” I told him calmly, finally tearing my eyes away from him.
Though he looked toward me and asked, “What do you mean?” I could sense a bit of disappointment in his voice.
“I mean, it’s not all that beautiful,” I clarified myself, a bit louder than I had intended.
Elliot just shook his head at me, a smile different from his usual smug, crawled across his face, “Maybe you just aren’t looking at it in the right way.” After a short pause he added, “You know, I’d love to see the ocean at night… to see the full moon reflecting off the waves.”
I brought myself to look back at and Elliot and I realized he had taken a couple steps towards me. I found myself wondering what beauty he could see in a salty body of water. Though, somehow, I felt a bit closer to the boy. Suddenly I had the odd urge to caress his feminine face…/What the hell is wrong with me? I must be… hanging around gays too much…/ I thought as I noticed him down toward me. I swear my body was moving on its own as I raised my hand to his cheek and stood on my toes to reaches his lips. Just as we were about to close the distance I heard Ian’s voice call my name. I quickly removed my hand and backed away from the other male. I looked over to where I had heard the voice and noticed Mia, glaring furiously over at Ian. Who was looking at me with a mix of hurt, angry, and disbelief… I believe so at least. Oh, Brin was there as well, but I didn’t notice her until later…
They had been following us, they had seen it all. Why were people so annoying? Can’t a person question his feelings, or lack-there-of, without being stalked? Ian opened his mouth to say something more but I didn’t want to hear it, I turned on my heel and turned to leave. I could hear Elliot’s footsteps behind me. Though what I heard next was even more interesting.
“I can’t believe you bribed Mr. DeKemper into putting Mark and Elliot in the same room…” It was Ian talking. He sounded depressed and I could almost see him shake his head as he said it. “I much… did it cost?” he asked, curiosity apparent in his voice.
I turned and looked at the two--wait, three--in disbelief. They seemed to forget I was there. “Brin gave Barry a dollar and I convinced him!” Mia replied before Brin added in a mumble, “Not that he needed very much convincing…”
And here I had thought this was just a big, crappy, coincidence. Boy was I wrong. My life wasn’t being manipulated by fate, just by two teenage females and a dollar. I never got headaches like this before Elliot came into my life, at the time I wished he hadn’t at all.
Although I managed to keep my uncaring, bored appearance up, my head was spinning. Thoughts and emotions I didn’t wish to feel sped through my mind as I finally exited the aquarium. After taking a deep breath I turned to Elliot and asked him, “Where to next?” I intended to divert his mind away from the almost-kiss we might have shared if Ian hadn’t, thankfully, interrupted. I could just picture that smug look on his face as he as brought it up, I could almost hear the mock-curiosity in his voice. Just thinking about it made me…
“Want to go see the monkeys?” His voice broke thought my thoughts and I nodded in reply. We walked in silence, it surprised me. Why wasn’t he talking? Why wasn’t he bringing up what happened in the aquarium? Something about how he… “knew I was attracted” to him--which I’m not--though most importantly, why did I care? Didn’t I just hope he didn’t bring it up? Wasn’t it a good thing that he wasn’t annoying me with his talk of… whatever his “number one” brain thought up? I glanced over at him and opened my mouth to say something. But then I changed my mind and ended up just closing my mouth again. Why was it that I felt so incredibly stupid around him?
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Posted: Fri Mar 19, 2010 2:25 pm
We sat on a bench and watched the playful monkeys run around for all of five minutes before I couldn’t stand the silence anymore--not to mention watching monkeys can get quite boring pretty easily--and I decided to bring up a question I’ve had been wondering. “Why bubble tea shops?” I asked, seemingly out of the blue. The other male looked over at me, slightly confused, and I expanded on what I meant. “You’re obviously smart… why is it the only thing you want to do is something so… small as opening up a chain of little tea shops.”
I watched him as a weak smile came across his face, he leaned forward and rested his forearms on his thighs. “When I was younger I wanted to do nothing more than please my parents,” he started slowly. “When I’d come home with a good job on a test they’d be ecstatic… they’d tell me how smart I am and fondly ruffle my hair. I loved the praise and attention and that smile they’d give me when they told me, ‘We couldn’t have asked for a better son.’ They were constantly telling me how proud they were and how much they loved me. Though some day that started changing, their expectations rose rapidly and no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t rise fast enough.” There was a short pause as he took a deep breath in. “I had tried to get things back to how they were before, I’d show them the high B I got on the hard French exam and they’d just tell me that was nice, though I could see by the looks on their faces that they were disappointed. I could almost hear them say, ‘Only a B? Why didn’t you get an A?’ And A’s were no longer, ‘We’re so proud of you,’ they were just, ‘Good job.’ It was expected of me to get an A, it was no longer anything special.”
“One night they asked me about my future plans, where did I want to go. What did I want to do and what did I plan on being? My simple answer of ‘I’m not sure yet,’ wasn’t liked and suddenly my future was planned for me. I’d attend Harvard Medical School and become a doctor, following in my fathers footsteps. I’d find a beautiful woman who’d be happy being a stay home mom to the two children I was apparently going to have. Slowly I began to rebel, I told them I didn’t want to go to college and wanted to open a bubble tea shop. Somewhere along the way, I actually did fall in love with the idea of a quaint bubble tea shop,” Elliot finished, still looking at the ground.
I didn’t know what to say exactly, clearly I’ve never been good at the talking thing. So instead I placed my hand on top of his and gave it a small squeeze, it seemed like a bit of an awkward thing to do but it was the only thing I could think of that didn’t include me stumbling over words like an idiot. At that gesture he looked over at me and I realized he had that smug smile of his. Though, for some reason, I found myself not really bothered by it this time. “Want to continue where we left off?” he asked me slyly, leaning towards me.
He must have expected me to move away for when I moved my hand to his cheek I noticed him tense slightly--out of surprise, I believe. I pushed my lips gently against his, the faint taste of bubble tea lingered in his mouth. I couldn’t believe I didn’t figure it out earlier. I didn’t hate him, he didn’t completely annoy me. Though I’d only known him for a couple weeks I felt like I had known him forever, I guess I am in love. It’s completely different from how I would have imagined it, completely different from what I thought I knew about love. My heart never “flutters” when I’m around him. Our hands don’t interlock neatly, they just don’t fit together perfectly. His hand is long and slender whereas my hand is shorter. Our hugs seem awkward because of the height difference and neither of us our huge talkers. But every time I look into those periwinkle eyes, I know the only thing that can describe my feelings towards him is “love.”
I pulled away from the kiss and searched Elliot’s face for some type of reaction. For once he wasn’t talking, I took a look at my watch and held out my hand to him, “We’re suppose to be meeting back with the group soon, ready to go?” I questioned him normally. A small smile came to my face when he grabbed my hand. Together we left the loud monkeys and headed back to the group. I’m glad to say this was just the beginning of our relationship together.
Okay, so that's the end. I'd love suggestions and feedback and such ^^
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Posted: Fri May 07, 2010 3:15 pm
CRITIQUE (have you posted this before? I'm having a major case of deja vu! The piece just seems a little different and I'm sure I wrote a critique for the other...TheTwillightPrincess Nobody would get close to me. I wouldn’t let anyone touch me, that’s what I had foolishly told myself. I had promised that I’d keep myself distanced from everyone. But it was curiosity. (My pet hate is sentences that start with a conjunction... in some cases you can get away with breaking the rule, but I don't feel this is one of them.) That damn curiosity, which only goes to prove the point that curiosity did kill that cat. No, I didn’t die, nor am I completely unhappy but the thought that someone was able to get to my heart bugs me. (Rethink how you phrase it; at present I feel it sounds a little bland.) I suppose you want to hear the story from the beginning, well it started in my English class. I was talking to my… friends, I guess would be the closest term, I had told them, “So I’m number two, in class ranks, you know.” (You really want to develop a strong voice in your narrative. At the moment, your narrator sounds very unsure of themself. "my... friends" is very conversational. I don't feel this is really something you'd have in a narrative. Try something like "my classmates" or "I was talking to others in my class, not friends exactly, but kids I knew")Before they even had the chance to answer we were interrupted by some eavesdroppers, “Number two?” the female (If they're in your class, I'm sure you'd know their name. If they're not particularly important then referring to them as "one of the girls" or giving them some characteristics so the reader can visualise better would be more beneficial. Like "the smallest of the group twisted in her seat, her hands griping the back of her chair as her eyes lit with interest") asked me, “Really? I thought you’d be number one, do you know who it is?” The girls friend turned in ("at") her desk to look at me, obviously curious as well. Rather than wasting my breath on them I simply shrugged my shoulders. Seemingly forgetting about me, the girl turned back to her friend and said, “Wow, I’m really curious now… who do you suppose it is?” (You've used curious quite a few times in this passage. If you feel the need to repeat that they're all interested by this, try and use different words - a thesaurus helps - interest, intrigue, inquisitive, wonder etc)Rather than listen to their pointless drabbling (I don't really see how you can think it pointless, when you brought the topic up for discussion in the first place) I turned back to the paper on my desk and began to finish up the assignment that I was supposed to be doing before I had gotten on to the topic of number one and number two. Just as I finished the assignment the announcements rang throughout the class room. I removed myself from the desk and placed the lined paper into the basket labeled “Creative Writing.” As I exited the class, my friends on either side of me chatting it up ("chatting it up" - I've never heard it expressed that way before. I'm more familiar with "chatting", "gossiping", "talking each other's ears off".) questions came to me. Who exactly was number one? Who could have possibly beaten me? (How do you know you're number 2, if you don't know who number 1 is?) I thought of the smartest students in my grade, though the only one that came to mind was my friend. He was smart, though didn’t have the drive. Too lazy and I doubt he really cared much in the end. Besides, if he was number one he was sure to have said something. Why something as insignificant as a number bothered me, I couldn’t say… I kept trying to figure it out, there weren’t that many smart people in my year, it shouldn’t have been so hard to figure out. I was only brought back to reality by the touch of someone’s hands on my shoulders. I turned my head to see it was my senior friend, “You ought to watch where you’re going, Macario,” the red-head told me. Confused at what he meant I shrugged off his hands and attempted to keep going, only to realize I was nearly face to face with a wall. “Something wrong? You seem kind of… odd.” He asked me. “No, I was just thinking,” I told him boredly (I don't believe this word exists... try "wearily"), even if there was something wrong , I wouldn’t tell him. It’d be an opening for him to wiggle his way in. I spent the remainder of the day going through nearly every student in my grade that I could think of, not one of them seemed to have enough brain to surpass me. Maybe I was being too conceited… Well it was logical to assume that when I got home that night I paged through last year’s yearbook and tried to determine who it was that had beaten me. Had it simply been a fluke? A mess up of calculations? No matter how many times I paged through that yearbook I couldn’t think of anyone who could have beaten me and wasn’t too lazy to do so. Maybe it was a new student this year? That’d have to be it, there’s no other option, is there? Feeling defeated and (Revise sentence, how about: "feeling defeated, I threw my book, pulled off my shirt, then lay down in bed.") threw the book across the room, pulled off my shirt, and laid in bed. Damn you Mia, ("I thought" - clarify what sections are narrative, and what are actual thoughts.) why did you bring up number one? It didn’t bug me until you mentioned it… With a sigh and rolled over and pulled the blanket over my head. I awoke the next morning at my usual time of 6:03, an odd time but that is why I liked it. After going through my boring morning routine I was off to school. I got there a bit early and I decided to go to the cafeteria, that’s where Mia usually hung out in the morning. I had to ask her who the new students were this year. I didn’t bother to care (This doesn't make sense) since I wouldn’t be talking to them but she was sure to know. When I arrived Mia was angrily talking with that one kid in our grade ("That one kid" what? The only kid?). His name escaped me, all I knew about him was that he was quite annoying and openly gay. “You’re so mean!” I heard him whine in an annoyingly high voice. Doing my best to ignore him I quickly crossed over to the usually cheerful female. (I don't feel it's really natural to refer to someone, particularly someone you know, as a "female")“Who are the new students this year?” I got straight to the point; she was sitting on the table so we were about eye level. “There is that Amber Rich girl…” she replied, holding out one finger as she listed her off. “We have that foreign exchange student from Taiwan, Zoey…” Mia brought out another finger to symbolize two. She closed her eyes in thought before saying, “Oh yeah! There is that kid in our creative writing class, Elliot… why do you ask, Mark?” she concluded. I knew Zoey wasn’t in our grade, since they mentioned her at the beginning of the school year but Amber? Whoever she was, I had no idea. “No reason,” I told her lamely before leaving. As I exited the cafeteria I nearly bumped into a female coming around the corner from the opposite direction. She put out her hand, as if she meant to pat my shoulder, and apologized (apologised for what?) before heading over to where Mia was sitting. After a quick stop at my locker I would head off to my first class of the day, Western Civilization. After about forty-five minutes of listening to his robotic lecture about the test tomorrow I headed off to my second class. I was too busy thinking about how smart that Elliot kid might be, so I don’t really recall much of that class. Either way I knew everything the teacher was ranting about so I didn’t really need to pay attention. (If you can't recall what was taught, how do you know you know?) Creative Writing, my third class, I thought it would never come. I had to find out more about this Elliot boy. As I approached the classroom my heart started racing, the thought of knowing who it was must have caused it. Though that still didn’t explain why I felt so nervous. (Just trying to find out if some kid is smarter than you, evoked this reaction?)Today Mr. DeKemper decided we’d watch a movie in his class, though since it really didn’t have anything to do with anything we were currently doing in class he gave us the option of going into the back room to study. Naturally I went back there, along with my friends Ian and Thomas. Not to mention Mia and her friend Brin, along with an unfamiliar boy… Elliot? Once the door was closed behind us Mia instantly started talking, “Hey Mark! This is Elliot, the new student this year! I thought you might want to meet him, since you were asking about him this morning.” I noticed a slightly smug smile come across the boy’s face as he asked, “Oh, so you were asking about me?” The way he said it, it was as if he was teasing me. I felt my blood boil at the thought of this guy beating me out for number one. Though there would be only one way to truly find out. Ask him straight out. “Elliot, what is your class rank?” I questioned him simply, straddling the chair in the back left corner of the room, resting my arms over the back of it. The male followed in suit and took a seat on a small metal chair. “Oh? I’m number one~” he said, crossing his feminine left leg over his right, holding up a finger for one. Why did people insist on doing that? Did they think the person was so stupid they didn’t understand what “one” meant without a visual? Then it hit me. He did say one, right? I lost out to number one to the girly guy sitting across from me, a stupid smirk on his pale face. “You’re number one? Is that a joke?” my tall friend Thomas asked him, apparently not believing it either. Elliot shrugged and replied confidently, “What reason would I have to joke about this?” he brought his hands to the top of his knee, resting them there. I had to give it to him, he had a point? Why would he joke about it? No reason came to mind. (Because he knew how much it would rile an arrogant boy?)“So, Mr. One, what do you plan on doing?” my red-head friend asked the very question that had come to my mind. “I want to open up bubble tea shops around the world~” he replied happily, smiling over at me. Never before in my life had I wanted to hit a guy so hard. What the hell even is bubble tea? Why would he want to do something so… meaningless with his intelligence? “Bubble tea shops!!” Once again, before I could say what I had wanted to someone interjected. This time it was Mia, “I love bubble tea!! That is so cool!” After a short pause she added, “I wish there was a bubble tea shop in Whitewater…” If all he wanted to do is open bubble tea shops, why did he try so hard? He didn’t deserve the number one spot, I plan on doing something with my intelligence, what that is I’m not sure, but nevertheless. Though I was sick of looking at that guy’s stupid smile so I turned around the chair and began to pretend to help Thomas with his math. Before I knew it class was over and my belongings were still scattered across the counter thing. Getting up from my chair I began to gather everything, my friends seemingly forgot that I was there for they didn’t wait up. Brin and Mia left almost the moment the bell rang and I was left in the room with Elliot. He seemed to be waiting for something, turning around I asked, “Did you want something?” His eyes seemed to bore into me, I couldn’t keep quiet as he stared so intently at me. (Look at sentence structure - you started a sentence with "though" but the rest of the sentence didn't really make sense how it is phrased. Try getting rid of the "though". Who's Brin?)He stood and crossed over to me, “Nothing really,” he told me, his smile getting smugger as he came closer. Feeling a bit awkward I quickly finished gathering my stuff and tried to leave. But before I had the chance he had grabbed the front of my shirt and pulled me into a kiss. Correction, now there has never been a time I wanted to hit a guy so hard. Shoving him off I quickly left and to my dismay Ian was standing outside, he had waited for me. He must have seen the little scene that just took place in the back of DeKemper’s back room. Before I even had the chance to explain what just happened to Ian I heard Mia’s damn yelling from the hallway. (This doesn't make sense! Why would he kiss him? They don't know each other, he hasn't given him the impression he's interested, he's a kid in school so reputations and rumours would be a huge factor before anyone did something like that...)“Holy s**t Brin! Did you see that!! (question mark)” she pointed at us, to which Brin just shrugged. She must have missed it, unfortunately for now Mia yelled, (Sentence fragment again needs revising) louder if possible, “Number one and number two just kissed!” Trying to keep my composure I swiftly exited the backroom, dragging Ian with me. “What was that about?” the taller male asked me, his voice sounded a bit odd. A sort of emotion in it that I didn’t normally hear, I couldn’t place what emotion it was exactly. “I dunno…” I replied lamely with a shrug, trying to walk away but Ian wouldn’t just allow that. “Why did you kiss Elliot?” he questioned me, for some reason he sounded angry. Was something wrong? It was then I realized… I lost my first kiss to another male. (Why would he be angry about who you "lost" a kiss to?)“Because I thought that if I could get enough of his saliva I’d get smarter,” I replied sarcastically, rolling my eyes at him. Did he honestly think I’d just go around kissing random people? Ian looked a bit taken aback at my answer, did he actually believe me. “I didn’t kiss him, he kissed me,” I concluded, why did I need to explain myself to him? (This doesn't really sound like a conversation guys would have...)“It takes two people to kiss…” he replied slowly, I’ve never seen him so… like this before. What was on his mind? Did I want to know? He almost seemed… jealous? Deciding to play the part of a good friend-like-person I asked him, “Is something wrong? Don’t tell me you had your eyes on Elliot,” I attempted to tease him. Though why I was the one trying to make him feel better when I was the one who was just assaulted, I couldn’t figure out. (A good friend would want their friend to be happy)“Shut up…” he told me coldly. Now it was my turn to be taken aback. “I need to get to class, see you.” With that he was gone. Did he seriously want Elliot? Thoughts buzzed around in my mind as I quickly walked to my next class, which I only had a minute to get to. Did he really like guys? Maybe his whole homophobic thing was just a cover, an act. Either way, for the moment I had completely forgotten about the whole Elliot thing for the time being. I was sitting at the table at lunch with Thomas and Sung, we were talking about something, obviously it wasn’t important since I couldn’t remember it. Though my lunch was interrupted by the second to last person I wanted to see at the moment. Mia, and her friend Courtney. “What was that kiss like, Mark!” she instantly asked, quite loudly mind you, as she took a seat across from Sung. “Kiss?” Thomas instantly lifted his head from in between his knees and looked over at me. I shot Mia a look, warning her not to say any more. Though she didn’t get it… well even if she did I doubt she’d stop talking about it now. I wondered just how many people knew by now. “Yeah! Elliot and Mark shared a hot, passion-filled kiss in Barry’s back room,” (Barry? The teacher? I've never known high school students to refer to teachers by their first name.) she replied, distorting what had happened greatly. I wanted to bury my head in the tray of food in front of me. Why? “Elliot? That number one guy?” Thomas filled in anyone who was listening and wasn’t sure who Elliot was, just great. I took a side-glance at Sung, fearing what he was going to say. (Who's Sung?)“Holy ******** Mark you’re gaaaaay for Elliot! Mark, you player!!” Why did people insist on discussing my private matters so loudly? It seemed as if all the tables in the lunch room had instantly turned to face us. “First off, it was not a “hot passion-filled” kiss. Second, he forced himself on me. And third, you will not spread this to anyone else… Mia.” I concluded, standing. Words couldn’t describe how much I hated people right now. I grabbed my tray and after I dumped it , I exited the cafeteria. I spent the rest of the day in my own little world, ignoring my so-called friends as they questioned me about my orientation. I need to some time to think. What scared me most is that I didn’t completely hate the kiss… Not that I’d ever ever admit to that out loud. (From what I recall, it was a brief kiss before he pulled away. Could he really know enough to form an opinion?)Everything between then and the next day in English class seemed a blur. I wasn’t even supposed to be in class today, there was a field trip for “The Voice” but I didn’t feel like going. Though Ian, Thomas, and Mia, the main reasons for my not wanting to go on the trip. We were watching the movie again today in class and I went to the back room once again, alone though. Well I wasn’t alone for too long for, to my dismay, Elliot came back into the room. What did he want? “Here,” he told me, handing me an odd drink. I took it, eyeing him suspiciously. “It’s bubble tea, try it. It’s good…” he told me, and he almost seemed… normal. For some reason my heart started to beat faster as I took a sip of the drink. The brown drink had a nice taste, it was really good. Until a tapioca pearl came up through the straw. I didn’t expect something like that coming through the straw; I coughed as it entered my mouth and nearly sputtered the drink all over the male standing across from me. It was then he started laughing, not with me but at me. Once I finished choking on the drink I shot a glare at him. “Try another drink,” he said once he finished laughing at me, “This time try not to choke.” It was a good drink until I choked so I complied and took another drink, stopping before the tapioca pearl had entered my mouth. I handed him back the cup and he instantly took a drink from the very straw I had just choked on. “You know… the look on your face when you first sipped the bubble tea…” he started and I looked back over at him, bracing myself for another smart-a** comment, “It was really cute, makes me want to kiss you again~” Luckily I wasn’t drinking the tea at that time, for I would have done a spit-take ("spit-take?"). Did he come from someplace where it was acceptable to say this kind of stuff to another male? Did a kiss not mean the same the same thing? Either way I took a step back and changed the topic and since I wanted a question answered what better way to do that than to ask, “Where did you transfer from?” I asked, taking the spot in the corner, where I had sat yesterday. “Canada… why?” he replied simply, taking the spot next to me, where Ian had sat yesterday. As he sat down I pushed my chair back a bit, more into the corner. “Just curious…” I stated. Canada… not all that different from here. So why did he insist on being so… so… flirty with me? What is going through his mind… why is he so hard to read? (It doesn't seem that hard to read, he fancies another lad - your main character to be precise - and isn't subtle about it.)“Curiosity?” he questioned, that same smug smile on his face, as he pushed his chair a bit closer to mine, cornering me. I simply nodded in response and leaned away. “Hey Marico,” he said in a soft voice, leaning closer to me. I tried to look away but my eyes were drawn to his, I couldn’t break the gaze. He brought his hand up and used his thumb to wipe something away from the corner of my lip, butterflies in my stomach started fluttering about as I gazed into his lilac eyes. “You have some tea here,” he then licked his thumb. After about a moment of staring at him he spoke again, “Something interesting you’re looking at?” For some reason I felt my face grow warm at the realization I had been gazing into his eyes. What was wrong with me? Luckily I didn’t have to answer for the bell rang and I jumped up, eager to leave. I didn’t want to give him to abuse my lips again. And I was out of the room like that. The classes were boring, nothing worth noting. I skipped lunch that day because I wasn’t in the mood to be pestered by anyone. The moment I got home I collapsed on my bed, I was so glad it was Friday. I pulled off my shirt and before I knew it I was asleep. Though I didn’t get to sleep long since there was pounding on my door. I awoke with a start and rolled off my bed, “Come in…” I growled tiredly as I stood back up. Ian opened the door and entered my room, why was he here? Then I remembered, he had invited himself over, he had said we’d play risk or a game of some sort… “Were you sleeping?” he asked me, and I noticed that he shifted his gaze away from me. I thought for sure he wouldn’t have shown up due to our spat the previous day. I shrugged and replied, “I shouldn’t have been sleeping so early anyways…” We stood their "there" awkwardly for what seemed like hours, though in actuality it was probably only two minutes… which is still pretty long to just be standing there. Deciding that once again I’d assume the role of the good friend I asked him, in a completely serious voice, since teasing him just turned out bad last time, “Is something wrong?” Ian just shrugged before saying, “I’ve just been doing some thinking…” Something seemed off about him. He seemed sort of… defenseless. (do you mean "defensive"?) Maybe the fact he thought I was gay made him feel bit odd. After a shot pause of more awkwardness he continued. “What, exactly, do you think of Elliot?” What kind of question was that? I wondered, giving him a confused look. Though it made me wonder… what did I think of Elliot? “I don’t like him, if that’s what you’re implying…” I concluded, scratching the back of my head. For some reason I just couldn’t say that I hated him... “Why do you ask?” Once again in response he shrugged. He was beginning to piss me off, why wasn’t he talking? I decided to drop the friend act and said, “Hey, there’s nothing between me and Elliot. If you want him… I won’t judge you,” I teased him; at least this might evoke a reaction out of him and then maybe he’d leave. It was the wrong choice, a stupid idea on my part. If looks could kill, Ian would have killed me right there and then. “Idiot, are you sure you’re number two?” he asked me coldly, once again his reaction left me a bit taken aback. “You’re so oblivious. What would make you think I liked Elliot?” Once he said it out loud, I realized how stupid it probably seemed… though that only left one other option for him. He was jealous not of me but of Elliot. Damn, how did I get myself roped into this? Why is everyone suddenly gay? I asked myself mentally, looking away. Before I even had the chance to suggest we do something else I felt warmth under my chin… a hand. I looked up at my taller friend, and tried to move away but he kept his held firm. He lowered his head and crashed his lips against mine. Another thing I couldn’t figure out. Why did people insist on kissing me? I couldn’t have been that attractive. I forced myself away from him as he attempted to slide his tongue into my mouth, sloppily mind you. (This doesn't seem like a realistic scenario. The odds of so many guys in school suddenly just deciding they like each other and forcing themself on another guy... particularly a guy that's arrogant but plays at fake modesty... is incredibly unlikely.)“I don’t know what this is about, nor do I care to know but I suggest you leave…” I told him in the calmest tone I could muster; I pointed a shaking hand at the door and kept my gaze firmly on my feet. He was about to protest but I just pointed at the door again and said in a firm voice, “Out.” He listened and briskly walked out; I closed the door behind him and collapsed onto my bed. I grabbed my pillow and hugged it close to my chest, burying my face in it. Why was it I suddenly felt as if my life was falling apart? I never thought I’d feel this way. I acted as if nothing bothered me for so long I guess I actually believed it was true. It was that night I finally remembered that it’s okay to feel sad when something sad happens. I remembered that sometimes the only thing that can help you is a good cry. I honestly can’t tell you the last time I really cried before then but it felt good. Like a huge weight was lifted away. Once I finished crying I called myself and an idiot for crying over something as stupid as a person or a kiss or two. (Again, whilst crying is natural, guys don't generally want to admit to it. They'll rarely dwell on it for fear of seeming weak or pathetic, so they certainly wouldn't want to admit freely that "it's ok to cry" in this manner.)I pulled the blanket over my head, rolled over, and fell asleep. It was a dreamless night, and a long one. I awoke the next morning at two in the afternoon. After a took a long and relaxing shower I spent the better part of my day playing online games, because those didn’t require much thinking. I’m not sure how long I sat there and played but the next I glanced at the clock the digital numbers flashed “8:09.” Rubbing my sore eyes I stood up and stretched. As I opened the door I grabbed a paper from my bedside table and traveled downstairs in a search for "of" some food for my protesting stomach. In the kitchen I raided the cabinets and found a can of alphabet soup, which I was strangely in the mood for. I removed a bowl from the dishwasher and poured the contents into it, filled the can halfway with water, and poured that into the bowl as well. Putting it into the microwave I hit the quick cook button three times. (Does the reader really need to know how to prepare soup?) I then grabbed the paper that I had brought down and crossed into the dim living room. The walls brown with paneling and only one window, not to mention the lamp wasn’t very large or bright. “Hey mom,” I said loudly, announcing my presence as I dangled the paper in front of her face. “Could you sign this?” Before she had the chance to asked what it was I continued, “For our creative writing assignment we have to observe an animal and write in its point of view. We’re going on a trip to a zoo, and then we’ll be staying in some hotel over night. We leave tomorrow around three,” I concluded with my short description. My mother muttered a sure as she sloppily signed my paper. I heard the microwave go off as she handed me back my paper. I returned to the kitchen, grabbed a spoon from the drawer, and took the bowl from the microwave. After stirring it I took a bite only to find it was still cold. Though I didn’t feel like putting it back so I just retreated back into my room, sipping my cool soup. I then turned off my game and watched whatever was on while I finished the soup. Once I finished I set the bowl on my bedside table, on top of my paper, and crawled into bed. I was oddly tired despite my lack of activity that day. I probably should have studied for the exams coming up in two weeks… but I wasn’t in the mood. It was 10:46 when I woke up the following day; I awoke to the doorbell ringing. Who the hell was here so early? I thought, rolling out of bed. My parents were gone and I was home alone, meaning I had to be the one to get the door. I looked around for a shirt but when the bell rang again I gave up on that and hurried down the stairs. “Yeah?” I asked emotionlessly, opening the door. My heard skipped a beat, for some currently unknown reason, when I saw who it was at the door. “I came up with a new bubble tea recipe!” Elliot claimed excitedly, and loudly, holding up a cup with a large straw in it. His normally pale face was red from the cold, he must have walked here. Why would a bubble tea recipe so important to bring over? I thought, (He already knows that Elliot likes him so it wouldn't be a mystery anymore.) giving him an odd look. “You gonna let me in or let me freeze out here some more?” he asked me in a teasing tone. I felt I didn’t really have a choice; I pushed the door open a bit further and made a gesture telling him to come in. I closed the door behind him and turned around to have a drink thrusted into my hands, “Try it! I want to know your opinion~” I hesitantly brought the straw to my lips, this time the liquid was a cream-like color. I sucked the liquid slowly up the straw, still not too fond of the tapioca pearls. “It has a nice taste,” I told him blandly, actually it was probably one of the best drinks I had tasted. “What flavor is it?” I asked, as I handed him the back the drink. “Its coconut bubble tea…” he replied, taking a drink of the delicious beverage, taking up the black pearl. He handed it back to me and I took another drink almost immediately. It seemed like a pretty good system… I’d drink it until I came close to swallowing one of those black beads and then he’d take another drink to remove it. We continued like that, standing in front of my front door, sharing the drink until it was empty. “Glad you liked it~” he said slyly, giving me a slightly creepy wink in the process. He set the empty cup down and took a step closer to me. “So, you sleep with your shirt off?” he asked me, placing his hand on my chest. I took an awkward step back, removing his hand from my body. “You know, you have a good build, do you work out?” He took another step forward and cupped my chin in his hand. I tried to break away but couldn’t… or maybe I just didn’t want to. But for the second time I lost as to what I should do. His eyes, I just couldn’t seem to remove my eyes from his. Before I knew it his lips crashed against mine gently. "Crashed" doesn't really mesh with gently. It was a soft kiss; his tongue remained inside his own mouth. His lips felt smooth against mine. Not chapped or rough like Ian’s were… It was then I realized not only was I letting him kiss me but I was comparing his lips to those of my… friend? I pulled away as he started to allow his fingers travel along my chest, I was really regretting not just putting on a shirt. I was desperate for a change of topic; to break the awkward silence… not mention the fact my exposed chest has "was" beginning to feel horribly cold. “I need to pack for the English trip,” I stated loudly, “Shouldn’t you be going.” It wasn’t a question, more like a discrete order. Though whether he didn’t get it or just decided to ignore it I would never really know. “No, it’s okay… I have my stuff here,” he patted the shoulder strap on his shoulder, showing off his plain backpack, “I figured we could just go together~ I don’t mind helping you get your stuff together.” For some reason I just couldn’t bring myself to tell him to scram and not come back. Instead I just shrugged and ascended the stairs, Elliot on my heels. “Whoa, your room is really clean,” he commented as I opened my door. The first thing I did when I got into my room was grab the shirt I had worn yesterday and thrown it out over my torso. He took an uninvited seat on my bed while I rummaged through my dresser draws, grabbing the first pair of pants and shirt I found. I shoved them into a duffel bag, feeling Elliot’s eyes focused on me. I’d get things like toothbrush and such later. It's certainly an achievement to be able to write so much but there's still quite a lot of work that needs doing to make this a really good piece.
There's a lot of issues with your grammar throughout the piece. I've highlighted the odd ones where you've used the wrong words but you really need to have a thorough look through and amend them.
There are also some syntax issues - some of the sentences really need some heavy revision as some don't make much sense as they are.
You started off the piece stating that you are about to tell the story of what had happened, but then everything was then written in present tense.
Also, there are issues with your characters. Some characters you throw in there without an explanation as to who they are. Your main character isn't, at present, someone who a reader can identify with (unless your reader is an arrogant but fake individual) as he expects the whole world to shine on him, but then pretends like he's shocked when people worship him.
A lot of the scenarios don't seem realistic either. Would you just go up to a guy you liked (even if he made it obvious he couldn't stand you) and kiss him in school, where everyone would find out? You also need to think on actually how school boys would interact with each other (listen to guys at school or just generally), what they'd discuss, how they might approach experimenting with their sexuality etc. At present, it is painfully obvious that a girl has written this piece. Maybe have a look around for forums discussing sexuality and see how the guys talk about themselves and their life. Don't be afraid to ask questions, just be tactful. It is something that is natural to them, although others seem to think that it's a life choice; it's only a choice to not pretend.
You seem to have very little problems with spelling or punctuation, so with a lot of editing I'm sure you can get this piece up to a really good standard.
I hope you enjoy it! <3
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