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Over the summer, my father and stepmother decided to get a divorce. They aren't divorced yet, but they probably will be sometime soon. Apparently they had been having problems for a whole year prior to the decision, so it wasn't an unwarranted decision. My dad just wasn't happy with Barb, my stepmom, anymore, I guess. Anyway, that news alone broke my heart because I love Barb to death and she always does whatever she can to help me out when I'm in a bind, or even just lend an ear when I need someone to talk to. She's just a wonderful person, and I love her very much. However, this is only the beginning of the story.
This past Sunday, my dad messaged me on AIM and told me that he wanted to see me sometime this week in person to talk to me about something really important. Naturally, I couldn't refuse. So today, he comes to pick me up and we drive around town for a while so he can tell me what he wants to say. I was in complete and utter shock when he told me that he had fallen in love again. Now, not only is he not officially divorced from Barb yet, but this woman he has fallen in love with is only five years older than I am. I'm seventeen; she's twenty-two. My dad is forty. That in and of itself pisses me off a bit and makes me feel somewhat awkward. My dad claims that this woman makes him feel happy, something that Barb apparently couldn't do, and I'm happy that he's found someone to relate to and be happy with. But still... he and Barb aren't even divorced yet! I was thinking to myself "how could he do such a thing?" and he even admitted that he feels like an a*****e for being happy when Barb clearly isn't by this new development, but there's nothing he can do about what he feels for this woman. The entire time he was talking to me in the car, I was trying so hard not to cry... not only because of how upset this unexpected news made me, but also the fact that I am meeting this woman this Sunday when I have my weekly visit with my dad. I wanted to cry because I knew that I might not like this woman right away, if ever, and I didn't want to think about how my dad would feel if he found out I didn't approve of his relationship with her.
According to him, she's a nice girl, and again, I'm happy that he's found someone who can truly make him happy. I just... think it's way too soon for him to be in another relationship right now, only five months after he and Barb decided they should get a divorce. I don't know... maybe I'm just biased. I can't imagine how hurt Barb must feel by all of this, but I can wager it is ten-thousand times more hurt than I feel. Nonetheless, I'm going to try getting along with Casey, as hard as it might be. I know my dad wants me to approve of her, and he even told me that Casey is nervous as hell to meet me because she's afraid I won't like her. But if I don't, I don't. There's nothing I can do to change that, if that's how I ultimately view her in the end.
I just really... really hope I can relate to her and like her as much as my dad thinks I'll be able to. If I don't... I don't want to think about how hurt he'll be...
Anyway, that's the end of my personal, depressing story for the day... Got a comment, leave it... I don't care either way... Comment or not, it doesn't matter to me. This was just a way for me to vent, nothing more... I'm not looking for advice... just sympathy, I guess...
Over the summer, my father and stepmother decided to get a divorce. They aren't divorced yet, but they probably will be sometime soon. Apparently they had been having problems for a whole year prior to the decision, so it wasn't an unwarranted decision. My dad just wasn't happy with Barb, my stepmom, anymore, I guess. Anyway, that news alone broke my heart because I love Barb to death and she always does whatever she can to help me out when I'm in a bind, or even just lend an ear when I need someone to talk to. She's just a wonderful person, and I love her very much. However, this is only the beginning of the story.
This past Sunday, my dad messaged me on AIM and told me that he wanted to see me sometime this week in person to talk to me about something really important. Naturally, I couldn't refuse. So today, he comes to pick me up and we drive around town for a while so he can tell me what he wants to say. I was in complete and utter shock when he told me that he had fallen in love again. Now, not only is he not officially divorced from Barb yet, but this woman he has fallen in love with is only five years older than I am. I'm seventeen; she's twenty-two. My dad is forty. That in and of itself pisses me off a bit and makes me feel somewhat awkward. My dad claims that this woman makes him feel happy, something that Barb apparently couldn't do, and I'm happy that he's found someone to relate to and be happy with. But still... he and Barb aren't even divorced yet! I was thinking to myself "how could he do such a thing?" and he even admitted that he feels like an a*****e for being happy when Barb clearly isn't by this new development, but there's nothing he can do about what he feels for this woman. The entire time he was talking to me in the car, I was trying so hard not to cry... not only because of how upset this unexpected news made me, but also the fact that I am meeting this woman this Sunday when I have my weekly visit with my dad. I wanted to cry because I knew that I might not like this woman right away, if ever, and I didn't want to think about how my dad would feel if he found out I didn't approve of his relationship with her.
According to him, she's a nice girl, and again, I'm happy that he's found someone who can truly make him happy. I just... think it's way too soon for him to be in another relationship right now, only five months after he and Barb decided they should get a divorce. I don't know... maybe I'm just biased. I can't imagine how hurt Barb must feel by all of this, but I can wager it is ten-thousand times more hurt than I feel. Nonetheless, I'm going to try getting along with Casey, as hard as it might be. I know my dad wants me to approve of her, and he even told me that Casey is nervous as hell to meet me because she's afraid I won't like her. But if I don't, I don't. There's nothing I can do to change that, if that's how I ultimately view her in the end.
I just really... really hope I can relate to her and like her as much as my dad thinks I'll be able to. If I don't... I don't want to think about how hurt he'll be...
Anyway, that's the end of my personal, depressing story for the day... Got a comment, leave it... I don't care either way... Comment or not, it doesn't matter to me. This was just a way for me to vent, nothing more... I'm not looking for advice... just sympathy, I guess...
