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 Posted: Mon May 11, 2009 12:26 pm
It had been months since Persy had seen Kieran last. Or it seems like it had been that long anyway. Persy had seen him in passing but she was always met with a steely gaze or a quick dash away. At the start she was afraid she had done something wrong. That maybe the tomcat would need just a little space but as days turned into weeks and weeks into months it seems like the male was actively avoiding her. This broke Persy's heart. She had never truely loved someone like she loved him. Infact she had never loved anyone in that way till him. She had given him everything, everything.
This everything had lead to problem two. Over the last month or so she had noticed changes in her rather lean psyique. She had never been overweight in her entire life but over the last month she seemed to have put on a rather large amount of weight on her tummy. Persy had increased her exercise routine to twice the amount she nomally did and stopped eating as much as she had been but the weight simply didn't want to leave. Infact it seemed to be increasing. Now Persy wasn't a stupid cat to say the least. Yes she was naieve but even a cat as naieve as her could grasp the signs of pregnancy. When she was sure the first thing she promised herself was that Kieran would never know. After all he obviously didn't love her at all. He infact had been ignoring her entierly. She didn't want him clinging to her because of kittens. After all she could take care of herself. Infact she had half adopted a kitten in the last month which she had been taking care of. This proved to herself that she could take care of kittens aswell as herself.
So Persy kept her secret to herself. Slowly changing her style from her rather skimpy godess atire to more modest dresses. All still in a greek style. Most of them had baggy fronts, making sure that if Kieran were to wander past he would never even know. After Persy had finished her guard duty she descided to go for a walk, to try and clear her head a little. But her feet simply took her back to the park where she had spent that wonderful day with Kieran. She couldn't take it anymore. With a small yowl of pure pain she collapsed on the side of a fountain as tears fell down her face.
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Posted: Mon May 11, 2009 12:56 pm
Mirelle was walking in the park, singing quietly to herself.
A warrior poet once said you're not dead yet so live your life like you could be
A warrior poet said have no regrets when you're old,
have no regrets when your old~"
life had taken a turn or the better now that she had moved out of her alley.
Granted she did sort miss thrashing about the tomcats, but on the upside, she was getting a great deal more sleep and and peace in her life.
Mirelle was nearing the fountain when she heard someone cry out.
She rounded the fountain to see that someone had collapsed by the fountains edge.
"Are you alright?" she asked, rushing over to them.
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Posted: Mon May 11, 2009 1:10 pm
Luckily Persy collapsing was right on her bum, not injuring anything that was happily nestled inside of her. She looked up, her eyes streaming with tears to see Mirelle, the cat that had tried to save her from Kieran all that time ago. She had told her to say no but Persy was far too taken in by Kierans charm to care. But Persy tried to suck it up. She quickly wiped her eyes and sat up on the side of the fountain. "I-I'm fine. Nothing's broken or even scrathed." she told Mirelle in a fake voice that tried to imitate cheerfulness. This, of course, was very obvious to see though. Persy's heart was broken and all by some manwhore of a cat who didn't seem to even care about her.
Unfortinatly Persy had gotten to the stage that even a well altered dress couldn't entirly cover up what she was trying too. In her confusion by the fountain she sat down sort of awkwardly, tightening the dress around her, making it very obvious of her stomach. Of course she didn't notice this. She was too busy try to cover up her crying.
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Posted: Mon May 11, 2009 6:20 pm
Mirelle politely ignored Percy's crying, letting her take her time to calm down, but as her eye's traveled over Percy, she noticed a definite change in Percy's physique. Last Mirelle saw her, Percy was lean, and in excellent form. But now.... she was much larger, especially around...
...oh...
Mirelle's eyes widened but she had the sense not to say anything. Percy looked in a terrible mood enough as it is.
"I'm glad you are not injured." Mirelle chose her words carefully, not wanting to upset the cat any further. Percy was obviously not wanting to draw attention to her... pregnancy, so Mirelle was going to respect that. But Mirelle felt a need to help however she could. It would be completely against her entire being to overlook the distress of another.
"I hope it is not out of my place to ask, but is there anything you would like to talk about? You seemed... distressed. I do pride myself on being a good listener." Mirelle gave a small smile.
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Posted: Tue May 12, 2009 3:20 am
Persy wiped her eyes softly, trying her very best to control her crying. It had all gotten a bit too much for her. So she couldn't help but cry a little more, letting her tears fall on her clothes softly. When she finally recovered herself to a stage that she could talk she signed. "That...thank you, that be nice." she said softly, her voice quiet and faltering. It was something she didn't want to talk about because one she did it would make all her worries become reality and she wasn't sure that she could handle that. But then again she couldn't keep all this emotion pent up any more. She felt like she was going to burst with anger and sorrow and fear. Myabe the best thing to do would be to just talk to someone.
Tears started to stream down her face as she spoke quietly. "I...I should have listened to you all that time ago. When you tackled...him...." she flinched. It hurt to much to even say his name out loud right now. She would just have to hope that Mirelle would understand who she was talking about. "I should have run away. I should have ignored him! I should have....I dunno...I shouldn't have gotten involved with him. He...he broke my heart. He left me like this! How could he do this to he?" she cried, her heart full of sorrow. "I'm such a stupid, naieve cat! I'v been played by the worst kind of person." Persy wiped more tears away softly, sniffing gently. "You were right about him. Men arn't to be trusted."
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Posted: Tue May 12, 2009 10:32 am
Mirelle had an urge to hug Percy, then and there, to hold her to her chest and let Percy cry everything out. But Mirelle wasn't quite sure how she would take it so instead she handed Percy a handkerchief.
"Here." Mirelle said softly.
Mirelle smiled to herself. "Let me tell you a story. My story, actually. I was in love once... about five our six years ago. His name was Jerren. That's his handkerchief actually. One night, we were out being stupid kids." Mirelle laughed softy a far away look in her eyes. "We went into an alley, i don't know why, i guess cause it was there. We were fooling around and i... i got trapped in a dumpster... i passed out. When i woke up, i was surrounded by tomcats. The biggest, crudest, bastards i have ever meet." Mirelle's jaw clenched. "They had their way with me... I still... I can't get that out off my head... When they left me... I wondered why Jerren hadn't come and saved me. I was furious... at everything, and that anger gave me the strength to get up and fight back." Mirelle laughed bitterly. " I remember that next night, i ambushed the tomcat's leader and scratched out he's eyes. Made him regret ever touching me. But that anger took something from me. It took away my belief that I could ever be in love again. That i could ever be happy again."
Mirelle was quiet for a while. "I guess the point... of my rambling tale that probably got completely off topic is that... I became bitter and hard because I had to, in order to survive. I had as much anger and sorrow that you have now, and it took me five years to even begin to get over it. I'd hate to see that happen to you."
Mirelle laughed "It was actually Aidan, one of the BIGGEST pigs I know that helped me realize that yes, men are pigs, but not all of them are. And we shouldn't throw them all away."
Mirelle laughed again. "I'm sorry... I offer to listen and then I talk your ear off. Is there anything else you needed to say?"
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Posted: Wed May 13, 2009 6:03 am
Persy stopped crying, using the hankercheif to whip the tears from her eyes, which had previously been leaving damp patches on her dress. She listened, with mild horror as Mirelle told her story. She had never heard something quite so horrible, bar Kierans own story. "Oh Mirelle!" she exlaimed. "I never knew! That's just horrid!" After that she wasn't sure what to say. It seemed that Mirelle was almost over it at this point. She seemed to have just gotten over it and started living her life again, even if it took a while.
Persy smiled. "I think you helped me a bit. I mean this" she gestured to her protuding stomach. "Isn't anything in comparison to what you went though. But I still don't know what to do. I mean do you think I should try to talk through things with him? Val told me that he did actually love me and he's just a coward, but I'm not sure I believe her..." Persy said softly, looking at her hands as she spoke. "...I mean he hasn't tried to talk to me once since that night...and actively runs away from me. That doesn't seem like the behaviour of a cat in love now does it?" she asked sadly. "And I don't want him to think he's obliged to be with me just because of my situation...not if there's no love there. And I'm afraid...so afraid to ask him straight out incase he does just want to abandon me. What should I do?" she asked Mirelle, looking over at her, her eyes glistening with tears Persy tried so hard to fight off.
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Posted: Wed May 13, 2009 9:46 am
"I don't mind if you cry," Mirelle said gently, "I've done a fair amount of that myself. That's what the handkerchief is for, so you don't get your beautiful dress any more wet than it already is, and I'm sure you've held all this in for far to long."
Mirelle looked out over the park. "I think the question you should ask yourself is if you would rather live with the uncertainty of what might or might not be, or the certainly of what is. With certainly comes determination, and the motivation to get things done whatever the circumstances. Uncertainty..." Mirelle smiled and shook her head. "tears you apart. All uncertainty becomes is fear and regret. So, yes, i think you should talk to him. To me, if he's running away from you so much, its not that he doesn't care about you anymore, it's just that he's running away from something he feels or that he fears. So, maybe if you give him your certainty, he'll give you his, whatever it maybe. And then you can move forward with confidence."
"And if there is anyway i can help at all, just ask." Mirelle added.
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Posted: Wed May 13, 2009 10:53 am
Persy listened to Mirelle quietly, intently. She needed advice from someone and it seemed that Mirelle really knew what she was talking about, maybe from experience or maybe because she was just a good speaker but either way Persy couldn't help but feel that her advice was right. It seemed stupid to keep running away like this. She started to feel that she was running away from him, metally anyway, as much as he was running away from her. She couldn't help but feel slightly stupid. Mirelle had been through so much more than her and ended up being so stong. In comparison she couldn't handle anything. In this situation she just cave in. But she promised herself, right here, that she would become stronger. The way to put this into action would be to confront Kieran. She knew that it was going to take a lot of strength but she knew it was the right thing to do. Otherwise she was just running away. Otherwise she was being just as much of a coward as everyone was saying he was. And she knew she could be strong. And she knew that she should tell him everything.
She looked up, speaking softy to Mirelle. "I...I think I should do it. Can you help me talk to him. Make sure he shows up and doesn't run away. Plus I think I'll need moral support so I dont run away either. I'm not a strong cat, not yet anyway." she said, quietly. "How do you think I should go about this? You seem to give very good advice. And I'm afraid" she said with a smile, her tears finally drying up.
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Posted: Wed May 13, 2009 11:20 am
Mirelle giggled, "I'll pin him down if it comes to it."
Sobering up, Mirelle continued "Of course I'll be there to support you. And thank you. I do try." Mirelle thought seriously. "We can worry about how we'll get a hold of him later. That's just a matter of logistics. How to tell him, though. I, personally, would confront him straight out. However much I try, subtly it not one of my strong points. Tactfulness, maybe, but not subtly." Mirelle smiled at Percy. "You said that Val described him as a coward. Perhaps, if you should him there was nothing to fear, the boy might get his head out of his butt and come around to what a wonderful woman you really are. And don't you forget that either. None of this calling yourself stupid and naive, you hear me?" Mirelle teased, grinning widely.
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Posted: Wed May 13, 2009 12:11 pm
Persy laughed, for the first time in quite a while. She couldn't help but feel so much better about her situation. Just talking to someone helped so much but more than anything talking to Mirelle made Persy feel like she could actually have the courage to do this, to confront the tomcat with all of her strength. "From how fast he runs away it may come to that!" she said with a grin. "I guess confronting him straight out would probably be best. Unless I tell him straight out he may not believe me! Or try to squirm away saying he doesn't believe me! All I can do is hope that he does really share my feelings. Then I'll tell him about the kittens, though from what I've gathered it's getting pretty obvious at this point." she said with a small smile. She was feeling a good bit better now. She couldn't mope around forever. She had to be strong and get him to listen to her by sheer force. Persy smiled softly. "Thank you. I think I might actually be able to do it now."
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Posted: Wed May 13, 2009 12:29 pm
"Good. You just focus on getting what you want to say out there. Fretting will do you no good." Mirelle smiled back at her.
"Now come on." Mirelle said, standing up and offering a hand to Percy.
"Let's go find us a stupid tomcat."
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Posted: Wed May 13, 2009 12:39 pm
Persy smiled. "Right!" she said before taking her hand, having slight trouble getting up with both lightheadedness from crying and simply being pregnant but with a helping hand she walked beside Mirelle, gathing her courage quietly beside her. If anyone else were about they would be able to see the determanation in her eyes and on her face. She walked with an elegent grace that seemed to show just how ready she was. As they walked she though of what to say and what to just plain punish him for but if any other cat were to look at her they would see a cat that was ready.
Persy was ready.
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