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I find myself crying more often now, my friend is dying of cancer, the girl I love is in love with someone else, Its winter and dispise the cold and my grades are going to s**t. I just want to scream. The only thing that helps are hour long showers and my music. Well, is there anything else. When Im grounded off the computer, there goes the music. Well, what else is there?

I how all of what you are going thorugh feels. I most definately been there recently.
I know that loving someone who doesn't love you in return is hard to deal with. It has been that way between me and my best friend. God it is so hard for me sometimes to come to grip with his not loving me right back. My best suggestion for that is to find something to immerse your time into like an awsome song on your cd player or god forbid your homework (it might help you bring up your grades). I'm not telling you to forget her but if you stay occupied then it might be easier to look her stright in the eyes and not feel that longing pain.

Yes cold is rough and I hate it too but, even thus, it is part of life. Even when your grounded you can find things to do. Like randomly paint your room orange( my closet is still orange) or cleanout the attic (you may very find some old priceless relic that someone would want, but your parents think is junk. YOU NEVER KNOW!). The list of things you can do is endless, you just have to put your mind to it.

About your friend...I am truely sorry. I lost my bestest girl buddie, robyn, to breast cancer a year and a half ago. I was really sad for a long time and then one morning I came to the realization that...even if a person is not with us in body we are still jsut as close in sprit. You never have to forget this friend just like I never have to, or will, forget robyn.

Here is a proverb~"Just because the sun isn't shineing doesn't mean that it is not there..."

Take care of your self...
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