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If you want to stop then you have to find another way to vent your stress. Cutting is usually a coping mechanism so really you need to deal with what ever is bothering you that is the root of your cutting.

The best way to do this is to have someone teach you new ways to deal with what ever you are having trouble dealing with. The best person to do this is a councellor or therapist so I would suggest you visit one.

And don't worry about where to put your thread, Nikolita will move it for you.

Agreed. It's so embarassing. I hate feeling like people are staring at me, or having people ask me how I got the scars. Then I either have to lie or have them stare at me like I'm a nut-job.

How did I stop? I re-directed my frustrations. I started drawing, writing stories, things like that. I also started "pretending to be happy." I know, it sounds dumb, but it really works. I just started dressing in bright colors instead of black, listening to more light-hearted music, and smiled all the time. I acted so friendly that people started acting friendly back. Suddenly, I actually started feeling better and I found that I really wasn't pretending all that much anymore.

Another thing that really helped me was getting excercise. Whenever I would feel really frustrated, I would go out for a run, or go to the gym until I was too tired to stand. It's hard to feel depressed when you are just too tired to think, lol.

but i cant really talk to many poeple...i dont want to talk to my firnds becuase it tends to make them more deprsed and when there depseered i get worse and want to cut more...and i try to stop and i cant tlak o a consler becuase they will call my mom and she has such high standers for me if she found out i cut im afaid of what she would do im only 15 and ive been cutting since i was around 10....i normal cut my stumach and legds somtimes my uper arms and palms i odnt want to cut and i ahve tried other ways of stoping but its hard and im under alot of presure i know every one is a teenager at one point of timeand its hard for every one but it fells like the wieght of hte wrold on my sholders some times i cry myself to sleep, ive had atleast 4 of my friends try to comit suicid.

You need help for your problems, since you've already said that you can't deal with them on your own (if you were able to, I'm guessing you wouldn't have spent the past 5 years cutting yourself). And no one can help you until you make the first move and decide to help yourself.

Just to be sure, you can ask if they will tell your parents anything before you tell them. There are some clauses where if they think that you are a danger to others (and maybe yourself, depending on where you live) that they have to tell people. But if you go in there and say:

"I need to talk to someone, but I am worried about my parents' reaction if they find out. Can I trust you not to tell anyone about what I say?"

Hint that you are going to say something of a nature that they may feel they need to tell your parents. Then just judge based on their reaction whether you want to follow through and actually say anything.

i want to tell my mom more then any thing and every time i finaly get the curage to somehting goes wrong, it never fails like this time i was going to tell her and then she told me that my dad was gambling and she was realy mad about that...so i chikcned out

First off, i had a problem with cutting for a long time. And every now and then I lapse back into my problems. Like after a bad break up i put many lines into my legs, and afterwards I majorly regretted it.
I have found that sometimes the only thing you can do is substitute it for something less harmful, atleast until you can get professional help from a counceler.
I use a rubberband around my wrist, when i want to cut, i just snap the rubberband and sometimes it can help. But you have to be careful that you don't take that overboard.

In regards to talking to your mum or such, try writing it in a letter and give it to your mom. thats how i did it. then i got professional helps and i have almost completely stopped.

but if you ever just want to talk. pm me, i am always willing to talk