Where do I even start...
Well As some of you know, I'm gay, and rather open about it.
Now, when my ex and I broke up over 6 months ago...I was deeply hurt about it...I still am, however there is this amazing guy. I met him a while back but was always too shy to actually talk with him, and thanks to a good friend of mine, he gave me a little push to talk with him. Turned out he was rather shy as well, which was comforting to know.
About a couple of weeks ago...my father kicked me out of the house because of an argument, it was snowing/raining pretty bad and I was outside for maybe an hour. I had no one else to turn to, so I called him only seeking advice; Instead he came to pick me up...and I stayed at his house, we snuggled and such, and for once I actually felt something I haven't felt since the beginning of my old relationship, which lasted 11 months. We continued to talk on and off, and I learned that... he likes someone in Madison, not too far away from where we live, I was hurt by this a lot...he tends to be a bit oblivious when it comes to reading other peoples emotions. So I couldn't say anything about it...I also learned that he was going into the National Guard on the 5th of January. I was completely against this I hate the military, I hate how it works...he just told me he wanted to do something big in his life. I told him I'll support him on his choice no matter what.
*Sighs* He spent the night at my house on the 2nd of January...and he held me tight...and never let go, even when I woke up he was holding onto me.
I..made the mistake of saying that I love him...because he just smiled at me and kissed my forehead. However, I texted him all night on the 4th because I knew it'd be a while since I see him again. I said "Ben, please take care of your self...I'll be waiting for you when you come back...and I love you." his reply was "Same to you..."
What does this mean...just...take care? Or...I love you too?
My question is...should I actually wait...I mean if he is pursuing someone else...should I go after something that is seemingly impossible? And boot camp he said, would be a minimum of nine weeks, and a maximum of six months...My heart is screaming for me to wait...but is it even going to be worth it...?
I apologize for stretching this out so long....and thank you for reading...
Well As some of you know, I'm gay, and rather open about it.
Now, when my ex and I broke up over 6 months ago...I was deeply hurt about it...I still am, however there is this amazing guy. I met him a while back but was always too shy to actually talk with him, and thanks to a good friend of mine, he gave me a little push to talk with him. Turned out he was rather shy as well, which was comforting to know.
About a couple of weeks ago...my father kicked me out of the house because of an argument, it was snowing/raining pretty bad and I was outside for maybe an hour. I had no one else to turn to, so I called him only seeking advice; Instead he came to pick me up...and I stayed at his house, we snuggled and such, and for once I actually felt something I haven't felt since the beginning of my old relationship, which lasted 11 months. We continued to talk on and off, and I learned that... he likes someone in Madison, not too far away from where we live, I was hurt by this a lot...he tends to be a bit oblivious when it comes to reading other peoples emotions. So I couldn't say anything about it...I also learned that he was going into the National Guard on the 5th of January. I was completely against this I hate the military, I hate how it works...he just told me he wanted to do something big in his life. I told him I'll support him on his choice no matter what.
*Sighs* He spent the night at my house on the 2nd of January...and he held me tight...and never let go, even when I woke up he was holding onto me.
I..made the mistake of saying that I love him...because he just smiled at me and kissed my forehead. However, I texted him all night on the 4th because I knew it'd be a while since I see him again. I said "Ben, please take care of your self...I'll be waiting for you when you come back...and I love you." his reply was "Same to you..."
What does this mean...just...take care? Or...I love you too?
My question is...should I actually wait...I mean if he is pursuing someone else...should I go after something that is seemingly impossible? And boot camp he said, would be a minimum of nine weeks, and a maximum of six months...My heart is screaming for me to wait...but is it even going to be worth it...?
I apologize for stretching this out so long....and thank you for reading...
