Hey, if I'd known it was going to blow up so well, I'd have done more. you know, put some goatse in for shock value and a lot of inappropriate language and pictures.
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I haven't cried yet. Don't want to.
That &^%&*%&)$%#$^* left me high and dry and I felt like a fool because I didn't see it coming.
I never had so much trust just blow away with three simple words.
Three words. Why couldn't it be 'I hate you'? That would have been better. Break it off, please, without dragging me along by the bond you've secretly been severing.
I can't believe it.
How could you do this?
But I know. I always knew. So why did I put it past you? Do I really trust that much? Did I?
I'm waiting for the next steps. When you keep dragging yourself forward, know I won't be there to save you anymore. Never again. Every time you fall, I want you to fall harder and harder until you can touch even a fraction of the pain you gave me when you broke that bond.
That bond was sacred. Friends. One of MY chosen. I CHOSE you for privilege. I bought crap for you with my own food money because I cared more about your happiness than I did about whether I ate the next day. If I had a million dollars, I'd have given half of it to you because I loved you that much.
But no. Three words, your one action. You thought I would FORGIVE? I am not so lenient. My grudges are long and deep and this wound won't heal for a long time. You betrayed me and expected... what?
You betrayed me and tried to keep it from me. You stabbed me in the back and I never even knew.
I won't be the same anymore. You're like all the rest. I pegged you wrong, and now I'm trying to pick up the pieces of the monument to you I stored in my heart.
Go ahead. You're not the person I became friends with anymore. Go ahead and ruin your life. Only months ago, you said you didn't want this to happen. You said you'd try your best not to let it happen.
I don't think you tried at all.
It's people like you--weak minded trash, the mindless drones of the Earth--who never rise above the level of animals. What happened to the mind I was cultivating in you? I taught you openness and thinking, perceiving and independence, and she dragged you away and said, "We're right. It's okay. I love you. I love you." It's so amazing what people will do for love. For love, you sold your soul and locked up your mind. All you have left is your body and I will laugh with the greatest of sorrows when you finally lose that too.
Did you even think? I'm sure you did. But no, Hannah took precedence over anything you actually thought. What does she know besides how to get plastered and slide out of the guilt of her last one night stand? I taught you so much that went to waist. You never learned. I've given up. You're not worth my time.
Even though I don't listen to rumors, you should have known someone would bring it up. You could never keep that from me. The shame was clear on your face. I never needed to hit you. That's too good for you. I hope you feel like the lowest form of scum on the planet.
I hope you have to live for a long, long time. That's a good punishment for you. If I had the power I would kill myself to show you. Death is too good for you. Live a long time with your guilt, and if you come crawling back know that you'll never rise above the level of a dog in my mind.
I sure as hell won't let myself fall into your trap again.
