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Goodness gracious even more ranting! What is going on in my life lately?

Okay well, I hung out with my brother and his new friends which are all Asian. That also includes Ricky and his brother.

My brother is getting people, including the brothers, into the marines so they were working out.

I hung out with them amazing.

Long story short for this part of the rant, Ricky carried me while he ran for a bit.

Okay so we both like each other right? It definitely shows because even my brother noticed.

Later that night my brother approached me while I was doing my homework and he's asked "Ricky is just your tutor right?" in this kind of snarky tone of his.
So I became snarky with him and said "Yea..."
So then my brother goes on to say with the same tone "You know he's taken right?"

I have no idea what kind of look was on my face. I was probably dumbfounded (because I was) and said "No"
So my brother is still using his tone and says "Don't try anything funny"
(haha I just realized that's where I got that sentence from since I say it sometimes)

Well anyways, it SERIOUSLY upset me. My brother was lying, because why else would Ricky offer to take me to Homecoming? He wouldn't do that if he was taken.

So I talked to my best friend in the morning and she's like "That's bs, your brother probably doesn't want you going to Homecoming with him" and I'm like "Yea you're right, but I've got a way to make sure that he wants to go with me, he's single, and to make a point to my brother without actually saying anything bad about him (I wanted him to get in trouble)"

So I told Brittany, my other best friend and she agreed but we waited until 2nd period. Me and her and Ricky all have that period together.

So come 2nd period (and obstacles getting there and going around to try and finish our project that ended in failure) I finally asked him if he still wanted to go to Homecoming. (my amazing plan xD)

He just said that he's going with the guys and he asked why and I told him that my brother said he was taken and he said yea.
So naturally I asked why he didn't go with her (all the while concealing my shock) and he said because his mom didn't let her. He also added on that I could come join him and the guys.

Maybe I was misinterpreting everything and didn't realize that dinner before Homecoming was dinner with the guys.
(This thought just occurred to me)

However, all my friends agree that what he did was wrong (along with me agreeing)
What did he do?
So we've basically been flirting for a month or so (or maybe possibly weeks, I dunno, times has passed by quickly) and he agreed to take me to Homecoming when my friend said that he should take me all the while not telling anyone (except my brother apparently) that he was taken.

I couldn't find a perfect description until I told my best friend via text straight after the incident in third period and she described it as him leading me on.
Which is exactly what he did.

Never would I imagine him not being single.
Has he backed off from flirting?
No.
Has he told me?
Nope.
Has he given any signs of it?
Nada.
Has he even told my friend who tried to hook us up (and admitted to her that he liked me)?
Zip.
Does it seem to affect him that he now knows that he has a girlfriend.
Not at all.
Do I even know her?
Not a bit, and I honestly feel horrible for her.

If I found out my guy was doing this behind my back, I'd be heartbroken. Absolutely and irrevocably heartbroken.

What will I do now?

I'm going to tell him straight up when we're alone.
I'm not going to Homecoming with him as a date (going back to the dinner comment I'm not sure if he planned it as a date).
I'm not going to Homecoming with him because I could never do that to his girlfriend. No matter what he says (which would be stupid if he said, "she doesn't care" "she knows" or "she doesn't mind" because it'd make ME feel horrible) I'm not going WITH HIM.

Sure, I'll probably be there with my best friend Brittany (and quite possibly and hopefully invite my best friend Katie from another school) but I won't be hanging around him.

I still want to be friends, definitely. But nothing more. And I probably need some time away from him before I can try being friends with him honestly.

I have all that planned out, but now comes to my conclusion.
I have to tell my mother about this.
How she's going to act, I don't know.
Will she still let me hang out with him/around him? I don't know.
Will she be angry at him? Upset at him? Give me a lecture? Possibly all three.

Now to just find the perfect time to tell her. I was so exited too when she said I could go with him. Now I have to tell her this.
I kind of feel bad for her, but she didn't really like him AS much in the first place anyhow.

We'll see how things go.

Ahaha xD
That made my day.
You know, that makes total sense now. Wearing a hot dress and just showing up. Your logic just totally overwhelms me <3
Yeah I'm very thankful for him now =]

Oh and it's weird, the day after I asked him if he had a gf, he seemed kind of depressed during class maybe because he's kind of clued in from my best gal pal Brittany keep repeating that she hates him and that he's a jerk (hence his new nickname Beef Jerky)

Oh boy do I love school <3

Well yea, but me and my too open heart feels bad if he feels bad about me. But I'm trying to ignore it xD

But anyways, I didn't get enough time to tell you the full story of the Beef Jerky nickname.

Brittany kept calling him a jerk and even wrote it down on paper and kept showing it to him, so then he took it (I did warn you about his humor right?) and from the jerk he took it and wrote beef jerky.

I laughed my butt off when I saw that xD

Yup, but sometimes you just can't control who you like. I think that might go for the both of us =/

But I'm planning on going to Homecoming with my gal pal Brittany. We're gonna have so much fun! She's planning on wearing a pink dress and I'm planning on wearing a blue one since everyone seems to wear black or red to Homecoming.

Oh oh! Maybe I can put down pictures for voting like you did =]