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Posted: Tue Nov 10, 2009 1:58 am
In the mornings, the air was crisp and cold. When you took it in, it chilled you, and Jude needed that kind of air. Lately, he felt on fire. Corny, outlandish, but there was no other way to describe this ceaseless nagging that gave him the sensation of being so anxious, so trapped. He couldn't bring himself to leave like he'd always done in the past. When had he become so devote to a school? The environment had to be to blame somehow. Staying at Barren Pines felt like pounding your fist against a puzzle piece that didn't fit with the rest of the picture just for the sake of completing it. The end result was some makeshift version of what it was supposed to be. The job was done, technically, but only technically.
If his life was a puzzle, then his mind was a door at the very school that had been taking its fist to that accursed misfit piece. If it made him a broken record to keep pondering the same things over and over, so be it; he couldn't help but wonder why had he decided to come here when the whole point of leaving his home was to strike out and explore. Why did he care so much about free food and board? What was going on with him? With the school? He was so sure all the answers were behind that metaphorical door--and just maybe the literal ones--but no matter how hard he tried, he just couldn't get either of damn things open to save his life. (No deliberate pun intended.)
So many questions, no answers at all. Jude was a born philosopher, here to wander and wonder. He'd always been happy with that. So why not know? Life had more unknowns in stock for him, and planned to ship him one during his daily run. This route he had taken before, like most of them, but it was an uncommon one for him. Thus, he didn't know if the girl who caught his eye in passing always took this way or if she, too, was running with the wind this time, so to speak. What he did know was she didn't turn his head simply because she was a girl and he was a boy. There was more to it than that.
They ran right past each other, but he just couldn't keep going for long. He had to stop, turn around, get her attention somehow. "Hey!"
Smooth, Jude. But it would serve it's purpose, if nothing else; he had no idea what his follow-up would be. For someone who appeared so outwardly aloof from close to everyone (and certainly his actions supported these assumptions about him), he felt such strong connections with people he knew well. Except, he didn't know her well.
Did he?
"Hey, I..."
I have this urge to smack you upside the head like I have never felt toward any woman before. The mere sight of you infuriates me.
And that, boys and girls, is why it's best to not talk about your feelings.
"Do I know you?" Stupid question. This was Barren Pines. Of course he knew her. "I mean, have we... hung out before? Or something?"
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Posted: Tue Nov 10, 2009 7:13 pm
Hero Barrett looked Jude Lawson straight in the eye, which just aggravated the I want to smack you upside the head like never before.
She had stopped running and was now jogging on the spot; when it became obvious that the blue-haired boy was not simply going to leave it at "hi!" she turned around and started stretching pointedly against a tree, as though telling him that just because he was making her be stationary didn't mean she wasn't going to get the most out of the moment. "Mr. Lawson," she said. "I'm Hero Barrett. We go to the same school. We live in the same building. I see you running most mornings. If you're experiencing any deja-vu, it may be because we attend the same institution, you know."
Hero always talked as though she were a thesaurus or a Senator or a senator who liked the thesaurus. However, when she stretched one long leg up behind her back and held it there, balancing on one foot and looking at Jude with her deep tomato-coloured eyes, she said: "But I won't scourge you for the feeling."
After a few moments she said, grudgingly: "Your running style isn't bad, but you should be doing something about your heartrate right now. Press-ups work."
If Jude had been able to see inside Hero's heart, he would have heard:
The mere sight of you infuriates me. Why do I want to slap you upside the head and talk about illegalities?
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Posted: Tue Nov 10, 2009 8:13 pm
Do something about his heart rate, she said! Jude hadn't the slightest why he felt so frustrated with her for something that normally wouldn't have bothered him at all. It was more suited to his character to pay more attention to the compliment, promptly thank her for that and the advice, and take the latter into consideration.
But he didn't.
"If my heart is beating too fast, it's just because I'm overcome by your unrelenting charm." Who did this girl think she was? Didn't she know he was at that "institution" for track? He knew how to watch his own heart, and he didn't need some goody goody Ms. Perfect telling him how to--
--Okay, woah.
Jude shook his head rapidly. It was a cliche move to make, but it worked. Confusion still abound, but his thoughts felt more clear now. Maybe.
What was he doing talking to a lady this way?
"I'm sorry," he said with sincere regret, discouraged by his own behavior, not hers. "That was wrong of me. --Won't scourge me, hm?" So she felt it, too. That made him feel less crazy, at least. "Maybe you're right."
Admitting that made Jude feel like someone kicked him in the junk, but he jogged on over to her anyway, determined to make this a duo run from that point on. "Well, Ms. Barrett, it's not safe for pretty things like yourself to run alone in the morning, so I'll join you."
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Posted: Wed Nov 11, 2009 9:33 pm
"Miss," said Hero curtly. "I'm no second-wave feminist, I'm Miss Barrett. And this may just be me, but I have this hunch you're calling me Ms out of some -- misplaced sense of trying to make a joke. So you can just call me Hero, you know, Mr. Lawson, and I'll think about whether or not I'm going to call you 'Jude.'"
The look on her face was that of somebody who had previously eaten a vinegar sandwich. "But that notwithstanding," she said, "let's go."
And they did.
Their feet beat a rhythmic tattoo on the pavement as they ran, keeping pace, though Hero seemed to keep pace in a way that said I am longsufferingly keeping your pace -- until Jude went a little faster, prompting her, prompting both of them, and they started to speed up in a way that only said 'embarrassing mantosterone competition.'
"You should watch out for yourself," she said evenly, only sounding a little out of breath as they jogged -- "if you're so worried about pretty things out alone."
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Posted: Wed Nov 11, 2009 10:36 pm
"No, Miss Barrett, you've misunderstood me," Jude assured her with a boyish smile. He was trying so hard to be his usual, gentlemanly self for the ladies, but again it felt like some other personality was taking him over. Not someone who wasn't him, just some dormant side of him. Where had it come from? "I only do so to be polite to a lady, and, for the record, I much prefer Lawson over Jude."
That was another thing that got him. Normally, he'd be grateful someone finally addressed him by his preferred title, but when she did it he didn't feel that way. He felt annoyed. Like he was being talked down to and it was getting under his skin more than usual. "Alright then."
Every time she sped up, so did he. Sometimes it was intentional, sometimes it was out of some... racers instinct. Or whatever.
"The word for men is handsome, Ms. Barrett."
Was it just him, or had they reached a speed that was definitely not "jogging"?
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Posted: Thu Nov 12, 2009 1:51 am
The pace now was "outright running." Hero had set her mouth in a determined line: her face did a good 'determined' and also did an excellent 'grim'. She was matching Jude pace for pace, and then Jude matched her pace for pace, and thusly they were only a few steps off the inevitable 'sprint'.
"Some men, Mr. Lawson," she said, only slightly panting now, both of them rounding the corner and shooting off down the street. There were a few houses here; otherwise the campus was set in the city outskirts. "I'm handsome. You could be identified as -- pretty."
This wasn't quite true, except for the fact that Jude did have beautiful eyes -- long-lashed, vibrantly rose-pink. She also added an annoyed, "Miss," and it felt as though Hero had been annoyedly correcting Jude for a long, long time.
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Posted: Thu Nov 12, 2009 2:13 am
From outright running to bolting like lightning across the sky down the street, Jude was oblivious to the wonders of the world around them, and would have accused her of the same. Things got in his way, but he ran around or jumped over them. It was a show-off move, but he was trying to show-off. Why? No idea. None of this made any sense. But he kept going, because Jude Lawson never surrendered a race.
Besides, this was a change from the dull lifestyle Barren Pines forced on him, and oh how he welcomed the relief that came with feeling free for once.
"A lady," Jude began, managing to sound very know-it-all through his occasional pant, "is not handsome. You can be beautiful. Captivating. Lovely. But not handsome. And I--" The words paused just long enough for him to hurdle over a fallen trash can. "--am not pretty."
By now he should have learned to get careless running at such a pace. What was that his grandmother used to say? Ah, right.
A Sagittarius never learns.
If only she knew. (If only he knew.)
Jude's eyes flickered to the side, casting a calculating glance upon his... whatever she was at this point. Racing rival, maybe? "You know, you should let your hair grow out like a real girls, and you could find yourself a nice husband someday."
Part of him couldn't help but feel they'd had this conversation before.
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Posted: Thu Nov 12, 2009 4:21 pm
"That's interesting," said Hero, "because you run -- like a pretty girl."
And at that, both of them took off. They were sprinting down the footpath, running neck to neck, sometimes Jude getting the better of her and sometimes Hero making headway -- Jude was a man and had musculature and biology more suited to short-distance sprinting, but Hero had tight, neat, muscled shoulders (like a quarterback, some people said meanly) and long, long legs, and they were going at it hammer and tongs. They hurdled the pavement and both went for the oak tree at the end of the street as their goal -- Jude touched it a fraction before Hero did, both of them slamming their palms down hard like kids on the rough back, leaning against it and gasping for breath.
Hero was panting, cheeks as flamingly red as her hair, slithering down the trunk and immediately planting herself on the grass on her back -- this was no sign of weakness, however, as she immediately began (falteringly) doing sit-ups. "Not," she said, panting, "bad."
Which was gross admiration from Hero Barrett.
"Maybe if you take out that ridiculous piercing, -- ...you'll find yourself a wife."
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Posted: Thu Nov 12, 2009 4:30 pm
Under normal circumstances, Jude might have been content with his win, no matter how slight-of-hand a victory it was. Not this time. Racing made his otherwise invisible competitive side spring to life. The abrupt run was proof enough of that. But, for some reason, beating Hero didn't actually feel like beating Hero. It didn't feel over, if that made any sense.
No, it didn't make any sense, and Jude had come to terms with that for now.
The competition just got more and more ridiculous. They were both exhausted from the race, yet here they were, doing push-ups and sit-ups right after it just to prove to the other one they could. Was that what they were doing? He had to think so; it was the only way he could make sense of it.
One push-up.
"Well."
Two.
"That's funny."
Three.
"Because I--"
Four.
"--suddenly feel--"
Five.
"--like I already have one."
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Posted: Thu Nov 12, 2009 4:40 pm
That prompted a barking laugh from Hero -- it was more of an exhalation of breath as they squeezed themselves up into sit-ups. Just, again, to prove that they could. Every time Hero came up (and she was, he noted, struggling a little now -- they had literally sprinted, the kind of sprinting that made other people gaily puke) she stared at him through narrowed eyes, noting exactly how far he was going up, how much he was crunching. And then, finally -- they were just lying back on the grass, staring up, their breath coming in damp wet starts.
"Do you, Mr. Lawson?" she said. And that was all. He knew without having to be psychic that the feeling was mimicked in her: a long battle that had started a while back, without anyone's say-so, so fuzzy as to not be a real memory. More like an ongoing feeling.
One that, again, made no sense: but they were comfortable with the nonsensical, which wasn't like Hero either, who hated the nonsensical and everything about it.
"At this point," she said, a few moments later, "I usually go and have a juice and a black coffee down the road."
Trust Hero to maximise time by having a coffee and a juice.
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Posted: Thu Nov 12, 2009 5:01 pm
Jude lost count of how many times he had pushed himself up, only to lower back down, and push himself back up again. All he knew was they both got too tired to keep going, and the laziness that he was so much more accustomed to consumed him, beneath the clouds and the sun that had come out without him noticing. How long had they been at this, anyway?
"Pretty much," he admitted shamelessly. "You're nagging me and being as troublesome as one." What could have so easily been an intent to hurt was not. Jude was just being Jude, and Jude was a tactless boy with no mind-to-mouth filter whatsoever.
There was a lull.
Juice and coffee? He had to laugh. "At the same time? That's really gross. I'll stick with just juice. And you can stick with just Lawson."
Then he was up, hovering over her, offering his hand in a gentlemanly manner.
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Posted: Thu Nov 12, 2009 5:18 pm
Hero took it, but not in a ladylike fashion -- she grasped his wrist instead as she pulled herself up, brushing herself down. She also didn't look annoyed at the nagging and troublesome -- resigned, more like, or even a little bit contented that she had been designated as somebody who had gotten under Jude Lawson's skin. Or simply resigned, as though he had accused her of nagging years before. (If only she knew. If only he knew.)
"Just Lawson, then," she said. "And if you want juice, very well, you stick to juice." (Hero needed more than just fructose to kickstart a Hero Barrett day.) "Maybe it'll gum up your mouth and stop you from your blabbing."
Which again felt like an old accusation. But she was saying, "Come on, then," and at a much slower pace they were walking down the quiet morning street to the lonesome dairy that was the only source of really local sustenance for the Barren Pines student -- in a peace treaty.
Or at least a stillfire. It felt like they would probably be starting most of their mornings this way now.
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Posted: Thu Nov 12, 2009 5:28 pm
"My blabbing? What about your blabbing?"
The number of times he'd been called names like sexist, male chauvinist, woman hater by really headstrong, feminist girls was staggering. Jude was none of these, not in the way they accused him of. Had he been, he would have insisted on walking in front of them like an Alpha Male, instead of behind them like a guardian wanting to keep an eye on them.
It was for the best he trailed a few paces slower than her, since by doing so, the risk of starting another unplanned race was eliminated. He tucked his arms behind his head, folding his hands and pressing them against his hair.
"So, Hero..." Jude didn't hesitate because of using her first name. From the sounds of it, he had forgotten he'd ever called her anything else. Why he paused was because of what he was about to say. It was risky business to get on this subject. "What do you think of our school?"
Let her interpret it how she chose to, he decided.
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Posted: Thu Nov 12, 2009 6:22 pm
"What's there to think?" Hero didn't meet his gaze; she just kept on walking, the usual Hero Barrett stride, pausing only to brush a red-orange lock of hair out of her eyes. "What do I think of the sky being blue? It's our school; it's Barren Pines -- I've attended since I was thirteen -- you... haven't."
She sounded unusually vague when it came to that; they both knew Jude had only attended for -- ... a year? Or something? Not liking the vagueness, possibly, Hero said: "It's our school. We have high-quality teachers. We have a well-planned curriculum. We have top-end equipment, buildings -- all save the heating in the science laboratories -- and a reputation. We have gifted students, all save Frankie Del Rockham, who I am fairly sure was streamed to us through the 'special children' satellite program." (This was not a joke. Hero did not joke. Anyway, it was Frankie.) "What do I think of it? It's a school; I enjoy my time here, Lawson."
Did Hero really enjoy anything?
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Posted: Thu Nov 12, 2009 6:33 pm
"No, I... haven't." Had he? No, there was no way. He hadn't even lived in this city until a year ago. Somewhere along the way, around the word "quality", he lost interest in what she was saying and stopped paying attention. This uptight miss wouldn't be of anymore help to him than the teachers themselves. Speaking of, what classes did he have today? Maybe he should actually go to one or two.
--Oh. She was still talking.
"--It's a school; I enjoy my time here, Lawson," Hero finished. That was about the time he zoned back in, and could only guess what boring response had filled the void between "quality" and "Lawson".
"Fantastic," Jude chirped, speeding up to walk beside her. Like a big brother to a little sister--or at least, one old friend to another--he put his arm around her shoulder and pulled her closer to him, leaning down to speak more quietly with her, as if this somehow made the conversation more personable, made him seem more right. "You know, Hero, you really could use getting a boyfriend to help you loosen up." A pause. " Girlfriend? Your hair really makes me think girlfriend. I know a really nice one, that Serenade girl, if you're interested. I can't tell for sure if she'd go for it, but I think she might."
Ah, the joys of being completely tactless.
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