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"Right here?" He was sitting on a dry branch, hidden in the messy pine. Jumping down, his face was akin to a child who just got his hand stuck in the cookie jar. It was only natural after all, he'd kind of been a bit found out with Tanz and the whole...thing.

A kick pushed some slush into a pile. "...I take it we have a bit to talk about?" He wiggled his foot, freeing it of clinging dirty snow. "If you want to talk that is."

The fact she was willing to talk made Castor approach, if a bit defensively. He chose to sit himself on the bench. Hand crossed, expression pensive.

"No." He leaned back, yet he was anything but relaxed. His motions were tight and controlled. He was tense. "I didn't ******** her. But slept with, as in share the same bed? Yes. I will admit that." He held up a hand to keep her silent. "But I didn't have sex with her. You want to know what happened? We got into a battle. She kissed me. And I will admit, I enjoyed it." He should stop admitting things. "But I stopped her before things escalated. We instead, went out and got some beer. Got plastered. Partied. Passed out. But no where. No where. Did we do anything remotely sexual. No ********. No motor boating. No BJs. Nothing. Could I have? Damn right I could have. Did I want to? What guy wouldn't?"
He stood. "But I Didn't. Why? Because I kind of hand someone else on my mind. I am not that type of guy Linarite."

He was that kind of guy, at least somewhat.

"Jesus!" he jumped as she hit the bench. She was pissed at him, and he-
He couldn't blame her. He'd ******** up. Tanz was pissed with him, (she'd made that clear), and god, he just ******** up.

"Listen, Linarite, I- wait. Orange. Haired. b***h?" Eye widened.
"Are you kidding me?" She was not kidding, did he fail to see her scowl? "********. ******** hell. You ******** cocks on a cracker." that was a new curse. "Lina. I made a deal with that b***h. She could ******** me up for ten minutes, no killing, and in exchange she'd keep silent about..us." His tone showed there was more to the story. "She broke her end of the deal. At ten minutes, she tried to kill me. Steal my starseed. I was saved by Astraea, it was then that I became a super senshi."

"She swore you would come to no harm. ********!" he punched a tree.
he managed to crack the bark. "She hurt you Lina? How? Because that b***h just signed up to die. Painfully. Jesus, the last thing I wanted was for you to get hurt." He voice was weakening. "That was what I was trying to prevent." He moved close, and before she knew it, his hand was cupping her face.

"I never wanted to hurt you. I swear." He touched her hair. "And your hair is beautiful. I really don't see what happened to it."

He watched her pull away. He watched as her moments showed her sadness.

This was not how Castor had intended to make her feel. "I doubt you are ever vulnerable. Maybe without a magic hammer, but not some weak thing." He narrowed the space between them. "If anything, we can hate Nealite together?" He grabbed her hand and raised it to his lips. "And please don't thank me. She still hurt you. Because of me. For that alone I owe you an apology." After kissing her hand, Castor took a step back, arms at his sides.

"Linarite..you...you deserve better." He crossed his arms. "I...I've done some shitty things. God. I really have. And the funnest part was," his head shook, "I did them to try an convince myself what I felt for you wasn't real. But..I only managed to prove them to be deeper then I thought."

Deep breath. "Do you want to know what I did?" He licked his lips. "Because..I want to be...honest with you."

Standing in front of her like a bored professor, Castor held up one finger.
"Tanz. Tanzanite. She was the first. You already know of my...actions with her." He had been tempted to say 'adventures', but that usually had some less then innocent meanings behind it.

The second finger was held up.
"Europa. I kissed. She hates my guts. So now it's basically me messing with her. No love, just hate." He still felt a little bad he'd made her cry, but, he wasn't that mean. Really.

Third finger.
"Flora. Kissed as well. Found she's...kind of with a friend of mine. Ended up more awkward then anything. We're just friends. And not the kind with benefits."

Fourth finger.
"Val. Valleriite. Another of your co-workers." He took a deep breath. "Started very similar as it did with Tanz. Fighting. She ended up falling into some freezing water. I," hand fidget, "I could just let her freeze to death or drown! So, I pulled her out." He stopped his hand fidgeting. "She teased me. I played into it. Kissed her. Nothing father then that. We stopped. A left. Didn't even party like I did with Tanz."

His hand held up one more. both to silence Lina as he wasn't finished, and one girl remained.
"And finally, my worst," Achievement? Amorous attempt? "Experience yet. I met a Crystal girl." You could see where this was going. "She wanted to get back at her boyfriend with the bad Hillworth boy. We went back to her place and, yes, we ********." He wasn't smiling. "And no, I don't remember her name. Only that she was a b***h and a pathetic ********. Point is."

He looked apologetic. "Point is I tried to prove that I just lusted after you. That was all. And you know what?" He gave a bitter smirk. "I only proved it wasn't lust but..." Could he say it? "...It was deeper then that."

He couldn't say it. Not yet.

His gaze was at his feet. Castor really couldn't stand to look her in the eyes. It was just that type of moment. The idea all negaverse girls were off limits didn't bother him, but the notation he'd go after senshi in anything but careless jest? He was a flirt, he never hid that fact. But he wasn't a slut. At least, he didn't think he was.

But god, he felt bad. For the first time in a long, long while, he felt bad and wanted to change. What the hell was wrong with him? Not to mention how he-

"Virgin?" Oh, wow, that didn't come out sounding shocked as in you assumed she wasn't. Then the tears. God, he just kept hurting her didn't he? "Jesus...You think she was better then you? Is that it? You think she made me feel the way you do?" Castor, the tiny voice of self control whispered, shut up, you are making things worse.
"Hell no. She was a whore. A stupid, idiotic, selfish, average looking whore." He stepped closer to Linarite, even as logic told him it wasn't smart. "You want to know the sick truth of it all? You," Self control was screaming shut up at this point.

"I think I am in love with you." All those voices in the back of his dead went silent. All that remained was Castor. "because you're not like them. You're smart, beautiful, powerful, you..." He smiled weakly, "You're the girl who stole my heart and I didn't even ******** know it until now." A small laugh. "God. I'm an idiot. I didn't want to feel like this. But you're so," Cute? Smart? Pretty?
"Special. You managed to make me feel with out even trying."

Unlike Linarite, Castor let himself be ruled by his heart. More often then not. It was probably what got him into so much trouble in the past, plus from the looks of things, the future as well. The future for them looked like it was at it's end. At best, murky. Overall, he had no clue. All he was concerned with was here, and now.

"I know its impossible." He hated that fact. His voice made this clear. "But you what else should be impossible? Surviving a three story jump. Causing hail to fall from the sky at a whim. A hammer appearing at the owner's will. From a scientific standpoint, these should be impossible, but they still happen." He closed the distance between them. "I want to believe we can have...something. Something impossible. What we feel...impossible or not, we still feel don't we? We still," he couldn't say the L word yet, "care don't we? We shouldn't, but we do. Doesn't that say something?"

He lift a hand and placed it on his chest. On where his starseed rested under his skin. "I don't care where I go, so long as I get to go there with you. I want to prove that what they say is impossible is possible." A smile. "We're human. Senshi. Negaverse. We're still human. We can still..." No L word. "Care. Can't we?"