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Zimri

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Posted: Mon Oct 17, 2005 7:27 pm

Well, I'm pretty new to this guild and what not, but in the past I posted a lot in LI.

anyways my problem...

Latey, I've been more like s**t, today actually was one good day. and that rarely ever happens now. There was something that was laying on me, for 3 months, something emotional.
*BACKGROUND*
I have depression, i take the pills, and see a therapist, and what not.
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anyways, i felt really bad, me and my girlfriend were out walking... and i just turned to her said, "Ashley... I have to tell you something," and well she looked sorta well, worried, "I've... been smoking on and off for the past 3months..," me personaly, I hate smokers... and well.. cigs calm me down so much when i feel like sliting my arms... I told her that... and well.. she asked me why i didn't tell her.. and i told her why. I couldn't turn to you and say something to you that you hate...
it was hard telling her.. after words. i broke down... cuz well.. there are a few things that are keeping me here, my girlfriend, my friends, and my teacher... when i get stressed. i want to.. i want to cut... and if i dont smoke i do. and well. my therapist gave me a list of other methods to use other than cutting... and they dont work..
So... Today I gave something up.. that bettered my well being. But now, I am bettering myself by not smoking...

I just need some plan out advice of what not to do, and to do.

and keeping a journal.. i cant. i read it after words, and it get me worse...

thanks.. and night guys.

Posted: Mon Oct 17, 2005 7:57 pm

Well you could always burn the pages you write after you write them.

It seems like you are using smoking as another way to self harm. When you self harm it's because you are trying to cope with some pain you feel on the inside. To stop you will have to deal with that pain.

For therapy to work you have to be completely honest with your therapist. Tell her that the things she has given you aren't working and that what ever pain you are feeling is not resolved. Their job is to identify and help you deal with those sort of issues. I hope it all work out for you.

Chalda

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.M.e.o.w.M.i.x.

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Posted: Mon Oct 17, 2005 9:49 pm

Cutting.. is never good.
Neither is smoking.
Smoking kills. And living is good.
Very good.
I felt really bad a few days ago.
I felt like running.. you know, just flying away from all the problems and things that are bugging me.
But that's not the way to do it.

Using smoking to hide away from what ever.. is not so great.
Learn to deal with it.
It's hard, and thats where the girlfriend, friends, and family come in.
They are there to help and love you.
People love you.
Living is good..
Live happily.

Posted: Tue Oct 18, 2005 5:15 am

I agree mostly with what the other people have said. You need to cooporate with your therapist in order for things to work. If you tell your therapist that the things sugested are not working that will help to gain perspective on your situation.
In my opinion, if you are on medication and are still having issues with cutting, your medication is not working they way it should and you need to talk to your therapist about it. (I could be wrong if you have shown improvement while on the medication)
try to fill your day with things you enjoy like spending time with people you like. If you are doing things you like to do, you will have less of an oportunity to cut.

I also agree with Chalda, you can write your feelings down on a paper and then burn the pages after you are done. That way, you get your feelings out, and then by burning the page, you are letting go of those feelings.
Also, you could try various aspects of physical activity such as vigerous excersize (anything from running to weight lifting or even boxing), or yoga. You could also find some free time for yourself in a quiet place where you can do stretching excersizes and relaxation.

Here are some links

http://ourworld.compuserve.com/homepages/har/les1.htm <-- relaxation
http://www.thebody.com/mb/mini.html <-- relaxation

http://www.holistic-online.com/Yoga/hol_yoga_beg-guide.htm <-- Yoga

Wir3dLain

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Z Mann

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Posted: Wed Oct 19, 2005 5:36 pm

.M.e.o.w.M.i.x.

Cutting.. is never good.
Neither is smoking.
Smoking kills. And living is good.
Very good.
I felt really bad a few days ago.
I felt like running.. you know, just flying away from all the problems and things that are bugging me.
But that's not the way to do it.

Using smoking to hide away from what ever.. is not so great.
Learn to deal with it.
It's hard, and thats where the girlfriend, friends, and family come in.
They are there to help and love you.
People love you.
Living is good..
Live happily.

yes smoking is horrible, I just lost a very close gpa to smoking, he smoked himslef to death. his last cig he evered smoke was on August 12th, 2005 and died on like September 1st. so yes

Posted: Wed Oct 19, 2005 5:38 pm

me myslef, i sometimes get deperessed not, sucidal depressed but somewhat depressed, u know what I do? I Burn the Crap outta everything I can find. That makes me feel better. try it cheers me up! pirate

Z Mann

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Zimri

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Posted: Wed Oct 19, 2005 6:59 pm

another thing for me to worry about now...

i'm pills. i'm at 150mg right now, and my doctor wants to up it to 225mg...

so i'm just a little worried about what some of the effects will be.. and i hardly sleep again... so i'm gettinga little.. ya know... stupid...

Posted: Sun Oct 23, 2005 9:38 pm

Just always remember what is keeping you alive. If cutting yourself is all you can do, well keep smoking. If you don't want to smoke cut yourself...
You are the only one who can break youself out of the cycle. Be strong!

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