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 Posted: Thu Nov 10, 2005 5:07 pm
Okay well see I have depression, runs in the family (sad to say) as does anger issues. I have gotten help to determine why I am like this, but I don't get to see my therapist til next week, not anytime soon because thats when I really need to see her.
Lately I've been getting worse. My parents see it every so often, but most of the time I hide it so as to not worry them. I have tried to see if I can see her sooner, but so far it has ended up where I still have to wait.
My friends and family, as well as friends of the family who aren't my friends, are really worried because I go to school hating it, when I loved it, wishing I wasn't there and basically failing all of my classes. I'm now a student whom all my teachers worry about, its nice and all, but its gotten to the point where I want them to stop. I want everyone to leave me alone.
But its almost like everyday I go to school feeling down, hating life, and well basically I have all the symtoms of depression. I have even tried to cut myself and succeeded, but so far its only happened once and I'm worried that I'll get that bad again and do it once more, or try to kill someone (Thats just part of my anger issues) because I have gotten almost that out of control.
Anyone have any suggestions of what I can do until I see my Therapist?
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Posted: Thu Nov 10, 2005 11:00 pm
Do things that make you happy, ask everyone to leave you alone for awhile so you can have some time to yourself, or do something to take your mind off your anger/depression?
(sorry, random suggestions)
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Posted: Fri Nov 11, 2005 10:39 am
Hmmmm...maybe I'll try that again. But I can't be alone or else everyone starts to worry about me. SO I'm kinda at a loss because of that. I have tried doing that, but for some reason what used to make me happy just doesn't work anymore. crying
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Posted: Fri Nov 11, 2005 12:34 pm
For now I would try to keep your mind off of it and stay busy until you can see the therapist. Once you see them, maybe it can be arranged for you to go more than once a week so it's not a really long spell between appointments.
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Posted: Fri Nov 11, 2005 12:49 pm
Thats a good idea...but I'm always remindedof it (Stupid mother)and my mom is looking into switching me to her medical plan thing with Blue cross, cause she hates that its been like 3 weeks. stare
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Posted: Wed Nov 16, 2005 9:42 am
maybe you should clear your mind. O-o listning to loud orchistra music, like anime soundtracks, is a great way to vent emotions. ^^ maybe try meditating, or yoga? you might want to take up playing some sort of guitar or something, if you don't already.
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Posted: Wed Nov 16, 2005 8:00 pm
Thank you all for advice. ^.^ Much appreciated. I saw my Therapist today and she told me that I may be Bi-polar. I have an earlier appointment with her which is good because its after I find out if I really am Bi-polar from the Psychiatrist I'll be seeing the day before I see her. But thanks. And the best news is I've started writing again. woohoo for me! *gives herself cookies* But I really thank you all. heart
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Posted: Thu Nov 17, 2005 12:18 am
Congrats on being able to write again! biggrin It's good to have something to help you cope. Music is what does it for me.
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Posted: Thu Nov 17, 2005 7:46 am
Thanks. Lets just hope that my mind stops waging war against itself. stare Only reason why I say that is because last night I was basically balling my eyes out and well I started to talk to myself because of what some little voices were telling me (Yes, I hear voices. Sadly.) and then next thing I knew I was up and about making a lot of noise looking for something for my mom and that part of me is still active. I don't want to sit still, but I must or people will think things about me. So lets hope I can still write. smile
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