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basically i have no friends but it wasn't always like that see i used to go to a normal highschool where i had tons of friends and lots of people liked me unfotunatley my grades weren't exactly up to par plus i hated about half my teachers cause i felt like they didn't care. so my parents put me into a charter school and my grades went from d's to a's which is good cause i really want to go to college. unfortunatley it is a one day a week thing and so i don't really have a chance to socialize with anyone. this was a year ago and i have lost all connections with my old friends. also i fnd it hard to make new friends because my town isn't exactly "teen friendly" i have to drive at least 10 miles in order to do anything interesting (mall, movies ect.) i do not have my normal liscence only my permit. all the clubs are through my old highschool which means you have to be enrolled to be in them. also i think my lack of friends is giving me depression. other than going to the gym to stay fit all i do is sit around my house all day bored out of my mind feeling sorry for myself. not often but every now and again i get thoughts of suicide as of yet i have not attempted it or even come close to attempting it but i am affraid that if this continues that i will slip more and more into depression and the thoughts of suicide will hapen more and more often. in case you are wondering i live in fallbrook california if you live here also check out my profile see if i am the kinda guy you might want to get to know if so pm me and maybe we can get together sometime otherwise just yeah give me some advice please people i am desperate

There must be someone you could talk to..when you get a chance to go to the movies or the mall see if you could meet someone there. I'm sure it won't be too hard to make a friend. Just whatever you do keep the suicidal thoughts out of your head. suicide is never the answer.

Are you allowed to go by yourself. because if you are you should consider it. and about the suicidal thoughts that should be a worry because the fear is when you are this depressed how close are you to actually doing it. if you don't plan to do anything it's not fine but it's not too serious if you think about doing it and your one step from doing it each time then you should be really worried.

i can but my problem is transportation my town is extremely small and the closest entertainment is 20 miles away i would bike but there is a free way i would have to bike on which is illegal and i don't have my liscence yet so idk

When i went through my depression i thought of suicide every single day. That isn't good at all. Maybe you should get together with people from your old school?