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 Posted: Tue Feb 24, 2009 10:28 pm
ninja Tuesday, February 24
I started seeing someone named Dr. Ponder a few weeks ago. Ponder, really. What a great name for a shrink! Today was our last appointment. She thinks I need more therapy. I think her walls are depressing.
Let me explain. Back in September I got hit by an SUV with a stoned kid behind the wheel. I wasn't banged up too bad- some scratches, a broken wrist, lost a tooth and chipped some others, a few bruises, and I blacked out for a couple seconds- but it really shook me up. I got lucky that day. I was on my bike coming home, and looking forward to watching TV and getting in the shower. My bike took the brunt of the damage. It's in an ~ shape now. Completely useless. Not that I'd want to ride it if I could.
But ever since then I've been shaky while riding in the car. I think nearly every car is going to hit me, or we'll hit a pedestrian. The doctor says that most cases of Post traumatic stress (PTS) are gone by six months. Mine isn't going away, or getting better.
I'm not sure if I can get a drivers license or not. I want one, but I don't want to freeze up on the road. Who knows what could happen? Even if the dr says that I'd be fine driving since "It gives you back the power that you lost in the accident." I'm scared.
Ponder said a lot of things. She thinks that I should go to a Junior college, so I can move out. She says that my parents are an added stress. Everyone says that. I don't want it to be true, because they're my parents...but deep down I wonder if they're a part of it.
Actually, I'm not supposed to be writing this on here. I can't post things about the accident on the internet, or pictures until the case is over. I don't think they'll find this post though. I can check google just in case.
I'd really appreciate any comments.
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Posted: Wed Feb 25, 2009 3:57 am
She should only be telling you suggestions, not telling you what to do.
Honestly, she sounds like a dumb a**.
As for driving... take your time.. work your way up to it.
Start out small..
- just sit in the car a couple of times, get used to the way it feels.
- turn it on and maybe drive down the street or road, then come right back
and as time goes on, just increase the distance.
Don't worry about the other drivers, it just adds stress.
You do your job of driving and let them do theirs.
and PTS does not go away in 6 months. That's B freaking S
I'm still suffering from s**t that happened to me over 6 months ago..
heck over years ago. >.>;
As for college, that is totally up to you.
Good luck with that.
Mmmm... I think that's all =D
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Posted: Sat Feb 28, 2009 12:41 pm
I know. I had to go to see her for my case though. sweatdrop I'm not sure how much of what she says I'm going to take seriously.
As for driving, I just got the handbook a few weeks ago, so I'm going to take it one step at a time. Wish me luck!
It doesn't, really? O_O Thank god, I thought there was something wrong. Whew.
And for college, I've got a pretty good idea where I'm going to be going. wink
Now, onto my next entry!
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Posted: Sat Feb 28, 2009 12:59 pm
wink Saturday, February 28
Alright cynics-can I call you cynics?- alright cynics! Welcome to my second entry in this journal of mine. Lets get down to business.
As you may or may not know, my mommy says I'm special. In reality, I'm probably not such a beautiful and unique snowflake as I like to think I am, but here is what it is. (actually, disregard that paragraph.^^')
I'm going to college. I'll get back to you on where. The problem is we're moving, and out of state tuition is expensive. So I might have to lose my extra year. scream Wrrryy?!
God cynics, just when I thought things were going my way.
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Posted: Sun Mar 08, 2009 12:32 am
Weird in a good way ninja Sunday, March 8Hello and good DST day insomniacs!
I'm just in one of those thoughtful sleep deprived moods, so I'm going to write what's on my mind. I like gaia- as I'm sure many of you who are reading this do. The reason I joined was like most- I liked the cute little avatars and I wanted to play dress up with them.
But the reason I like it today is pretty different. Gaia is by no means the only social networking type site on the internet, though it is one of the larger ones. But unlike facebook or myspace, you present the world who you are, not how you look. With sites like myspace I find myself looking up old classmates from as far back as elementary school to see how they turned out, just because I can. Many of those people I didn't even consider friends, some I never got along with. To tell you the truth it makes me feel kind of creepy looking someone up like that.
Let me get to my point. On gaia, you start out as a n00b and you work your way through and find people you really share common interests with. If you're the quiet kid, it's a lot easier to communicate through the internet, since there's time to read your message, and the ever faithful backspace key. On other sites you usually find yourself with the same people you know at work and school and from the past, but on gaia you meet lots of new people easily.
I'm kind of glas I don't know most of the people on here in real life, because I feel like you get a better picture of me from talking to me online then in person. (I'm 'that girl in the corner- what's her name again?', nice to meet you.)
tl;dr- Gaia is a level playing field.
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Posted: Fri Mar 20, 2009 11:09 pm
pirate Friday, March 21
Hola me amigos muchos. No habla enspagnol, so....
I wanted to share something with everyone. My siblings cannot visualize well. As you already know, we're moving in a couple months. so I'm trying to help the little uns out with it, since they don't remember the last two four times we moved. I've got a little more experience then they do.
So I'm having a Q&A session with them and Andre's nervous about losing all his friends. The kids basically can't remember Las Vegas and they don't remember any of Pennsylvania, so basically this is their home. This is how it went: "Andre, trust me, you'll make new friends."
"But I'll never see any of them again!" Sonja joins in at this point.
Hoo boy. "You fight with all of your friends all the time."
"No I don't!"
"Sonja." she grumbles a little. "Right, anyway."
At this time Maurice takes the washcloth out of his mouth and decides to talk. Maurice is the blondy of the group. I don't know why. Everyone else in my family except my siblings has brown or black hair.
...but that's besides the point.
Maurice asks me how long we're going to be moving for. I reply about a half a week. "Oh."
"ANYWAY." they giggle "My point is we're going to be stuck in the car for twelve hours at a time. Not moving. How do you propose you're going to keep yourselves busy?" Silence. Sonja's playing with a nightlight. "Ri~ight..."
Three minutes later Sonja things she can bring her sewing machine. I stare at her "Wha~at?" silence.
"There will be lots of...spaghetti!" Andre says for the fiftieth time in an hour.
"No, there will NOT be lots of spaghetti! And even if there was you wouldn't eat it, you spaghetti hater!" Maurice giggles.
"Dude with a beard time!" I facepalm.
"It's a good thing you're cute."
and then he farted.
*sigh* such is my life.
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Posted: Thu Mar 26, 2009 1:00 am
I agree with you so much about Gaia.
People who didn't give me the time of day in school request to be my friend all the time. I guess they see that I'm friends with one of their friends and decide they have to be my friend too so they look cool.
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Posted: Tue Mar 31, 2009 8:28 pm
nch. nch. nch!
appy aprils fools! razz
Totally got you, didn't I? I'm an awesome troll.
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Posted: Mon Apr 20, 2009 11:06 pm
Tuesday April 21 blaugh
Also known as the best day of my life! I just got a home access center password and I'm beyond happy. I was so scared that I'd go on there and I'd find out I was failing three subjects, but I'm not! In fact, I'm not failing anything! eek Actually, I'm doing really good in everything except math. I BARELY passed math, managing to scrape by with a 70 since my merciful teacher is getting married in a few weeks and decided to make it a happy time for all(she dropped two low grades).
I think my parents will be willing to overlook the 70, since everything else is B or above. I kind of feel like shouting it from the rooftops. redface
Haha, I've never been a good student. I'd never try, or pay attention, or do my homework, leave my projects until the last day. It's a wonder I wasn't left back. I kind of got a wakeup call last year when I almost didn't graduate on time because of it. I'd be going to school for nine hours, then an hour of after school work, then two hours of night school. I made up about eleven credits that year. Whew. This probably sounds bad, but it's the best report card I can ever remember getting. biggrin
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Posted: Fri May 22, 2009 6:58 pm
Friday, May 22 blaugh
Woah! Yesterday I almost went up 100 posts in the guild! Watch out Zeromus, I'm catching up fast.
Today, lists:
Best comedians:
1. Pablo Fransisco
2. Gabreil Iglesias
3. Jeff Dunham
4. Lisa Lampenelli
5. Loni Love
Things I want to do this summer:
1. sleep
2. lose weight
3. succesfully make it through drivers ed
4. find a fun job
5. see if anyone (besides makenna) recognizes me
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Posted: Fri Jun 19, 2009 11:05 pm
alright.......................................
I'm bored so I'm just going to ramble..............
pie.
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Posted: Mon Jun 22, 2009 7:08 am
Pie is good! I like pie!
My dad used to grow boysenberries, and the pies my mom would make with them were the very best pies I ever had!
I make really good pies, too, actually. And I don't use lard in the crust anymore, so you could eat them!
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Posted: Wed Aug 12, 2009 12:24 am
mouth spewing poison
walking out more then in
out on bad terms
leaving is my business
if i could stay- I don't know how
starting out good
bubbling under the surface
without a doubt
inside looking out
It's not the same
you can't understand
some angsting words as I hurt
one breath
disconnect
you're another face in my past
walking away again
it's what I do
I leave
and live on
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Posted: Wed Aug 12, 2009 10:36 pm
Wow, Julie. That is deep...and very emo...
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Posted: Thu Aug 13, 2009 2:55 am
I know! gonk
That was my OOC moment.
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