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Persy sat on her bed, staring blankly into space. She was trying to get up the courage to go and see Kieran and tell him everything but she just couldn't do it. When she tried to move her legs wouldn't respond and when she thought about it she would shake violently. She knew at this time it was too late to go and visit him anyway. With Nyx safely (or so she thought) tucked up in bed she couldn't finally let herself go and actually cry.

In the time that Kieran had been gone and especially since Valient had told her about his attempted suicide she had lost a large amount of weight. She was already a thin cat so when she lost weight she looked increadibly ill. She let herself cry for a while, not knowing that her son would be watching her break down from outside her window.

Persy jumped slightly as she turned around to see Dracal at the window. She quickly whiped her tears away and got up, running to the window and opening it quickly and letting him in. "Dracal." she said, smiling slightly as she saw him. She let him inside, hugging him quickly as she let him inside.

It was so nice to see him again. She had spent so much time worrying about Dracal and Kieran that it was nice to see him face and sound. "Oh Dracal. It's so lovely to see you again."

Persy went back into her mothering mode. "I don't know how your father is." she said quietly, looking at him through rather absent eyes. "I was told not to go to see him until he gets a little better. So I will wait." she added. The last thing she wanted to do was make things worse. "Truth be told I don't even know if he wants to see me. If he doesn't...I'll leave. I don't want to cause anymore damage." she said vaguely. She then looked down at Dracal sympathetically. "I think everyone wants someone to blame things on. I think Ishtar, in particular, would like to not blame me for it, so he pushes the blame to you. I really don't know though." she added softly. "I tend to be wrong quite often."

She tried to smile but it didn't quite work, it seemed far too half hearted. "Lets hope so Dracal..." she said quietly. She couldn't really comfort him, she hardly had the energy anymore to comfort herself.

Persy tried to smile but couldn't really muster up the energy. "I'm fine sweetheart." she muttered vaguely, mechanically. It sounded like she had been ask about her health hundreds of times before and had given an answer similar to this every time. "I'm not hungry darling. I'm perfectly alright."

She shook her head slowly. "No...I know this sounds strange but Kieran and I need to figure out what we're going to do. I love him...wth all my heart but we have problems that need to be sorted before things get better."

Persy nodded. "She's fine. She's in the dance studio at the moment I think." she said quietly. "She thinks I don't know about that place but I can hear the music. She's gotten very good at dancing. She spends a lot of her time there though." she added. "But she seems alright. She misses you though."

Persy shook her head again. "Really Dracal, I'm fine. I just havn't been sleeping very well is all. Please don't worry about me." she said with a half smile. The last thing she wanted was for her son to worry about her well being when he ran away. "I know I still have you, my sweet." she added quietly.

Persy sighed. "I don't know yet. I still have to talk to him. I don't know if he'll ever be able to forgive me after this so whatever happens will happen, I guess." she said. She loved him...loved him so much but if she was hurting him then it would be best to just let him go. "I love you too Dracal."

Persy nodded. "I see her every day. I can see her getting better. I know how much dancing means to her. When I see the determination in her eyes I really think that she could so it some day, become a propper ballerina I mean. And don't worry about her. She'll be fine. What you have to focus on is yourself for now. You just return to her when the time is right."

Persy nodded, looking down at him. "I know you just want to be here for me but there really isn't any need to worry. I'm perfectly fine." she then placed one of her hands on his head. "I really am alright."

Persy shook her head. "Truthfull Dracal, I really don't know. Your father was the first relationship I've ever been in. But I don't think all relationships are like this. You see many cats whom just live happily together when they love each other. Maybe we were just unlucky...I love him though. I think that, truthfully, love is important but far too many other factors of life play a part as well." she said sadly. Persy had grown as a cat. Her views on life were no longer the sugar coated dreams that she believed in when she was younger.

Persy looked at him, smiling softly. "Yes. I believe that that is a good thing. My heart still gets heavy and fluttery every time I think about your father, even after all of this. I think that's what love does to ones heart. As for her liking you the same way...only time can tell I'm afraid. You need to give her room to breath, like you're giving her now, so she can try to figure out things on her own. She has seen you as a brother her entire life. It's difficult for her now, to try and figure out if that's what she was really seeing you as." she said quietly. She knew her daughter very well. She couldn't help but feel that maybe there was something there, something Nyx really did feel for him. But she couldn't tell for sure. It was up to Nyx, not Persy.

Persy looked at him again, sighing slightly. It was difficult, after all to have your son worrying about you when he was living on his own at such a young age. "Just give me a small while Dracal. I'll be better soon. I promise you." she said with a small, soft smile, trying to get the kitten to stop worrying about her so much.

"I'm sorry I can't be more assistance to you about relationships, my dear, but I'm really not a good one to talk. Kieran is the only cat I've ever been with, the only cat I've ever loved. And even then our relationship failed so I really can't give any advice." she said quietly. "What made me fall for him? Other than everything?" she asked quietly. What was it about Kieran that she loved so much. It really was everything. How he smiled, how he would made her laugh, how when he was stressed he would run his hands through his hair, every single thing about Kieran Persy loved. "When I met him first it was his charm. He has such a charm about him that you just can't miss. Then it was how he speaks to me...like no matter who else is there I'm the only person in the room. And he was such a gentleman to me when we first met. I...I love everything about him...I guess." she muttered quietly. It saddened her that none of this mattered now. Kieran would never care for her again.

"She just needs time, my darling. I just hope that your wait isn't in vain." she said quietly, looking at him. "Keep your hopes high but not so high as to hurt you too much if things don't work out okay? I'll attempt to do the same about Kieran coming back to me. Love isn't the only factor that's playing a part anymore. I don't even know if he'll even love me anymore after this."