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 Posted: Sat Jan 30, 2010 3:49 pm
i have a headache, what am I doin? am I drunk, oh please god let me be drunk no matter huw horrible i think wine ish... I dun knuw what's happening, i'm just typing whatever bullshit's comming to mind, i'm sorry if you guiz think i'm sum emo cutter or am depressed, i just gotta relieve some 2-year pent up emotion somewhere. SOMEWHERE. i'm sory, i'll go to bed rite after this, pwomise.
it's bout my mom and i, i always feel like i'm not a good child, that I can never be happy being myself because it's not acceptable or rigfht to the public eye and my moms always embarrassed of my lick of manners. i got adopted when i was a year n six munths old from a horrible adoption center. i have aspergers too, i dot get how she can think id grow up rite under these circumstineces. but lately i know tyhat she has conflicting views on me, The nice, helping young artsit shes proud of & the disgusting lazy b*****d that occupies the living ruum couch reading. ive decided she will always think of me as the latter and stopped caring for her praise.
so confused, i'm sorry mum, i'm sorry i can't be normal. i soryr i lie bout stuff too, things she doesn't knuw about and things i can't tell you guys either. my head hurts. hurts real badly, & I'm crying more. what's wrung with me? my mom's steps away and i'm in pain, shouldn't i want her comfrot? i'm soryr, im niot beint normal again.
she thinks i go on computer too much. i know i do, and that i don't spend timke with her like i should. imsorryimsorryimsorry...im sorry...but im being slefish too, for not going out to dinner with her, going out witr her in general, all because i hate being outside. lots of people wit judging eyes, its not 4 me... i hate it. still why cant i shove it off- for even a few hours- to make muym happy? cuz i'm a despicible lil skunk i guess. i wish i had more willpower to get over it & be willing 2 go, but i always no. nononononononno wit me I guess. why am i so wrong so ******** up with life. i jus dun see it beautiful. i'm soryr mommy.
my head hurts, i dun knuw if i remembe this when i wake up. but i feel betta a bit now that i told someone, rite? iwa's n ot as cheery as she appears to be she not friendly either. shes a rude, decieving, sulfish, spoiled lil' b*****d & thats how its gonna stay possibly... im soryr, i gong to sleup now.
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Posted: Sat Jan 30, 2010 3:51 pm
...Um....Iwa? o_O
Are you feeling alright?
Nevermind I'm probably overthinking it. xD
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Posted: Sat Jan 30, 2010 3:52 pm
Kats Kokeshi Doll ...Um....Iwa? o_O Are you feeling alright? D: Her typing is different than her usual literate words /brainhurt. D: Don't worry Iwa, I have the same problem.
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Posted: Sat Jan 30, 2010 3:56 pm
Tch.
And it seems that, yet again, I'm helpless to do anything.
What a worthless lazy arse I am.
Might I request a word before you touch any substance as lowly as wine? I wish to aid, but my will and abilities don't seem to agree with each other....
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Posted: Sat Jan 30, 2010 3:57 pm
D;
/clings
Iwa, dear, there's a problem with your post.
If she didn't like you (or if she thought you were some disgusting lazy b*****d), why would she want you to spend time with her? :3
Obviously, you feel guilty.
How about this - make a promise to yourself that the next time your mom wants you to do something with her, you'll do it. Even if it's just this once.
Or, instead, think of something YOU would like to do with your mom and ask her to do it with you.
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Posted: Sat Jan 30, 2010 4:01 pm
There's....not much to say to this other than... ~hugs~
=/
I think cleo may be the most on the money here.
Edit: Do not let being adopted be one of your concerns. I've seen people go through the adoption process (my own little sister is adopted), it takes a lot of work and a lot of time. No one would go through that just for a child to hate. I'm sure she loves you Iwa, even if you don't get along perfectly.
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Nespin Fernagon Vice Captain
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Posted: Sat Jan 30, 2010 4:02 pm
You shouldn't have to leave the house just to spend time with your mom... Ask her to hang out with you inside? Play a game or watch a movie together or something? =3
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Posted: Sat Jan 30, 2010 4:10 pm
Moved this into the SD. This...didn't feel right to leave in the main forum somehow, and is obviously a serious enough emotional issue to be a Serious Discussion.
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Nespin Fernagon Vice Captain
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Posted: Sat Jan 30, 2010 4:17 pm
Nespin Fernagon Moved this into the SD. This...didn't feel right to leave in the main forum somehow, and is obviously a serious enough emotional issue to be a Serious Discussion. It'll probably cause difficulty when she tries to find it later.
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Posted: Sat Jan 30, 2010 4:20 pm
Divine_Malevolence Nespin Fernagon Moved this into the SD. This...didn't feel right to leave in the main forum somehow, and is obviously a serious enough emotional issue to be a Serious Discussion. It'll probably cause difficulty when she tries to find it later. Point. I'll send a PM saying it was moved.
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Nespin Fernagon Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Jan 31, 2010 3:48 pm
Your an Aspie too!? I was beginning to think I was the only ******** on this entire site with the Syndrome!
scream
I'm having a hard time understanding why your saying your mom is having a problem with you.
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Posted: Sun Jan 31, 2010 4:13 pm
Pirate Captain Sushi Your an Aspie too!? I was beginning to think I was the only ******** on this entire site with the Syndrome!
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I'm having a hard time understanding why your saying your mom is having a problem with you. I've aspergers too >.>;;
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Posted: Sat Feb 06, 2010 9:45 pm
I have the exact same proplem!!! I'm just glad I'm not alone and your not either. And I think your skunk is really cute!!! that might not be a good thing to say right now but its the truth. I really hope you feel better in the morning!
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Posted: Sun Feb 07, 2010 8:17 am
Valheita Pirate Captain Sushi Your an Aspie too!? I was beginning to think I was the only ******** on this entire site with the Syndrome!
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I'm having a hard time understanding why your saying your mom is having a problem with you. I've aspergers too >.>;; I might have it. It's suspected. But not tested for for god knows what reason.
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