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 Posted: Mon May 18, 2009 5:24 pm
I'm sure i've lost a very close friend of mine.
[ heh... this might be a bit long and a bit mean ><']
She yelled at me and blamed me for her sadness. I wasn't sure what to think at first and I pleaded like hell for her to stay and that i'd help make it better, but she didn't listen to me. I don't think she understood how much it hurt to have her do that. It wasn't even the first time. I didn't even know I was hurting her, maybe it's all my fault. I'm pretty sure it is. But she came back smiling and happy, she didn't ask for my forgiveness after i spent days crying and worrying for her. Did she even care about me? By the time she'd came back i was so far removed from how our relationship was. It took me 2 days to completly hate even her name and for some reason hating her made everthing better in my mind. [ don't worry, i think i already realized that i am a bit crazy O.o] It was bad enough having to hear her name every day, she'd come up to me kindly and act like things were before, but everything changed before she even knew it. Even now she doesn't even understand what she did wrong and that is wasn't " small" I don't think i want to tell her either.
Well, my problem is, I have many friends who are friends with her. It's hard to do anything without her getting invited and all i do is put her down and people think of me as a jerk for it. [ i seriously can't help it...] I don't understand how to tell them that our relationship was dead and gone. How do I explain that to them?
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Posted: Wed Sep 30, 2009 4:17 pm
this sounds A LOT like me and my ex friend kelsey. finally what we did was talk about it and we chose not to hate each other, but not to be friends eather. that way we can co. exsist without wanting to hurt each other. but i think r issues were that im very negative and the only time i was happy is when i was talking about my bf taylor. she didnt like that and always tried to tell me what to do. sad emo like kids just dont mix with barbie girls.
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