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Okay, here goes. This'll be my first time posting in this bit, ever, but I felt I just needed to talk about this.

I've been feeling fairly low. Not all the time, but when it strikes, it strikes hard. I believe this is for multiple reasons: Distance from my girlfriend, residual sadness over the breakup of my last girlfriend, my status and situation at school, and a failure to achieve various aspirations.

I'm going to start with the one that I feel is contributing to this the most: Julia. My ex. I can no longer remember how I met Julia, but we hit it off pretty quickly, and became fast friends. For about a year, I listened to her b***h and moan about boyfriends, parents, stalkers, etc etc. Eventually, she got sick of the people around her, and we struck up a relationship. It was absolute heaven for her. I got a fair amount of flack from a couple of friends on here, who shall go nameless, who she offeneded, and pissed off. In all honesty, she was a complete b***h, with little regard for the feelings of others. But I loved her. I really did, or at least I thought I did.

But anyway, lets skip ahead a bit, to August, 2008. I am in New York, a long distance from my native home of East Anglia, England. I'm on holiday, and one day of the week we are there, Julia and I meet. We have a wonderful time, see a movie, go to an art gallery, etc etc. Then the next day, I find out that she's run away from home. My whole family gets involved in a very upsetting night, and we all go to bed worried. After that, I don't hear much till I get back home. Anyway, next thing I hear, she's back at home, her dad's been arrested, and she's suicidal. Then she dumps me. That was in September. I still haven't got over her. Honestly, I wish she'd go burn in hell.

Anyway, enough about her. My next, horribly blown out of proportion problem is my current relationship. Another long-distance one, this one I am depressed about not because it's going badly, rather the opposite. It's going well. Well enough that I wish she was with me, or I with her. Sure, we can talk to each other, but sometimes, *hug* isn't really enough. I've fallen in love again, as I am wont to do. But since my girlfriend lives in Canada, I sometimes doubt I'll ever get to see her, or that by the time I get the chance, we'll have gone our separate ways. Still, I insist on persevering in this relationship. Hopefully, one day I will see her.

Next up on my list of Wangst is my school life. At school, I have no friends. Well, this is not true. I have many friends. Just... I don't fit in to any social group. I'm always the outsider looking in, always excluded from the big social events because I'm not a real member. I flit from group to group, and have made more than a few enemies in every group. Some of these have created very, very big rifts between be and other mutual friends, who have stopped being friends with me, because of the enemies I have made. Even those whom I have made up with are very distant to me.

And finally, I reach the one I want to talk about the least. My failure to achieve certain aspirations. Whenever I start anything new, I always have one single desire. And so far, in nothing I have taken part in, I have achieved that goal. And seeing others achieve it would very much effort, it seems... It makes me feel bad about myself.

As with all my problems, I know they pale in comparison to those of others. Many of them are my own damn fault, and all of them are completely insignificant in the long run. I guess I'm just at the age, (15 btw) where I feel the need to wangst about meaningless crap. Thank you for taking the time to read this SG. It feels good to have talked to someone about this.

TL;DR: Hattie is whining about various trivial things that have made him feel fairly low. None of them are particularly important, but talking about them makes him feel better.

"Don't fear difficult moments the best comes from them."

I TOTALLY thought you were older before I read that.
Advice:

1. Bitches are Bitches. We can't help you let someone go. It'll go away with time.

2. Long distance sucks and you need to be a big boy and deal with it or p***y out.

3. High School sucks. It sucks for everyone. DEAL with it.


4. You're right. Your life ISN'T as bad as others. So focus on that, find some happy, and stop making yourself miserable over s**t that isn't worth it.

bluhhh I kind of just felt like it was hard truths time rather than hold your hand time.

I still get cranky about s**t that happened to me when I was in elementary school. Just don't let it COMPLETELY TAKE OVER YOUR LIFE AUGH. :3