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I'm not really expecting analysis.. the dream is a pretty standard manifestation of my fear that my ex wants to kill me. Let me start by saying I am by no means "the hottest thing this side of the Mississippi" so this isn't a stuck up sort of how-could-he-possibly-get-over-this. He's just that freakin' crazed. A big part of the reason I left is because he scared me. It's been FOUR years and he still asks about me. Bitches about how we left it and blahblahblah.

ANYWAY in this dream I was on a road trip with my parents,
which is weird because 1. they're divorced 2. my dad never goes anywhere.
Well dreams can be kind of non-linear and jump from moment to moment so one moment I'm in the car lost in downtown New Orleans trying to get my dad to understand he needs to go THIS way. But he goes that way and here we are in front of ex-man's house. Next thing I know we're going inside [dream self is in panicpanicPANIC mode and I bet if someone had been taping me as I slept I was seriously thrashing about.]

His mom says something like "I knew you'd be back" and when she smiles she has no teeth.

She fades away and I walk into his bedroom. WHY? burning_eyes

Every letter I sent him, printouts of every IM chat we had, photos of me sleeping, drawings of bound women. The creepy just keeps on coming. I hear my mom say something about how f*cked this is and the rest of the dream is one of those where something is chasing you but you never see it, you just keep running through all these rooms and trying to block its [his] path with furniture.

That's about it. Any other details escape me except that it was absurdly sunny outside his bedroom window. Like I said I'm not asking for analysis if something comes to mind... do tell. But I'm thinking? My abusive ex has just damaged my psyche.