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 Posted: Sun Sep 27, 2009 12:54 pm
Their sisters.... Maim was surely never a wolf to be sad, or down, but whenever he thought of the three females he and his brother had been born with, he nearly wanted to break down and cry. But maybe it was for the best - he had abandoned Rend after a time... it wouldn't have done very well to abandon his sisters too, if they had survived.
He sighed and moved on. He would find her, and try to understand. This... avoidance, this hatred had gone on too long. Life was too short for this, and he just wanted to figure everything out. If she could just explain, then things would be good again - maybe he could even make contact with his grandmother and his family, join their pack... be normal for once.
With new resolution and stars twinkling overhead, the big wolf set off. The moon was high in the sky already, but it didn't matter. He would spend as much time as he needed to find her.
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Posted: Sun Sep 27, 2009 2:02 pm
 Elayi whimpered in her sleep, rather loudly. She was somewhere on the very edge of the pack boundaries, lying under a tree in an old fox burrow. Her dreams were haunting her again. Two pups, two male pups that she had some connection two. She felt like she needed to protect them, but also, to prepare them for something. There were three other pups too, girls. She felt a connection to them too. That she needed to save them, and protect them.
But there was some sick twist in the dream. Something like fear would come over her everytime. In the shape of a huge, dark wolf. It persuaded her, beat her, and broke her all at once. It made her crack and whine and plead. A voice in her head was commanding, twisting her thoughts to make the three female pups look so vulnerable. She had to protect them, she had too.
And then her teeth were at their throats.
A tri-colored female howled in her sleep. A howl of pain, of agony. Desperation. Elayi had killed her own pups, and she couldn't even remember it.
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Posted: Sun Sep 27, 2009 3:25 pm
After a time, the wolf heard a howl in the far distance. His ears swiveled atop his massive head, and he set off in that direction immediately. It had sounded like a terrible howl, one that he would have liked to never hear out of any wolf.
The howl was also familiar - he wasn't sure how, but he somehow thought he knew the voice behind that terrifying howl. He howled back, hoping that the female could hear him. He had already tagged the gender he wished it to be onto the voice, but he had to admit to himself that it might not be her.
He let one more howl that vibrated through his body as he kicked his pace up, running at a ground-eating pace. If it wasn't her, it didn't matter... someone wasn't doing so well, and his heroic nature forced him in that direction no matter what.
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Posted: Sun Sep 27, 2009 3:43 pm
Elayi had heard the howl in her dreams, and it only added on to the hysteria she was going through. One of her sons...they were in trouble! Her paws were scraping against the dirt of the den frantically, and she snarled against the great black demon in her dreams. It was hurting her sons, but she couldn't do anything against it.
So she had to ready them for the monster. It wanted her to raise them to be like him, savage and cruel. It made her fear for both the pups and her own life. What was going to happen to them? Her babies...hurt? No! In the depths of her dream, she was making her own pups fight eachother, using her own teeth against them. Toughening them, preparing them for the demon.
The second howl awoke the crazed wolfess. Her ears shot up, as well as her head. Though her hearing wouldn't do much good. Ever since her 'accident' it had been failing. Miserably.
But she didn't recognize that howl. Something made it click in the back of her head, but she didn't know why. Another wolf was on the packlands? Should she warn Hepheastus, the great alpha? Or should she investigate herself? Either way, she crawled out of the fox den cautiously.
Her dream was not forgotten.
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Posted: Sun Sep 27, 2009 5:48 pm
"Ugh.." he kept running in the same direction still, wishing that she would howl again. He lifted his head slightly, tipping his nose to the stars, and gave another long howl, putting his whole being into the cry. It echoed to the heavens, and implored "Where are you?"
He felt that he was close, but couldn't be sure. The scent of other wolves was thick in his nose now, and he balked going any further. It was below him to cross into a pack's lands without permission, and for now, he danced lightly on his paws back and fort, giving howls and yips, hoping he was in the right place.
If the wolf was in trouble, Maim wasn't doing a bit of good, but it was better to be safe than sorry...
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Posted: Sun Sep 27, 2009 6:22 pm
The howl shook her bones. A male, she guessed, and he was frustrated. Where was who? Was he calling for her?
He was so close to her, that it was scary. His smell flooded her nose, and her thoughts began to clear. It smelled like...how could that possibly be? A male that smelled like her? It wasn't her brother's...who was this wolf? He must have been looking for her now, she was certain.
"Hello?" She called back, pushing forward through the thick brush. The moonlight shone against her sleek fur, and she listened as hard as she could. Her green eyes scanned the trees around her. This was just like her dream...
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Posted: Sun Sep 27, 2009 6:55 pm
His prancing grew more frantic as he heard the voice. He dared speak her name, hoping that he had the right wolf. "Elayi..." Mother, he thought the word, but didn't dare say it. Her name would do for now, until he knew for sure that it was her.
He waited a moment, listening to make sure she was coming towards him, and finally caught eyes on her. It was her, and memories came flooding back. His head hurt suddenly, and he whined softly. Could he honestly do this? She was so small... so frail compared to him. He had grown up huge, inheriting the size from his mountain wolf grandfather. Yet he whined like a tiny pup, standing before a great killer.
Maim snorted and stopped his dancing, grounding himself squarely. "I've come to find you, to ask why." he spoke softly, keeping his eyes on her.
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Posted: Sun Sep 27, 2009 7:15 pm
She saw the huge wolf, and whimpered in fright. He knew her name...but who was he? He looked like the dark wolf from her dreams, but at the same time she felt a sort of bond with him. Scars painted along his body, and she felt a curiosity to know where they came from.
Why was whining? Had she done something?
"Who are you? Ask me what?" She shifted from paw to paw in confusion, anticipation. The gamma who sometimes acted like an omega, she despised herself. Couldn't she have some pride to live off of? But something had always told her that she had done something horribly wrong. If only her mind wasn't blank beyond the point that the two-leggers attacked her.
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Posted: Mon Sep 28, 2009 4:38 pm
He wasn't sure why she was answering his questions with more questions, but he still stood, without moving. It was possible she didn't remember him... wasn't it? He figured if he had been in the same situation long ago, he wouldn't want to remember anything either...
"You have two sons... you named them Rend and Maim. I am Maim." he said, regretting that it sounded like a threat due to the nature of the brothers' names... but it wasn't his fault she had named them methods of destruction. In a flash, he wondered what his sisters would have been named... and dipped his head sadly, tipping his muzzle towards the ground, though keeping his eyes on her.
She could remember and snap, he thought dizzily. She could finish the work she started so long ago, though he wasn't sure how she would fair, now that he and Rend were so big. Once upon a time, she had been the giant who hovered over them with malice and fear.... and now things were so upside down - though Maim would be damned before he took upon himself the roles of fear and hatred.
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Posted: Mon Sep 28, 2009 7:09 pm
Elayi...pups...sons? Everything she had been dreaming about. And now he...Maim? Why would she name her son Maim? And Rend? No. He was fooling with her, toying with her mind. He could have been some Seer, or she had been talking in her sleep. But he looked so much like the monster from her dreams...could he really be her son?
She whimpered, backing down and tilting her ears back. Her teeth slightly bared.
Pain. Protection. Punishment. Abandonment. Guilt. It seemed like they flashed across her heart all at once. Memories were coming back to her in broken parts. The first was the hardest. Two small pups fighting against eachother, and herself urging them on. The second; Elayi herself beating the wolf before her, only as a pup. More of the memories followed. Her teeth slashing against the three female pups throats. These dreams she had been experiencing...they were memories long forgotten. And they made her want to throw herself against a rock.
"Ma-im...?" She found it so hard to talk. It was more of a whimper than a question. She found herself staring at the huge wolf before her. Newly remembered as her son. What she had done to him was uncovered in the back of her head; like a wound that had been reopened. Again and again. Like when the two-leggers had hit her on the head with their heavy silver sticks, and dumped her into a shallow ravine. That too, was coming back to her.
A low whine escaped her. Elayi remembered.
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Posted: Thu Oct 01, 2009 6:24 am
The big wolf tilted his head a bit when she backed away, and whined. He couldn't quite figure out what was going on, and suddenly, Maim felt pity - an emotion he had never felt before, for any wolf. He wasn't sorry, he never could be for this particular situation, but he felt a strange longing to change things.
"Mother... it's alright." he lowered his voice a bit in an attempt to sound soothing. He sat down slowly, tucking his tail against his left haunch. Sitting in the presence of another wolf - for him - showed a certain degree of trust... or a certain degree of disrespect if the other wolf happened to be an alpha, but an alpha his mother was not.
"I've come to find you, to find out why you did what you did, and to try to forgive..." he tapered off, pawing at the ground absently. He felt as though he were once again a feeble pup, running away again, and he fought to keep himself rooted to where he sat, for both their sakes.
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Posted: Thu Oct 01, 2009 7:00 am
She couldn't look at him now. Forgive? If she were in his position, she would never forgive. She's killed his sisters, and beat Maim and Rend. How could he possibly forgive her? Though, she would answer what she could. She could give him that.
"He would have done worse. Your father, he would have done worse to your sisters. I had to end their lives quick. Yourself and your brother, Maim. I had to protect you from him. If he thought that you two wouold be weak, he...I would have nothing left of either of you. Your father would have killed you both when he found out. I had to make you strong, vicious even." The brown female was shaking at her memories now. How Black Grin used to instruct her about how to train the boys and make them into something he could have pride in.
"I was almost glad that you two ran away..."
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Posted: Thu Oct 01, 2009 10:24 am
Despite the warm night air, an uneasy chill settled on the big wolf's shoulders. So his dreams were... not really dreams, but remembrance of what had been going on all along. Somewhere in the back of his mind, Maim had always know what was happening, and now he felt that they were right to run away. Mother would never have killed them, but Father might very well have.
"So... " he was deep in thought, and those thoughts poured from his maw like water over the falls. "You did all these things so that F-" he stopped himself, unable to call the wolf 'Father'. "So that he wouldn't kill you... wouldn't kill us all." his brows wrinkled, and he shivered momentarily before whispering - "It was a mercy killing... our sisters..." realizing that their father would have tortured them before letting them die.
All of this sickened him, and he didn't want to believe that there was a wolf out there so manipulative and ******** up that he would prey on a poor female and force her to do the things his mother had done.
The chill returned. "Where is he?" he wondered aloud. He would kill the wolf if he ever approached himself or his family again. He was anxious now to also tell Rend of these things. They were brothers, and he figured that Rend would like to know these things...
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Posted: Thu Oct 01, 2009 5:26 pm
"You could say that...I don't know where your father is, and I don't want to find out. You shouldn't either, Maim."
Now that she had released her explanation to Maim, she was taking in the sight of him. Elayi wasn't a very large wolf to begin with, but next to her son, it seemed as though she was a pup. He was so huge, it looked like his paw was bigger than her front ones put together. Her past was still foggy, but had he been a big pup as well? And his brother...
"Your brother. Rend...how is he? How are you? Have you two seen each other, is he close by?" It seemed like she was blurting out questions now. Almost hurriedly, like Maim might dissapear at any second.
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Posted: Fri Oct 02, 2009 7:12 am
Maim snorted, tossing his head a bit. "I guess you're right." He really didn't want to know where he was, more so, he just wanted to know that the dark wolf was far away from anywhere he was.
He shivered once more as his mother mentioned Rend. His brother had talked about trying to find their father when he was younger, but now that the brothers had reunited, he was certain that Rend had never found the older male, and for the better. It wouldn't hurt to leave that small detail out for his mother.
"Rend is doing well." he offered, simply. He wasn't sure how much of his tale Rend wanted told to their mother - but he could certainly find him again and let him know about their mother... where she is, that she's doing well. "I met with him maybe five moons ago... speaking with him again is what made me search you out." he nodded, blinking slowly.
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