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Something I wrote in the last five minutes due to a song, don't expect much.

I didn’t feel I belonged something was wrong
Something was badly wrong inside of me
My mind was confined and I didn’t belong
It felt wrong for me to exist, to simply be

And people would laugh, people would cry
And yet I would feel numbness inside
I would twist truth I would lie and lie
To keep them from the demons I felt reside

I ripped through rubies dripped through
Fell like my tears to the ground
And soon I would find to each scar anew
Another one would soon be found

But soon even this did bring no bliss
And the darkness grew inside of me
There was no cure or help for this
To cure it I simply had to no longer be

I set the date, the date of my fate
I tied the ends that I believe loose
No time to turn back it was too late
As around my neck I felt the noose

Help was there but I didn’t ever care
For they were wrong and I was right
Lying to myself I felt my heart tear
When looking back in my hindsight

I wish I’d told them, let them know then
That I had I needed help right away
I wished I’d told them just to let them
For the to Know that I wasn’t ok

And though it seems like a bad dream
Certain feelings I find still do remain
And I now live still always wondering
Whether that I will ever feel the same

Without help I worked through it all
I stood on my feet and roared out aloud
Yet it took for long for me to stand tall
By myself because I was too proud