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These Feelings
The newest chapter of the most complicated life is opened to a more misery. Have you ever felt like you can never win your souls biggest dream? Like this saddening pain will never go away for a better chapter to start? That like your soul just can't/won't let it go because of your own personal past? Your afraid your newly strengthened abilities will disappear if you do forget or let it go. If you've become a outcast for the decision you've made in the past.............
Do you feel this is all right?
When everyone says this is all wrong?
When the memories are too great too forget? When the voices in your head get what they want?
When you heart finally fails?
Don't you just wish it was all gone? Like it never happened at all? Like your emotions hadn't gotten involved?
When ever you flip a coin for "does he love me?"
Heads: Yes........Tails: No...........
And it lands on tails every time.
Don't you have that feeling that you wish you
Hadn't even flipped it?
To just imagine it had laneded on heads instead.
When you scream into the midnight sky,"WHY??!?!"
And hear," because it's life".
Just wishing the wind hadn't answered
Feeling so alone.

And then you write down all your feelings down and someone says it sucks. Don't you just wish you hadn't been born to start with? These feeling are meant to be kept alive, even if you feel so dead.