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Sibeiko

PostPosted: Sat Jun 06, 2009 9:20 pm


Well, if you all have been in the Skype chat, then you know a lot of what I'ma say here...

And so, I should warn you... and you already know that Sibby's a bit emo... well, he's now a bit more than usual... and that's saying something, ne?


Anyways, instead of starting on the emo stuffs... I'll start on this weekend so far... and why it sucks.

Well, this Friday, I go back home, to hang out with my family, and go with 'em to the annual Billy Bowlegs festival (which started then). Big thing in Ft. Walton... Anyways, we go in, watch some fireworks, generally enjoy ourselves...

And then we go and hang out with some friends (former neighbors) who were celebrating their daughter's graduation... We're sorta close, they're a lot like family...

Anyways, we hang out, have a good time... but my mom has a bit to drink... now, while we're there, she was fine... but she just didn't stop... and as we were coming home... well, she started being mean to me (why do you want to start bitching out your son, who's also your designated driver?)... at about 3:30ish? (am.)

Well, at this point, Sibby's low on sleep, NOT happy... and being bitched at.

So, he gets back home, grabs his stuff, and says ******** it, and leaves. By the time I start getting back to my apartment, the sun is coming up... and Sibby is DEAD tired, on the road...

As in... driving, nearest car is way the ******** down there... close eyes... open... car is now RIGHT ******** NEXT TO ME.

O_O

Sibby should NOT have kept driving.. but he did... and made it back safely, thank God.

Sibby semi-passed out a couple of times.. and was trying desperately not to... and wanted to just get back to his apt. so that he could shower and sleep.

So, I make it back, unload stuff from my car... grab a shower, and pass out at about 7am... and slept till about 3ish?

A'ight... So.. wonderful time with my family, yes?

@____@



Okay, so that parts over... now... the below stuff is going to be a bit emo, ranty, and whatnot... so read at your own peril... >__>( )


Right... well, if you're on the chat, then you know about this... When this last semester ended, Sibby started doing more work in the lab, and his lab partner had graduated... and had a couple of partners thrown on the job to replace the one that had left... the first one, was a girl.

Sibby knew said girl, she was in a couple of his classes, and he was on friendly terms with her...

And since that point, he's been hanging out with her. Alot. In fact, the last couple of weeks, at least half the time, after they're done in the lab (which they're there from 10ish am till 5-7ishpm), we'll usually end up at one or the other's apartment, hanging out.

JUST hanging out. Just friends.

Now, you can guess this is coming, if you didn't already know. Sibby has a thing for this girl... A BIG thing. As in, head over heels, crush on this girl...

And after a bit of talking... She doesn't seem to be interested at all in Sibby. I mean, I get hugs out of her, I just started stealing them from her, too... we hang out a lot... buuuuut... as far as I can tell, she sees me as just a friend...

So, Sibby's feeling really emo about this... :insert the usual Sibby's ugly, doomed, hopeless, never gonna be wanted... etc. rant here:

And so... that bottle of apple brandy that my roommate left when he left, is looking mighty tempting right now... I mean, I wonder if drinking would make the troubles... not as troubling?

However, I think, that if I do that, I'll wind up drunk-dialing her with a long expression of my "heartfelt love" towards her, and wind up making a very awkward situation, and a very mad girl...

And hell, since we're both stuck in the lab, for said long periods of time, I'm stuck... and I can't even try and get away to clear my head!

T__T( )

edit: Oh, and Sibby finally finished a profile on a dating site that one of his friends forced him to do...

http://www.okcupid.com/profile/M_32514/

I was forced... COERCED! Dammit! >_>( )


So... Yeah. That's Sibby's thoughts and whatnot.... Just felt that I had to get 'em off my chest... not that I haven't done so in the chat, sorta... just...

I dunno.

Sorry for making you all put up with me? ._.( )



tl;dr: Sibby's weekend sucked, Sibby has girl issues... what's new?
PostPosted: Sun Jun 07, 2009 7:22 am


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Invite me to this chat. >_>

SQ_AMV

I only have two weeks left so what harm could I Possibly do? lol.

But about your rant~

Have you ever drank before?
Doesn't sound like you have.

Generally, the reason people drink is to wash their worries away. And I'm going to be honest here, it works. But that's no reason to become a drunkard.

College is a difficult time and you'll get over it eventually. I had my fair share of s**t thrown at me (Ugh, honestly I think the s**t that happened at college was worse than what boot camp is going to be) and at this point in time, MAYBE you should tell your friend how you feel.

It seems like you questioned her enough but wtf man, there's no point in not being blunt. At least then you will know, for sure, whether it's hopeless or not. And if it is hopeless, then it is your duty to just be a good friend. And yeah, it's hard, but as I said, you'll get over it. And you'll eventually be a better man for it.

And here's the thing about girls, too: They can grow to like someone.
So even if she says it's hopeless, if you still manage to be friends with her and not ******** it up, she just might turn around and say "You know what, I really do like you in that way."

The other thing, about your mom.
The way you say it, it makes me think she's not a huge drinker. So in my mind there's two possibilities there.
She either got peer pressured into drinking a bunch, because she was partying or whatever. OR
She's depressed/emo by something too and she took the party as a good time to get away from it all.

Your mom's stressed out just like you, and it sucks that she bitched at you, but she didn't really mean it, most likely.
She was drunk and there was misplaced anger/annoyance.

You can deal.

[Q]

Elder


Anagove

PostPosted: Sun Jun 07, 2009 9:09 am


I just woke up so pardon me for ignoring the important stuff-- that seems like a petty cool website though, I think I'll go make a profile. >.>

And I'm sorry about all the icky s**t. sad
PostPosted: Sun Jun 07, 2009 2:40 pm


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-hits sibby over the head with the boddle of brandy- =D Man, your so helpless, but its so adorable xD; Things will get better -snuggles- ^.^

A Dragonflys Sin


MonJ Redux

PostPosted: Sun Jun 07, 2009 3:13 pm


*Is not known for saying anything comforting, but is there for you*

I agree with Q, though. cool
PostPosted: Sun Jun 07, 2009 4:13 pm


Poor Sibby, but your emoing is both pathetic and cute. sweatdrop

Also, this:

[Q]
And here's the thing about girls, too: They can grow to like someone.

So even if she says it's hopeless, if you still manage to be friends with her and not ******** it up, she just might turn around and say "You know what, I really do like you in that way."

is true.


On another aspect Q mentioned, about telling her already:
How long until the semester ends?

I think that, if it hasn't already ended, you should wait a bit, or you're gonna be more worried about her response and more restless than you are ATM. Which wouldn't be exactly good for your studies.

Luna Amatista


Sibeiko

PostPosted: Sun Jun 07, 2009 6:44 pm


Alright...

Q... I dun have anywhere near the balls to go outright and tell her... ._.( )

And as for my mom.. she's usually actually pretty good... but when she does drink... well, she tends not to restrain herself...

._.( )

So... yeah... it's nothing I can't deal with... Doesn't mean that it's not all sorts of fun, though. @_@( )

And Luna, the semester already ended, but we're in the lab constantly together, all throughout summer. o_o( )
PostPosted: Tue Jun 09, 2009 6:06 am


Is it a chemistry lab? surprised *Shot*

Vlad D. Tepes


Nymphiedora
Vice Captain

PostPosted: Tue Jun 09, 2009 7:40 am


Vlad D. Tepes
Is it a chemistry lab? surprised *Shot*

Ahahahahaaaahhaah I get it! rofl
PostPosted: Tue Jun 09, 2009 9:44 pm


Nymphiedora
Vlad D. Tepes
Is it a chemistry lab? surprised *Shot*

Ahahahahaaaahhaah I get it! rofl


...

I dun get it? o_o( )

Sibeiko


[Q]

Elder

PostPosted: Tue Jun 09, 2009 10:02 pm


love is chemistry.
PostPosted: Wed Jun 10, 2009 8:27 pm


Oh.

Meh.

Right... Love's a matter of chemistry, and sex is a matter of physics... ne?

'Course, there's nothing like either of those happening in the Physics lab we're in. @_@( )

Sibeiko

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