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 Posted: Sun Apr 19, 2009 4:12 am
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Posted: Sun Apr 19, 2009 4:56 am
April 19th
Well I am an adult now so I decided I should keep one of these. When I was younger I tried making friends....but no-one liked me...Except for Kaiko... It was very lonely, I was very sad. I had Ko ko (my nick name for Kaiko) to comfort me at night, I hid my tears from him...I would cry myself to sleep almost every night... I don't know if it's because people don't like me or they don't like Lillith my friend, she's the leader of my family, no blood, but close enough.
She found me alone with Ko ko, At first I thought Ko ko and I where related, but now Lillith and I know we aren't, because He is demonic and I am not. It is like at birth we were meant to be with each other, I really love him, and I can tell he really loves me, tho I can tell he is shy. I know him being demonic that he was going to be a very sneaky bad guy (well I sensed it at birth) But I feel I changed that in him, not trying to make myself feel special, I know I'm not, if I was I would be able to make friends.
I feel very uncomfy around others, when I try to have conversations they leave or just ignore me. I should be used to it by now though. It doesn't effect me, it's just sad, no-one will give me a chance, only Ko ko and Lillith. But you know, I would rather have 2 good friends I can trust then 100 I can't. I despise fair weather friends.
Ko ko is still sleeping **looks over at him** He really is special, I hope one day we will have kit's of our own. Lillith wants her family to grow but it's seeming to be very hard, lol, she is like a mother I never had, wanting grand children.
I think Hobo, Ko ko's friend is going to make him an anthro...I'm not going to become one, I like the way I am. Oh I forgot to mention Edward (him being so small I forgot about him) hehe, He is a lil guy, alot of spunk and plays around with Lillith. People think she is really rough to him, especially yesterday, but He was just acting when he was in the lake, he wanted to see if anyone would rescue him, so did Liullith, but no-one did so she jumped in after him so he would't feel stupid coming back up. Lillith got into trouble for that, but people don't understand how they are. I know Edward loves Lillith, and she loves him. They both get lonely like me, but I usually am with Ko ko so I don't see it.
I feel bad for Edward, I don't think anyone takes him serious, I mean he is only a teen now, but he had to mature very fast, yes he acts childish, but that's his personality. I really think Chouko I think it is? are getting closer. She looks past his craziness. I'm very glad, everyone needs someone.
I am also worried about Lillith, I fear no-one likes her, that's why she plays around with Edward so much, I feel she thinks she doesn't fit in. Rping is supposed to be fun, but maybe they think she is no good at it. I know I'm not supposed to know about Rping, but I just sense things and I see things and they just seem right. I guess I have a good intuition.
The weird thing is, I'm a good hunter but Ko ko isn't hehe. I don't mind, I like getting him food, doing things for him makes me happy, he makes me happy. I sometimes sleep in Lillith's bed, when everyone is sleeping I sneak back out and cuddle with Ko ko. I don't think Lillith will mind If I don't live in the house with Edward and her, I'm just an outside kind of girl.
Lillith has to clean up and get things organized in her house, there are so many bedrooms in her house, I wonder if she will ever fill them? She has one on her mind, she seen the parent's and knows the baby will be beautiful. They are wild tho, so none have human friends, but they agreed when they give birth, she can pick one to take care of, they know she will take good care of it. They are angelic! I wonder what an angelic would be like, I never met one.
I have never seen them myself, and Lillith does not know their names, they kinda don't have names, it's our human friends that kinda name us, I like it tho, I have seen many guys with the name Tai, Lillith even named me after her male feline. I don't mind tho, it is a pretty name.
I think the only one of Lillith's pets that will turn anthro will be Edward. But I could be wrong.
Well Thats enough for now, for someone who is quiet around others like me, sure talks alot, hehe.
Tai<3~~~~
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Posted: Mon Apr 20, 2009 6:38 am
April 20th 09
Today I got into a big fight with a jerk named Albaine, but I took it too personal that I made Lillith look bad and feel awful. I have no clue if everyone won't like me anymore, even though I haven't been really noticeable before yesterday. I wish I just turned and walked away, but my ego got the best of me and might have made a nice person think less of Lillith, and Albaine might of made one of his friends hate me aswell. I understand that much, you have to vent to friends, I couldn't vent because Ko ko was out and I fell asleep before he got home. But I don't need to vent, I didn't really need to vent yesterday though, I just feel awful with the whole situation.
I'm not caring what Albaine thinks of me, I'm much more worried about Lillith and Saras friendship, if there is one between them? I have no clue. but I'm going to bed feeling awful, and I know Lillith is very sad. **sigh** I hate drama...
Tai<3~~~
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Posted: Thu Apr 23, 2009 2:22 pm
April 22
I miss Kaiko, I mean yea he is around, but it's like we aren't getting as close as I want....>///< I love my Koko<3 We cuddle when we sleep, that/s great!, but I'm usually off investigating strange things or hunting supper for us both. You know for a demon, he is more like an angel, he really makes me feel so happy. I hope we have kits someday <3
I think Lillith is bugging Koko's Hobo Pixi? I dunno, humans are way to crazy to understand >.<
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Posted: Thu Apr 30, 2009 7:47 pm
April 30th 09
Ugh, I was hunting for my supper, which I hadn't eaten for two days because I was ill, well this annoying girl made the animal get away. fought with me for like two hours, acted like she had the hardest life ever -.-. Oh and assumed she was the strongest and could kill me. Yea if she would lose that sword and was back to being an animal, I prob could take her at her size anyways.... Luckily I caught two mice and they filled me up enough.
The whole time she wined about how hard she has it and wahh wahhh wahhh. -.- gave me a head ache. Thank gawd she left when she did so I could get home before Ko ko fell asleep.
that's pretty much all that's happened today.
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Posted: Tue May 05, 2009 7:20 am
May 4th
I got into a fight kinda today, was just protecting Lillith, but I didn't realize she was protecting her eggs. I admitted my mistake and Lillith and I gave her a necklace with some lockets on it for her children. Ko ko came and pulled me away from the drama. kinda glad, had no idea she was so pissed off at me, I just sat there. I wonder if she will have issues with Lillith again, if she does I'm staying out of it, Lillith can handle herself.
Tai~~~
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Posted: Wed May 06, 2009 3:19 am
May 5th
Today was strange, I really tried making friends today, I got a cookie ^_^ It's hard for me to make friends, I also hear that Nek chick is talking crap about me. She has a few screws loose, very annoying, she needs a good boot in the a**, thinks shes the only one who sufferd, and needs her sword to fight. She wasn't worth fighting so she says all I do is b***h. pfft, she is quite an idiot, but shes not my problem, thank gawd!!
Tai~~~
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Posted: Sun May 17, 2009 3:15 am
May 15th
I feel very lonely, I mean Kaiko is there, but he isn't..... I'm very sad....
Tai~~~
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