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Ok. So I've been with my girlfriend for a little over 10 months. New Years will be our anniversary..

We tried to see each other this summer. Things, I think, would have been easier then.. but due to things going on with her.. it didn't work out. She was so busy and it just wouldn't have worked. So we planned to do something this Christmas and New Years. We actually had everything planned and her parents are ok with me coming. They thought of places to take me and all that good stuff. We planned the days exactly.. what day I'd leave and at what time... What day I'd return and at what time.

I knew I needed to get a job.. but Im so ******** shy that it just never happened and my mom didn't even really help me even tho I asked her for help. So I thought "Well.. my mom owes me money. Maybe she'll pay me back by buying the tickets for me". I should have known better! I shouldn have KNOWN. Now she's saying she has to think it over. Im fine with that. The tickets are expesive.. But the fact that she has always ALWAYS blown all my dreams of going somewhere different to Hell just makes me uneasy. Im afraid that I wont have the money.. and this trip means a whole lot to me.

And so now.. Im mentally beating myself up because I KNEW. I knew that I should have gotten a job when I could. With or without my mother's help I should have tried.. and it's too late to find a job so soon and come up with $400. Im such a lazy a** p***k... crying

Oooo that's cool. ^___^

And one of my good friends said she wanted to help me make some money.. but so far all we've thought of is to sell art with the help of my former art teacher. Im going to wait to see what my mom says. I've been trying to let her know that this trip is important to me without actually saying that to her. Maybe I could work something out. Meh.. this is gonna be tough.

Thanks Baka Tulip for the ideas. I'll keep those in mind. (hugs back)

Bake Slaes are always fun... if you can bake that is sweatdrop