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So the more I learn about me and all the things i can do the more paranormal things happend to me. Like i used to have minor glances of ghosts and sometimes talk to them. This happened every month about once maybe twice (full moon time) but now these things have been happening almost everyday, more than once. I like it though.

July 31, 2009

Yesterday I talked to sean. He and i had a long conversation about me leaving mike and how i should dump him. i told sean that ive been having horrible nightmares ever since i started dating mike. he explained that it was cuz mike didnt want him in my head. sean when we were dating was my dream catcher i never had nightmares with him cuz he took them all away. thing is he has to be in your head to do it and mike never wanted me and sean to talk let alone think and get in each others head. so sean respected him wishes. i have been having nightmares everynight that i havent slept in forever. then last night he was with me i could feel it again and it was the first night i didnt have any nightmares in forever. Then sean continued to go on about how he hasnt slept in forever and that he woke up every 15 min and just layed in bed 12 hours a night. except last night cuz it was the first night we were able to talk cuz i came to the conclusion screw my boyfriend he is not ruling my life. then this morning he said it was cuz of me. then i broke up with mike this morning.

Okay yeah i havent updated in a while with school and all that. But, my nightmares stopped and im no longer even talking with sean. But i was at my friend sally's house haning out with her sam and this guy id just met chris. so i didnt really know anything about him but sally had told him a lot about me. She had told him that i read minds and im an empath and i love tarot cards. it was really strange i met him and i couldnt tell much of anything about him usually i get specifics about people like what made them the way they are. With him though i didnt. it was super weird and he had his suspicions about me. So the night went on and sally and i were talking about wicca because she would like to get into it and i was going over the things she needs to know about it before she goes out on her own and gets in trouble. You know? And we were talking about things like vampires and werewolves (totally off topic). I noticed that she believed in things like this, which was cool to me, but then i also was able to read chris enough to see that he knew a lot more than he led on. He knew a bunch of things about werewolves that many people wouldn't know unless they were one. So i began to watch him... closely. Later that night we ended up going to the cemetary This was a place i normally hated because of all the mixed emotions but i do love ghosts and dealing with them all. He went around to a lot of grave sights and asked me what i felt and saw and i would tell him and he would agree and move on. I didnt know if he was just saying that because he didnt want to be a jerk and tell me i was wrong or what. We went to one and he asked me to hold his hand and tell him again and i noticed that when i was holding his hand i felt more of a control of my empathy. Things seemed clearer and i could focus much easier. He knew so much about things and was seeing and hearing the things i was. Sally was soooo confused this whole time. She doesnt see or hear anything but shes just learning. So i was thinking about what he could be. Then, the next day he asked me if i wanted to go on a date and i said sure. So we went up town to a movie and for a long walk talking a lot and i noticed he could say what i was about to way before i did. He claimed it was because he can read peoples faces and movements and connect it to something. Yeah... I wasnt buying it. Then i challenged him on the phone one night about it. telling him he was psychic and he is just playing dumb. He giggled giving himself away. and ever since then ive been hanging out with him a lot and feeling better control wise.