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 Posted: Thu May 14, 2009 6:35 pm
(Continued from Inthread rp) The branches and leaves whipped by her unnoticed, her eyes only seeing the images of her nightmares replaying over and over again. She was unable to make them stop. Facing them had seemed like the solution when they started, but it seemed she wasn't strong enough to, as they persisted now in the waking world as well.
"Just-leave me alone!" she cried, talking more to herself than anyone else she might think was present. It was possible Tai had followed her, but due to previous encounters she was highly doubtful of that. All she wanted was for her mind to regain its clarity. But it didn't look like that was going to happen anytime soon, what she had thought would save her from madness instead driving her to its brink.
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Posted: Thu May 14, 2009 6:56 pm
**Tai ran and stopped right before Nek***** ** what the hell she been through....she reminds me of Edward...but it's only when he sleeps he's like this.....not when he's awake....what do I do..... **she walks closer and nuzzles Nek***** and hugs her close**** hard not caring how violent Nek***** becomes**
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Posted: Thu May 14, 2009 7:34 pm
Nek was shocked into silence at feeling arms encircle her, at first not knowing what she should do. When her voice could finally work again she yelled, "Let me go!"
Her arms being pinned to her sides she stood up waveringly, taking a few steps forward before she lost her balance and fell into a tree. "Stop it!" she whimpered, the impact making her close her eyes and see her nightmares once more as vividly as if they were right before her.
"STOP IT!" she screamed, trying to drive the image from her mind and the arms from her body at the same time, not even knowing if they were still there. Reality was beginning to fade on her, making her not know what was in her mind and what was outside of it. Whether or not her eyes were open or closed. She lounged forward, driving herself into another tree more forcefully than the last, falling to the ground and wincing at the sound that came from her collarbone at the impact.
She finally stopped fighting, simply laying there and trying to catch her lagging breath, "What do you want from me?"
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Posted: Thu May 14, 2009 7:47 pm
**Tai moved and held Nek**** head and massaged it** relax, you are stronger then those thoughts, you have the power to kick them aside, the power to give them importance or worthless garbage **has been through this with Kaiko and Edward, dreams and thoughts like these could kill a persons mind** Relax, just think of something that made you happy, real happiness, that gave you power, thats what gives you strength, these thoughts, throw them away**knowing Lillith herself needed help with this, she tried her hardest** You don't need to face this pain alone, I can help you get rid of it, life doesn't always have to be painful and horrible.....**pets her hair making a calming purr to sooth Nek***** **
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Posted: Thu May 14, 2009 7:57 pm
The stroking and calm words only incensed Nek more, causing her to struggle to sit up and run away again.
"I don't need your help! I don't want it!" she said, stumbling a few feet away, "Just leave me alone!" Having not had much for sustinance or sleep in the past few days she knew her strength wouldn't carry her far, so her only hope was to get Tai to go away.
The images danced in front of her, causing her to scream and grip her sword handle, preparing to get up and run again, swinging the blade at anything that might try to get in her way. Her rage was building and there wasn't much she could do to stop it other than trying to tire herself out to the point of sleep without dreams.
How she longed for that sleep, when nothing could touch her and no one could bother, and nothing could take over her eyes and make her sees things she knew did not exist in the present yet could not deny from the past.
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Posted: Thu May 14, 2009 8:05 pm
ugh **Tai gets slashed on the shoulder and dodges then dissapears, then a few moments later she came back as Nek***** stopped swinging, she limped forward and dropped a leaf with fruit in it** Eat, You are going to die if you don't, and dieing like that is not how you want to go I suppose....
**tai sits down hard distant enough so she wont get slashed again, starts licking her wound, its not too deep, she moved fast enough, but it still hurt like hell**
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Posted: Thu May 14, 2009 8:17 pm
The sight of the fruit made her drop again to her knees, her stomache vocally reminding her how long it had been since she'd last eaten. She turned away from it at first, then turned back to devour the food as fast as her hands could get it to her mouth, clutching her stomache when she realized she'd eaten too much and too fast.
"This... Is not enjoyable..." she panted, trying to pick up her sword from where it had fallen on the ground only to have her fingers fail her and her weight suddenly become too heavy for her arms to bare. She was asleep before she hit the ground, finally exhausted and stuffed to the point where her body could drop into the dreamless sleep.
The problem was, it wasn't the dreamless sleep that she needed; it was the sleep with dreams. Without nightmares but with dreams, to calm her psyche and to rest her mind. In her current state she could receive none of that and it was clearly taking its toll.
Her eyes were closed but they still looked tired, one arm was crooked uncomfortably looking behind her back as she lay on her side, her knees still bent from how she had been kneeling moments before. And yet, not a sound came from her past her breathe and not a twinge of uneasiness was there to be felt from her presence. Though she wouldn't be free from herself when she woke up, for the moment, she was free in sleep.
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Posted: Thu May 14, 2009 8:22 pm
**tai moved her carefully into a comfterble positioning cooing a dreamy story in Nek****s ear to try and get her to have a happy dream, all about all the wonderful things shes heard of different worlds and of thier great creatures and loving families eating pick nicks... she kept on for hours until she too fell asleep with Nek***** on her lap**
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Posted: Sat May 16, 2009 4:54 pm
The whisper of birdsong in her ears brought Nek slowly back to the waking world. She paused to simply listen to the birds for a moment, letting her sensations, and mind, come to her one at a time. The last thing that came to her was the realization that someone was on her lap. Thinking it was Reina, she paused a little before starting to gently shove the Namir off.
Her eyes revealed someone else, making her jump up and dump the Namir on her lap onto the ground. "Who-what?!" she gasped, then growled, recognizing Tai, "What are you doing here?!" The events of the past night came back to her and she scowled, wincing and trying to keep the reason she had acted so irrationally from reentering her mind.
"What do you want from me?!" she snarled, backing away until she ran into a tree that prevented her from retreating farther.
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Posted: Sat May 16, 2009 5:48 pm
Tai gets up limping on her right side, the blood caking her fur. "I want to be sure you are okay..." she leans against a tree. "I was worried about you, you were really upset...I helped you out, I want you to be ok." She lays down, to show she isn't being aggressive.
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Posted: Wed May 20, 2009 10:07 am
Nek's eyes widened at seeing the blood on Tai's fur, making her look down at her sword in a panic. A groan escaped her lips and she sank to her knees, gripping the hilt and gritting her teeth. "Why?" she asked, her jaw still clenched, "I did not ask for your help, you did not act like one who would actually give anyone help the last time I met you, why would you try to help me now?"
It was all she could ask at the moment. Her sword rang as she slammed it into its scabbard and she abruptly stood, planning to stalk off into the woods again, wanting to regain her focus. The sight of the blood had brought Byrnar's image back; even with her eyes opened she could still see it. She resisted the urge to cry out or try to let her fears get the better of her.
Small time though it would last, she had determined not to let the nightmares win. She knew they would overwhelm her again, but she wouldn't let them do so until there was no one else around that she could accidentally hurt. "You see," she scoffed, her voice soaked in irony, "If you can't even keep a deranged me away from you you have no hope of going against Kuit. It's better if you stay away from me... You'll just get yourself killed... Like everyone else..."
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Posted: Wed May 20, 2009 2:37 pm
It's my choice to stay by you, I don't want you alone....being alone is terrible sometimes. And I don't mind when you are out of it, like last time we talked I was out of it....**she sat up straighter so her wound didnt look as bad, it wasn't deep, just bled abit** I know I didn't act like myself earlier, I was just out of it **shakes head** But I made up my mine last night that I vam to stay by your side and do my best to fight along with you and so on. **smiles** Friends are worth dying over, especially ones who need friends, and yes I know you don't think you do, and maybe you don't, but....I need a good friend I can trust too. I'm not afraid of death if it helps you out. **she rubs her eyes** I know what I'm getting into.... and to me, it's a worthy cause.
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Posted: Wed May 20, 2009 4:24 pm
(So not what Nek wants to hear >.> ) "I'm used to being alone," she replied, her tone now icy, "And when you were out of it you only threatened to kill me; I actually attacked you. And being out of it is no excuse, when one has a weapon or a power they need to keep it under control no matter what the circumstance or they risk doing something they regret..."
The same went for the risks of not doing something with a power or weapon when something should be done, but to resist further self-inflicted damage to her mental state she neglected to say so out loud.
"I don't need anyone I can trust and even if I did, that trust would have to be earned, you can't just expect to say some pretty words and everything else will be discounted," she said, half growling. She scoffed a little and then continued, "And if you really aren't afraid of death then you should be; what do you think your precious mate would do if you died?"
"Besides, that's the problem," she whispered to herself as she continued her walk into the woods, leaving Tai behind, "I can't trust anyone to not die for me."(And this will be Nek's last post since I need to end with her in this mood so as to keep latter rps within the emotional timeline)
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