sorry but i just need some place to let all this stuff out, even if no one comments or replys.
Tl;dr at bottom.
So, after being together with my girlfriend for about a year and a half i found out she actureally wants to lose her virginity to someone else because of some strange gang bang fetish she has. when she 'plays' she never thinks of me because apparntly she likes taboo stuff better.
When i ask her about it she says shell do it with me anywayy for the first time and never cheat, but she doesn't understand that its what you want that matters, not what you show.
Because if you show one thing and reallly want someone else, then your either lieing to yourself or someone else.
why the hell is it every last girlfriend i have is some kind of whore =.=; is everyone like this? does ANYONE take love seriously anymore? Does anyone understand sex isnt something you do with everyone, its something special you share with only one person.
I have no idea if i should dump her before things get worse and i eventuraly get cheated on or i simply let it go..will she ever grow out of it?
Tl;dr: My girlfriends a whore
and i finnaly found a goal or something i want to do, hormone treatment to be a female. I live with my aunt and uncle because my mom AND dad both abused me up until i moves in with my aunt about a month ago (im 17) the thing is i finnaly feel like i have a family, i go out with people, go see my grandma and grandpa, they hug me when i really feel depressed, i have someone with me.
But my aunt even agreed with me, that when i begin to cross dress publicy and start doing my hormone treatment they wont want to see me anymore, neither will the rest of the family because they are homophobes, hate gays, and/or are seriously against what i want to do.
But i am not going to stop because of them, i finnaly have a goal and something i want to do, i am not slowing down just because my 'family' says its wrong. Apparntly they do not truly care if they can even TELL me face to face, that they will not want me around if i change.
People should love me for who i am, not what i am or what i do.
Tl;dr: Family is a bunch of hobophobes and il lose them once i do what i want- Hormone treatment.
