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 Posted: Wed Sep 16, 2009 6:01 pm
Okay, so William. People close to me would know that he's truly important to me. I won't elaborate on him (since Lenelee is gonna be the one answering to this xD)
His birthday was the 7th, and the only reason I noticed it was because of the Myspace Birthday Reminder sidebar. If I didn't see that, I wouldn't have remembered anything.
So I sent him a comment pretty much saying it's been a long time since we talked and I wished him a happy birthday.
So he commented back saying he was sorry and he wanted my number because he wanted to do something Sunday.
Well I gave it to him, and that was a few days ago or something? So I told my best friend Katie, and she said "Honestly, he's a d*** and you need to stay away from him especially when you're into such a great guy. Please don't hang out with him" (I summed it up pretty nicely xD)
So I thought about it for, like, half a minute. And I said "You know what, you're right. Ricky is what's best for me right now and Will is just going to complicate things. We'll never get over each other no matter what we say" and it was a best friend moment because she commended me for completely agreeing with her and not getting in an argument choosing emotions over logic.
Well today, I was surprised when a number popped up on my cell. And I took a look at it, I don't exactly remember how his number went, but it was triggered in my mind that it was his number. I was mostly surprised because
1) I faintly recognized the number that belonged to him
2) He called right in the middle when I was talking to Ricky
So we kept the conversation short (the gist of it, I left stuff out because it's just not important)
Will: Can you hang out at the mall on Sunday?
Me: No, I've got projects and homework and stuff. Sorry, are you still in school?
Will: No, I got kicked out of school yesterday.
Me: Oh god, what did you do? GED school too right?
Will: Yeah, and because I missed to many days. Can't go back into high school either.
(aka he's so totally screwed now which makes me worry =[)
Me: Oh *works on algebra* I'm working on algebra right now.
Will: Well I'll leave you to your homework then.
Me: Okay, bye.
Will: Bye.
Okay, so first of all. Tone of voice, not rude but not polite either. The way he says things, it puts me off now. He started off the conversation with "You"
Second of all, he's definitely not good for me like my mother and Katie have been telling me since forever.
I can just tell, he dropped out of his last chance at school and he just doesn't care.
He just doesn't care.
If he did care, that would have made a world of difference, but he just doesn't....
Mother knows best, and so do best friends.
Oh, and I'll feel a bit bad about this, but I'm going to avoid him =[
It's just not good for us to be near each other.
When we talked, I knew my feelings for him haven't, and never will die away completely. Imagine how strong it would be if we saw each other face to face.
It'd complicate things because I'd be totally into a guy who is perfect for me, and then along comes Will and I'd start having second thoughts.
Not happening, I'm not going to let this happen to me, that guy I'm hypothetically with (xD) and Will.
I pray for the best of him, but that doesn't include me in his life. Not anymore. I can't be a significant part anymore.
Like I said to Katie,
to me, Will is a life lesson.
And I think he'll continue to be one...
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Posted: Wed Sep 16, 2009 9:50 pm
Of course I would be the one to respond on any topic where you mention that scum. stare
I'm really glad that you took her advice and can see it for what it is. Some people that come into our lives are incredibly magnetic to us yet...they are no more then a poison that will get under your skin and rot you from the inside out. I agree fully, he was a huge life lesson and for that to not be in vain, you need to remember it. Sometimes it's best for both parties to just let go of each other completely. Why burden yourself? You always felt responsible for him each time he was in your life and really, that's not your place. He needs to grow up and make good decisions for himself. That also includes him taking care of himself. You helping him, even though it feels like that's the right thing to do, just hurts him in the long run. He'll never do anything for him self if he knows others will do it all for him.
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Posted: Thu Sep 17, 2009 3:34 pm
Yeah, you're totally right.
And I know what I'm doing is right too.
>_>
*goes off to make another rant*
Geez drama sure does like to visit me lately.
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