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(Repost from my LI thread, just felt like giving the guild some insight into my arrogant jerk that is myself)

Before I start typing the issue, please understand this is more of a vent. Yeah, I'm gonna sound emo and I guess this post will make me look like an attention whore. The fact is I don't care and just need to have my opinion at least heard by the anonymous ether of the internet.

Also, I've not posted for a while, had some crap on my mind, which led me into pushing my WoW guild rather hard in terms of content (BC raids cleared post nerf)

My dad died on the 28th February 2007, don't know if it's hit me, don't care. what concerns me is the recent events, concerning his life insurance.

Over twenty seven thousand pounds. after funeral costs, which my grandad wants back, that's like 25k. That will be split three ways between me, my brother, and my half-sister on my dad's side. 8.3k each. Therein lies my so-called problem, and my emo, attention seeking post.

My sister is still a kid, not sure of her exact age as I haven't had contact with my dad since I was 18, and that just him coming round to drop off some presents, her money is going to go into trust until she's twenty-five. Her money will pay for her to move out, possibly get an education.

My brother, twenty years old, has severe mental disabilities. His money will be looked after by my mum, and used to redecorate his room, get him a PC and whatever he may need in the future, as he has been declared unable to budget his money etc.

They both deserve their money, it will improve their life and potential prospects. My sister is too young to fend for herself, and my brother is unable to, and then there's me.

Twenty five years old, spent most of my life coasting. On benefits, on the streets, or more recently, with my girlfriend who, due to her disablity, gets about three times what I do on benefits. I'm starting to buck my ideas up, and am looking for work, trying to get even a crappy Christmas job in the local shopping mall, yet still no job. I have the ability to look after myself, but not the motivation to do so.

I just don't feel like I deserve to profit from my dad's death. I don't deserve this money. Granted I'm giving half of it to my girlfriend to pay her back for the bills etc but I'll still have four grand of money I don't have any right to. I know I don't really have a right to the benefits and I realise people will point that out, so I'm doing it now, so don't bother.

That's it. Rant over, don't really feel any better but meh. Discuss, mock, whatever. Thanks for reading this though. Especially if you read it all.

Dodgy Doctor

She did Prince. Doctor your thread has been moved to the b***h Zone. As to your problem...I don't see what you have to complain about. If you really don't feel you deserve it then donate it or give it to people that you feel do deserve it. Otherwise...work to deserve it.