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Okay, I'm trying not to panic and have faith, and it seems to be taking the edge off the hysteria.

there's this thing across from my house, when I first stumbled on it I was hit with a queasy, gut clenching feeling and the beginnings of a headache. The most it could do was crowd around me when there wasn't the protection of moonlight or my cats and make me feel panicked and get choked up. It's moving into the house INTO MY ROOM!

I'm having a few issues getting my mind clear and focused enough to cast a proper protection spell or imbue the silver pentacle my mother gave me with such energy. I'm always drained and can never get enough sleep so I'm always tired and I'm pretty sure that issue started around the same time it started creeping in. Any force field I envision is a hell of a lot weaker than it should be and I can't hold it for more than two or three seconds.

The spell I cast was to allow me to see and stand against it, but what I'm hearing are several other things instead. I'm just about at my wits end, and I know it's probably behind me reading this damn thing cuz I can feel it. Any advice would be nice and I'll drink any damn concoction that'll get my mana or whatever back up to where it should be. I used to be able to hold the forcefield for six solid hours and still function with the same reaction time. I can only do one or the other now.

Seconded. It sounds like you got its attention...and sometimes there are things it's better not to be noticed by. I recommend someone who can either negotiate with it or banish it.

Well, since you can't call in a Big Strong Man (no sexism inferred), it looks like you'll have to attempt some DIY.

One of the biggest problems you indicated was the fact that you don't have the energy to fight back at it, right? If that's the case, I'd suggest using (or finding) somewhere other than your home that has a sense of power and meaning to you - somewhere you can effectively "recharge your magic battery". That could be a church, a quiet spot in the woods, a loud spot in a concert, the local lovers' lane (with a suitor, if you're not into dogging), the beach, the top of an apartment complex... anywhere where you can go that feels Significant (capital S) to you. When you get there, you'll want to do something that feels Significant (again capital S) in order to get juice. Prayer, meditation, singing/dancing, ********, bathing in the sea, standing on the ledge of the block of flats -- in respective order -- could help you there. Getting your energy levels up means you can keep your shields up longer, cast any wards or protective spells better, and (hopefully) be able to sleep well enough that your energy doesn't fizzle out.

Why not suck energy from whatever the thing is? That doesn't seem like a bad idea either.

Go ye unto wood and discover.

Um... If it comes from the woods, and those same woods are otherwise a good place for you, the best thing might be to go back into those same woods. I know it's a scary prospect, but sometimes you just have to confront the thing in the place it came from, the place it may even be strongest, or you'll never be rid of it. Go to those woods, and ask anyone/anything that might be listening to help you. It is more likely that you will get honest help than something malicious... and if you get no help, or get only added problems, that also tells you something.

Because you can't and don't want to draw from others and fight it in your home, this is the only other course I can suggest:

If there is anyone you know with a good heart, someone honest and true in their faith (whether that faith be Christian, Wiccan, or what, so long as they pour their heart into it), ask for their help as well. You don't have to tell them everything, by any means, but let them know you feel uneasy and like you're under attack. Phrase it however you think, but the point is that you should let them know you're feeling afraid of something and you'd like their help. Ask them to pray with you or for you, or ask if they have some ritual that could help, or ask them if they can meditate with you--anything. Whatever they do that means a strong cleansing and blessing, or the calling of some higher power or inner power to combat a hostile force.

They don't have to know what you believe, or what you know the problem to be, to do this. If they press, just say you're not okay talking about it (unless you are okay talking about it, of course). All they have to know is that you're afraid and asking for their help. No matter how uncomfortable you may be asking, please do so if you know of anyone like this. Faith taps a strong, strong power against evil, no matter where that evil comes from or how powerful it is.

Sounds like nerves to me. Rub your temples and have some tea. If you must, add some exotic herb for placebo effect. Or smoke some other kind of herb to keep calm. Bring snacks.

Thanks. It's been a thought in the back of my head that it's all in my head, but the fact that two of my friends felt it's effects as well makes me doubt it some.

Unfortunately my mother has banned me from taking the thing on or even setting foot in the woods. I'll try a few things and if they don't work out I'll see if anyone has any other ideas. Thanks again.

i mean go to a public place. (never mind though considering you have a moral code against it.)