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Darkened Biohazard Captain
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 Posted: Mon Nov 30, 2009 8:07 pm
this is where u tell all ur problems to us. here is an example of my problem
Sometimes, I am emotionally dead inside. That is the thing about me that pushes girls away. I have thought of suicide.Then think 2 myself, "i dont wanna die alone, so ill try to have some feeling in me."
And thats my story...
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Posted: Mon Nov 30, 2009 8:25 pm
well lately i started 2 think im a loner but im not i have lots of friends especially girls but ive been in junior high for almost a yr n a half n havnt got a gf yet. idk y im a cool guy 2 be arond im funny,athletic,and outgoing. wut about me really drives girls away about me is my height which shouldnt matter 2 me. seriously its girls that luv but embarrassed 2 be seen w/me bcuz im 5'0" in the 7th gr. wuts the problem. n wut girls dont understand is it really hurts 2 be judged by my height n not my character
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Posted: Mon Dec 07, 2009 7:36 pm
i was a fat kid made fun of by all no real friends but Joe. (may he rest in peace) first my grandmother past from cancer i don't know what kind. soon my father met a women at work and hit it off the started to date for a month then got married a few years latter she died of cancer. i walked in and seen may day sitting at the table the bed room door open my mother was gone dead and i could not cry. i know some people say a real man don't cry my father told me what happened and started to cry though i wanted to no tears came out then i was about 14 or 15 maybe 16. im know 18 and i found out my dad my have cancer and to this day i still cant cry a tear here a tear there but nothing i have not truly cried since i was about 13.
high school
as before i told of my friend Joe my first best friend he was shoot in the head he was with a few friends and family he was messing with a loaded gun he put it to his head not knowing it was loaded and fired killing him self when i heard i lost one of my best friends that hurt my bad my and some of his other friends met in a class gave him peace and wrote letters to his mom and brother i learned out of all his friends i knew him the since 3th grade making me his oldest friend in the school. in high school like many elametry school friends we grew apart and seen less of each other.
now
i live with the pain of the past and i know i will have more like everyone will. its harder to live with pain when you don't know how to let it out or worse you know how but you don't have the power. i cant cry though emotions even if i want to sometime i want to stab myself with a knife just to cry because i know that's the only i can cry physical pain.
the worst part of pain is when your strongest fear comes true and no matter who every one have a fear many intact. my biggest fear is losing not a game but those i love friends and family i had to endure that three times already but i was not super close with those people. i fear losing the one i love most my father if i lost him i would be lost having no idea what to do or how to do anythin
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Posted: Mon Dec 07, 2009 8:27 pm
I am a loner through and through at heart and i have had thoughts of suicide in the past and i am made fun of for my weight as well and understand how all of you feal but i have found that every person has a gift and we all have that gift deep in our hearts for example my gift is that i have a nack for wanting to help people and have helped alot of people and i want to say to you all if you ever need a person to just listen or give you advice im here for you just pm or talk to me in the forum it doesnt matter ill listen xd
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Posted: Tue Dec 08, 2009 6:29 pm
Well there is a couple stuff wrong with me and i want it to leave but i cant get it out of me. like, i try to be happy from something that was bad and im all happy and then something goes bad again and then im sad. i lost alot of my friends. like my ex best friend shes 17 now and she told me i was depressing. well im not as old as she is and she cant expect me to do what she does. so i lost her as a friend. and there is alot more friends i lost but its long stories. my step dad is a mexican b*****d. he never appriatiates me (sorry i no i spelled it wrong). he only loves his kid only. like my mom was fixing my room ceiling and she was makin it even and he puts more cocking and makes it all bumpy and unsmooth. wtf my mom did all that work for nothing. then he fixes his kids room. and his ceiling is all nice and smooth. my room looks like s**t.(sorry for my speaking). maybe a week or 2 ago my brother or his kid was playing with a chain that was my moms and i was goin after him to get it and the stupid guy squeezes my hands so i cant get it and i slapped his face and then he slapped mine. he is not suppose to do that. my mother said so and he should no better. everyday my lil bro torchers our dog and he lets him. because in mexico they dont believe in having pets. he calls are dog an animal. like its some kind of stray. the thing is only 3 months. poor guy. today my brother was choking the dog and i took him away and his stupid father tripped me. but i didnt fall. i was gonna hit him and he took a pillow and hit me in my face. i started walking away and i saw my brothers shoe and i threw it at him but i missed and it hit the wall. but what im mostly trying to say is that i really want to be happy and stop being down. remember i get happy and then i get sad again. so i should be talked to all the time like therapy. please respond!!
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Posted: Tue Dec 08, 2009 8:02 pm
Mystery Loner this is where u tell all ur problems to us. here is an example of my problem Sometimes, I am emotionally dead inside. That is the thing about me that pushes girls away. I have thought of suicide.Then think 2 myself, "i dont wanna die alone, so ill try to have some feeling in me." And thats my story...[/qoute/] latetly my mom has been workin me, "William over here, come here, get that for me,be quiet, but all i want is peace i hav a 7 yr old sis n an 11 month old brother i do everything in the world for both of em i iron their clothes, clean their messes, change diapers, wash clothes, wash dishes, make baby bottles all i need is a break. if anyone feels my pain give me feed bac on wut 2 do. GRACE.LOVE.PEACE
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Posted: Sat Dec 19, 2009 2:53 pm
my story is very long... and it hate to bring it up.. My name is Carolyn (yes, it's a stupid name, I know. I'd apreciate it if you called me "Cj"). And I'm only 14. When I was a year old my parents divorced. My brother and I live with our mom and visit my dad sometimes, but I hate him and he is abusive. He was married until I was ten to my step-mother. My sister (half-sister, mind you) was born when I was three. From there on, I was the middle child. I was always verbally abused in elementary going into seventh grade, that was when almost everyone stopped. I was fat, ugly, stupid, and the only child with a single mother. Since I am the middle child, I usually feel alone (which brings me to the story of the time I was in my room, crying, and no one noticed). I've had to cope with some pretty bad things. They haven't happened to me, just to friends.. and no, I won't bring them up. I believe I have depression, mostly because I have mood-swings. I have been labelled a lesbian and emo for the fact that I rarely date and I sit alone and am very shy. But, fyi, I am straight and I am emo, but no cuts. I have considered running away, but never suicide. I want to write/sing/act some day.. but that's just a dream.. Besides what has happened to me, I am incredibly sweet and I will do almost anything to get someone to feel better and to feel like there is hope, because that's how my mother raised me. I will never judge a person unless they judge me. (oh, and I'm a wiccan, or a witch to those who don't know.)
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Posted: Sat Dec 19, 2009 9:53 pm
everyones storys r so bad
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A Lock Without A Key Crew
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Posted: Tue Dec 29, 2009 10:47 pm
:/ i cant express my self. idk y, i geuss i feel that i might emotionaly hurt my friends if they knew how i felt.
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Posted: Tue Feb 02, 2010 6:45 pm
Well... The reasons I started cutting... (im not going into detail)
1. A few years ago, my best friend committed suicide (Cut himself)
2. A few months after that, my other best friend was stabbed and killed
3. I was told I was useless countless times, by everyone, even my family
5. I was always told to go cut myself, no one loves me, im ugly and I should die, as a child
6. Pushed everyone away
7. Jan 12/10 another friend of mine was hit by an 18-wheeler (truck) while walking to school
8. Yesterday (Feb 1/10), 2 more students at my school were killed, slid off the road, killed instantly.
Thats the short short short version...
I know hate life... A lot.... After steve died, when I thought life couldnt get any worse.. the 2 other boys die...
Yup.. Life gets better and better...
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Darkened Biohazard Captain
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Posted: Mon Mar 29, 2010 7:06 pm
Wow... these are all very sad stories. I would first wish to offer my sympathy to everyone. I thought my life was bad. It hurts a lot to lose the people you love. But i can promise one thing. Life does get better. So just hang in there everyone. Be strong.
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Posted: Mon Apr 12, 2010 5:38 pm
Im sorry, but that last line, life gets better, is such a lie did you read mine? well.. 2 more kids I know have just been killed Oh yes, life gets better do make me laugh I wish it did, I really do Mystery Loner Wow... these are all very sad stories. I would first wish to offer my sympathy to everyone. I thought my life was bad. It hurts a lot to lose the people you love. But i can promise one thing. Life does get better. So just hang in there everyone. Be strong.
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Posted: Wed Apr 14, 2010 2:33 pm
II Distant Lullaby II Im sorry, but that last line, life gets better, is such a lie did you read mine? well.. 2 more kids I know have just been killed Oh yes, life gets better do make me laugh I wish it did, I really do Mystery Loner Wow... these are all very sad stories. I would first wish to offer my sympathy to everyone. I thought my life was bad. It hurts a lot to lose the people you love. But i can promise one thing. Life does get better. So just hang in there everyone. Be strong. it can. Trust me. From the amount of times I've wanted to run away, I've learned that it does. Life has it's ups and downs, but, we gotta just learn to deal with both.
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Posted: Sun May 02, 2010 8:53 am
Uta Sumire my story is very long... and it hate to bring it up.. My name is Carolyn (yes, it's a stupid name, I know. I'd apreciate it if you called me "Cj"). And I'm only 14. When I was a year old my parents divorced. My brother and I live with our mom and visit my dad sometimes, but I hate him and he is abusive. He was married until I was ten to my step-mother. My sister (half-sister, mind you) was born when I was three. From there on, I was the middle child. I was always verbally abused in elementary going into seventh grade, that was when almost everyone stopped. I was fat, ugly, stupid, and the only child with a single mother. Since I am the middle child, I usually feel alone (which brings me to the story of the time I was in my room, crying, and no one noticed). I've had to cope with some pretty bad things. They haven't happened to me, just to friends.. and no, I won't bring them up. I believe I have depression, mostly because I have mood-swings. I have been labelled a lesbian and emo for the fact that I rarely date and I sit alone and am very shy. But, fyi, I am straight and I am emo, but no cuts. I have considered running away, but never suicide. I want to write/sing/act some day.. but that's just a dream.. Besides what has happened to me, I am incredibly sweet and I will do almost anything to get someone to feel better and to feel like there is hope, because that's how my mother raised me. I will never judge a person unless they judge me. (oh, and I'm a wiccan, or a witch to those who don't know.) my parents were never divorced but everything under that part is exactly like me. except im 13, instead of considering run away i kind of thought about the other thing and im atheist not wiccan.
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